November days

Hullo!
Overheard in the radio today..DJ was saying: hello people..it's the eve of November already- have you decided where to go for a holiday?
No wor..wanted to have some holiday too but somehow my travel passion really gone down to drain at the moment..wondering because I felt older/ mature, or is it because of my current 'working' life which is so hectic.. and rushy..and pushy?

Looking back, it's really the end of the year.. so fast time flies
The fact that the duration of the time doesn't mean anything, but how have you passed it and how meaningful was it- remains the ultimate motive..
I was once motivated to think of how have i passed each week differently..but somehow i felt that those things that I've done were insufficient
Anyway, I did a wonderful thing today (or so called wonderful)
Shy shy also did something like 'that'
Was frightened, but I guess, at least I went through the moment
=)
Not telling here!! But I'm describing lah, in case you wanna know more..
My heart was really beating so fast due to unexpected expectations
For a moment, I wanted to give up
But then they pushed..and with their support, I went through it
I guess they were all feeling butterflies the same as mine somehow
Anyway, though it lasted for 3 mins, and there were mistakes done during that short time, I made it!!!
And boy, they were all laughing too..great encouragement lah..love you guys!! :D
So, I did something different today which I thought I wanted to but never had the courage enough
Hopefully more experiences after this:)
Anyway, good night and Hello november!!

Mice race

Feel like a mice racing in a wheel, and running along an entangled running track
Having lots of work bottleneck..it's like, everything seemed problematic and 'bluish'
Anyway, it has come to a point where I have that I-am-lost look and feel

But not giving up lah of course..I'll just have to figure out the right way..

Gambatte!!

P/s: craving for onion bun at this hour???? Though I've stopped having buns/ bread for sometime due to zzzzzzzzz feel...

So long~

Finding the right answers

Seemed like I really lose track in updating my blog...
Been thinking hard on the way back just now
There are always unanswered questions that I wish I know the answers
But it'll always remain unknown... unless with time that passes by
Maybe it's a feeling of insecure, or perhaps overthinking
And also mere luck
But the feeling of fear is also there, 'dangling' on
And I was innocent enough to think that things will be fine with time as long as I work harder..
Unfortunately, no, that is not the answer at all

Woops~ sorry for blabing here..
Just that I realise as much as time passes by, there are so so many uncertainties
So many things that.. sometimes when I ponder, it seemed that I have yet to go through it yet
But I'm also afraid that it will sink deeper..
Am I in the right track?

It will never be known..
Whatever~
And I guess the best way is, think deeply and concentrating hard in this
Finding back the real motivation..~

So long~

More stringent exams

Today was the third time for me to witness Oral Defence for my another lab member
Somehow one of my thoughts were: if I could throw the tissue paper that I was holding to that whoever that asked so many irrelevant questions, I would!!!

The moment she finished her presentation, we were surprised with another new arranged event- an open Q and A session by one of the external invited examiners, who had prepared about 10 slides with very very unexpected questions and answers he had already known much more before he asked her.
We could feel the tense air around us.. According to him, it's his first time too..
Then they proceeded with another close Q and A session

Sigh

W-h-a-t-e-v-e-r-l-o-o-k

Anyway, as exepected, she passed!!! Already expected one..just that the process is really, urm, not good..
So long la~

Accomplishments?

It's going to be end of june already, mind myself
Can't believe that I've been reluctantly living in the state in which I hope that time would fly off much slower
somehow this year, my anticipation to holidays seemed to be lacking.
Is it due to insufficient leaves? lol
In fact, it is mainly due to hectic work also
I wonder if, if I have more time :P what would I be doing..
tough question eh?
which literally brings back to question/ square 1: how good am I in managing my time?

so, people: how good are you in managing your time? Are you enjoying your life at the moment? Or wishing it's not wasted day to day? If you're wishing the latter, it's definitely the time to start making your life more meaningful! Learn something, go through something new or at least memorable so that you won't be regretting it later.
I'm trying it too, and maintaining it :)
If you're pondering, like..what?? It could be a new hobby, interest, sports, making new friends, traveling or at least, read something!

Gambateh ah!!

So long~