Priceless help

Happy New Year!!!!!
Wishing all the best wishes in the world to everyone!!

I have something to update...
In fact, previous 2 months had been such a dreadful, time constraining, stress, whatever period I could think of. It wasn't past 2 months, it was since 1/2 year ago. Everything seemed so tough that I really thought I couldn't handle much anymore. And I thought I had limits because the obstacles were so much! No wonder can get perm head damage...sigh
And previous 2 months were the worse... All because of uncertain future...
Anyway, along the way when I was down, there were many nice people that helped here and there. It just so, priceless and felt so touched. Even when I felt there was little light and more darkness, suddenly, there were some angels here and there that provided some supports.
So you know, it fluctuated madly like, roller coaster
If you noticed my earlier blogs, I've always mentioned that I'm like those running mice in the roller...and how much time flies...and everything just seemed so : non-stop

I had severe diarrhea two days ago, was really severe...and boy, I was so weak!! Then I had MC yesterday and went to have lunch while being alone at home- for the first time over here, I was on MC. Can you imagine it? Almost 4 years and MC at home- 1st time.
And as I walked along to the hawker place all alone, I felt so peaceful, so relaxed, so nice! It was really such a nice feeling that I was sincerely hoping, I want a holiday and stop all the nonsense!

But I'm back again today on Friday, trying to finish the one I'm trying to procastinate..but can't because of the scary fees...sigh
It's just so horrible..

Then before off work, she made my day again!! She made my day last week when she helped me to settle the pass thing, and when I came on Wednesday in the morning, she had a very good piece of news for me- passed! :))
But then I was literally slightly dissatisfied because it wasn't the level that I wanted. Anyway, I was thankful enough for her help in making it so soon :))
Then suddenly today, she helped me again before off work time :')
And I finally won what i wanted!! sobs :'))))))
Really thankful. Along the way, there were many others too that helped sooooooo much... she was one of them who made a huge difference, along with few others such as YB, HM, and PC. A is the best :'))
For this matter: these 4 people helped soooooooooo much!!
and I could finally see real colors of others too zzzzz
For many others, numerous nice people along the way: J, CC, YY, CB, LG, SJ, ND, SY, JB
(Lol sounds like an acknowledgement page haha)
Sobs really touched.... :')   
not many people had crossed my path..but the things that you guys have done...priceless... :')
Thank you u guys!!
And i've posted this on my fb:

the crossing of many wonderful people along my paths really really made me more appreciate life ever than before...thank you!! :')
will be more motivated and i will remember to pass your deeds to others :')
and will never forget all these people ever:))
P/S: sometimes the small deed that you guys have done really made a whole load of differences in others' life... truly priceless feeling. i hope i can pass these on too whenever i could~

okay i'm babbling here..but thank you:)) finally seeing some lights... :)) 


it is utmost important to apply what you know to help others, regardless of the rewards (in which there's supposed to be no rewards at all for anything that you should expect, literally speaking)

:')

you guys won't know if you've made any differences in other people's life, but you guys did!!! :')

Best things in life are FREE!!

Expectations

hello!

It's already 'sian' have to live up to own expectations, and getting disappointed when dreams/ hope/ plans did not come true..

But it's worse if one have to live up to other people's expectations
What's the point of having face ah?

And talking about this, how to reduce the ego-ness?

We choose our own path because that's what we want- remember it, folks!
I always believe we are the sole designer of our lives, but nice people that comes along colour our lives, contributes, helps, whatever that makes it more meaningful
Donates more sunshine but not too heaty
Colors more rainbows after rain
Draw more twinkling stars at night

And the same (decolouration, haha:P) for those bad people..;)
Cause there's a need to balance or otherwise there'll be no reality and we'll probably living in heaven
Because lessons must be learned as we grow

But, what's the point to live up to other people's expectations? feels more burdened only
As if the rest of the parties can help to contribute anything, and anything but criticisms?

Wake up okay, life's never perfect, and so are people...

Happily ever after

Do I need to go back to square 1?

Having some serious thinking despite the heavy workload.. Coz tomorrow is a holiday
Kinda down thinking if I'm proceeding the right way
Am I choosing the right pathway? Route to... Anything?
Losing my patience too- I really wonder why
Perhaps, I'm not as relevant as I thought I am?
Feels like in a maze..or a few mazes of life
So long~

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