well well, what's next?

I wish I could fly kites at any time that I want
Or watch movies non-stop like I used to do
I wish I could listen to songs all day long
And sleep all night and day long that I thought I could
Or hug and play with my beloved dog all day, disturbing him when he's asleep and scratching his head for as long as he wants
and then tightly hugs him

*lazy thinking mentality right?
sigh

Wondering why environment forces our life to be more difficult each day
Is this a consequence of the ambitions that we are chasing?
The higher we aim, the harder it is..and the higher we climb?

It suddenly strikes me today, well, what's next?
It's like no longer another motivating reason to do things that are supposed to be done

Yeap yeap, I know
And therefore, i wonder
what would i feel if i'm working and i feel no motivations anymore?
something really deep to ponder for now..

perhaps been overthinking lately
and as it's a monday again tomorrow

oops so sorry for an emo post
it's just something that came across my mind today
perhaps, i'm going to another stage of more 'matured' life
perhaps, it's just because it's a monday blues

we can't always get all we want, right?

so long~

sometimes..

Sometimes, a small thing can further trigger to a series of eventful events
or, perhaps, to a series of uneventful events
It's always the way we look at things- either half milk full or half milk empty

Recently, or should I say, the final bubble burst already
My opinion: Never take a person's patience for granted or it will lead to further damages
This was what happened recently
Okayla, the stress for the past 1.5 years on this small thing seemed nothing at all..but when it takes place during the time when a small boat is almost stranded in the ocean, it became a bursting bubble..
Actually, most of the solutions are available
And the problem seemed so small too..
But it's whether I'm willing to take the trouble to settle it, or just let it be like that..
OOPSS..*I-think-i'm-blabbing-here-again!!-look*

Okayla, to cut it short, it's about naggings on a small item- washing machine that takes place weekly lah
Got so fed-up already but thinking that I have to be a little bit more patient
After all, time flies
Luckily I'm just using that only item and nothing else.
Otherwise, ==""

So, to think positively, don't take things too seriously!! Live and laugh by the days and there'll be no regrets :)
Always look half side full of the glass ya!! 

November days

Hullo!
Overheard in the radio today..DJ was saying: hello people..it's the eve of November already- have you decided where to go for a holiday?
No wor..wanted to have some holiday too but somehow my travel passion really gone down to drain at the moment..wondering because I felt older/ mature, or is it because of my current 'working' life which is so hectic.. and rushy..and pushy?

Looking back, it's really the end of the year.. so fast time flies
The fact that the duration of the time doesn't mean anything, but how have you passed it and how meaningful was it- remains the ultimate motive..
I was once motivated to think of how have i passed each week differently..but somehow i felt that those things that I've done were insufficient
Anyway, I did a wonderful thing today (or so called wonderful)
Shy shy also did something like 'that'
Was frightened, but I guess, at least I went through the moment
=)
Not telling here!! But I'm describing lah, in case you wanna know more..
My heart was really beating so fast due to unexpected expectations
For a moment, I wanted to give up
But then they pushed..and with their support, I went through it
I guess they were all feeling butterflies the same as mine somehow
Anyway, though it lasted for 3 mins, and there were mistakes done during that short time, I made it!!!
And boy, they were all laughing too..great encouragement lah..love you guys!! :D
So, I did something different today which I thought I wanted to but never had the courage enough
Hopefully more experiences after this:)
Anyway, good night and Hello november!!

Mice race

Feel like a mice racing in a wheel, and running along an entangled running track
Having lots of work bottleneck..it's like, everything seemed problematic and 'bluish'
Anyway, it has come to a point where I have that I-am-lost look and feel

But not giving up lah of course..I'll just have to figure out the right way..

Gambatte!!

P/s: craving for onion bun at this hour???? Though I've stopped having buns/ bread for sometime due to zzzzzzzzz feel...

So long~

Finding the right answers

Seemed like I really lose track in updating my blog...
Been thinking hard on the way back just now
There are always unanswered questions that I wish I know the answers
But it'll always remain unknown... unless with time that passes by
Maybe it's a feeling of insecure, or perhaps overthinking
And also mere luck
But the feeling of fear is also there, 'dangling' on
And I was innocent enough to think that things will be fine with time as long as I work harder..
Unfortunately, no, that is not the answer at all

Woops~ sorry for blabing here..
Just that I realise as much as time passes by, there are so so many uncertainties
So many things that.. sometimes when I ponder, it seemed that I have yet to go through it yet
But I'm also afraid that it will sink deeper..
Am I in the right track?

It will never be known..
Whatever~
And I guess the best way is, think deeply and concentrating hard in this
Finding back the real motivation..~

So long~