B vz S

This will be just another day to be remembered...

I just can't understand how could those freshies laugh and clapped when all that she mentioned were so brainless?

Because of the mentality that Sharifah has, we'll never progress.. You guys just think everything is so perfect and that those that are not satisfied should leave. You don't compare because you know you're not even competitive enough. And because you don't compare to other countries, you'll just be like those happy frogs under the coconut shell.. you won't even know of the tsunami is coming and in a blink of eyes, everything is gone.
People that lead us should at least has a wise judgement. You don't have to compare the education level to indicate that you're smart or not. It's the IQ and EQ itself.

Those that applauded when those brainless facts were voiced up. Did they applaud because her voice was loud and seemed strong?
Or did they applaud, barely understanding anything?
One thing to be noted, I'm sure the English level is barely good for most of them.

Comparing to animals and sharks fins. Being thankful because we get to eat shark fins? Hello, do you notice how many of us who are against sharks fins soup nowadays?
And talking about animal rights? When human rights, that we, as human, are born to be able to speak out were asked to keep quiet when we want to raise our opinions?
No one said about the microphone being snatched off. To me, you've snatched off her microphone, even before she finishes her statement.
Perhaps, your scheme of giving smart phones may brainwash some, but definitely not all. What's the point of giving a smartphone? To boost up the economy? When the economy seemed getting worse?
With all the increasing costs?
I can barely understand. Why not use the money to improvise in research? In scholarships? In increasing educational system?
When university rankings are dropped, it's be hardert o climb up again. It's not the end if proper ways are implemented.
Sigh..

If there are more Bavani(s), we'll definitely progress much better,
Have you seen how much our university drop from year to year?
Worse is, the dropping level is horrendous. It's just so disappointing. To be truth, there are many of us who would want to return to our home beloved country when the time is right. I am one of them who wanted to. But my heart is shattered when more of these come up.
Do you know how many talents are recruited to other countries? Do you know how much of money that you all have spent for those free education since we were young?
Do you realise that the money that you've spent were mostly 0 investments?
Because those would leave any soon?
It's not that they want to leave, it's a force to leave.

Do you realise the money spent on health coverage for the people would be reduced, if you control the diets of the people better?

Do you realise how many obese people are around because there's a lack of control for health consciousness?
All these will lead to expenditures in the governement health sectors.

Do you realise that the more shrunken your mentality is, the worse everything will exponentially become? :(

It's really a true disappointment...

Also, itt feels so hopeless to see what these new generations are becoming into. She had mentioned this, if you're not happy, you should leave. This statement, doesn't really apply to educational level only. it could represent more than that. Do you think everyone's mind is like those youngsters who applauded?

Perhaps, if you train up more people like these, the country will surely succumb. Other countries make the best out of the best. You guys are the total opposite. making the worse out of the best. We have eberything in the country- from sceneries, to resources, to talents. And yet, the standards are dropping ridiculously each year. It feels really sad. Why other countries could welcome us so warmly while you guys,... prefer to kick out...

The main reason is the sense of comfort. You guys are not willing to change because you're happy and contented. You guys are lazy to think.
Or another reason is, you guys are just trying to make us think 2+2= 5
So that you guys will not have to have much troubles. So you guys can live easily while the others stay in silence.

If leaders are themselves lack of good thinking skills, how can they lead people for better?

Babbling too much

Recently I have this habit of babbling too much- erm, through emails...mainly because:

1. I was too occupied with writing and writing- that until my brain seemed to dysfunction
2. I was anti-social- all outings reduced to -1
3. I was sitting at my desk place most of the time- health also probably deteriorated; lack of sports!!
4. I wasn't having sufficent sleeping hours.. 5-6 hours? - resulting in strenuous brain after waking up

Oh boy, I deserve a looooooooooooong gooooood holiday!

Anyway, my points wasn't the above:
well, I bombed my colleague's email yesterday coz I wasn't focused on the email that he had sent me just for my information...
I first replied with a wrong date
Then i corrected the date
Then I sent another email saying please disregard my earlier two emails to further explain and minus his time reading my email...(it was about 6pm, all done within 15mins?)
Then today morning, i realised that i read the contents of the email wrongly...OOooopPPsss
Means I had deciphered the wrong information
And so, whatever that I wrote yesterday were in fact- useless
Hmmmmmm --> :S (this was my expression when I was showering, because the thought just came up when I was having my morning shower)
zzzzzzzzzzzz

And so, I decided to send him the 4th email apologizing: sorry for bombing your mailbox
aiyohhh how paiseh I felt
how blur was I ah? =="

anyway, felt kinda touched when he said these:

No problem.

I don’t really understand what you are writing anyway.

Good to get things out of your system when you are stressed. Bomb my mailbox anytime.

LOL
haihhhh...paisehnyaaaaa
==
but really, really thankful for sweeeet people like these too ^^

and suddenly I'm thankful not for being a doctor
imagine how careless would I be?
:S

anyway, thanks everything to brain dysfunction! So lousy, at such a young age and being such a blur person :(
And before all these, I only got complimented for being meticulous
wrong judgement hor...

Sigh...Recently, the sleep deprivation effect had me feeling lack of sufficient sleep, that even my junior, when she saw me (for us to have lunch), she asked me- did you just wake up from sleep?

zzzzzzzz
If I have such a nice life to wake up from sleep during lunch hour... that would be a rainbow lor! Plus, impossible for right now when the writing work is so intense...
okayla so long~

Priceless help

Happy New Year!!!!!
Wishing all the best wishes in the world to everyone!!

I have something to update...
In fact, previous 2 months had been such a dreadful, time constraining, stress, whatever period I could think of. It wasn't past 2 months, it was since 1/2 year ago. Everything seemed so tough that I really thought I couldn't handle much anymore. And I thought I had limits because the obstacles were so much! No wonder can get perm head damage...sigh
And previous 2 months were the worse... All because of uncertain future...
Anyway, along the way when I was down, there were many nice people that helped here and there. It just so, priceless and felt so touched. Even when I felt there was little light and more darkness, suddenly, there were some angels here and there that provided some supports.
So you know, it fluctuated madly like, roller coaster
If you noticed my earlier blogs, I've always mentioned that I'm like those running mice in the roller...and how much time flies...and everything just seemed so : non-stop

I had severe diarrhea two days ago, was really severe...and boy, I was so weak!! Then I had MC yesterday and went to have lunch while being alone at home- for the first time over here, I was on MC. Can you imagine it? Almost 4 years and MC at home- 1st time.
And as I walked along to the hawker place all alone, I felt so peaceful, so relaxed, so nice! It was really such a nice feeling that I was sincerely hoping, I want a holiday and stop all the nonsense!

But I'm back again today on Friday, trying to finish the one I'm trying to procastinate..but can't because of the scary fees...sigh
It's just so horrible..

Then before off work, she made my day again!! She made my day last week when she helped me to settle the pass thing, and when I came on Wednesday in the morning, she had a very good piece of news for me- passed! :))
But then I was literally slightly dissatisfied because it wasn't the level that I wanted. Anyway, I was thankful enough for her help in making it so soon :))
Then suddenly today, she helped me again before off work time :')
And I finally won what i wanted!! sobs :'))))))
Really thankful. Along the way, there were many others too that helped sooooooo much... she was one of them who made a huge difference, along with few others such as YB, HM, and PC. A is the best :'))
For this matter: these 4 people helped soooooooooo much!!
and I could finally see real colors of others too zzzzz
For many others, numerous nice people along the way: J, CC, YY, CB, LG, SJ, ND, SY, JB
(Lol sounds like an acknowledgement page haha)
Sobs really touched.... :')   
not many people had crossed my path..but the things that you guys have done...priceless... :')
Thank you u guys!!
And i've posted this on my fb:

the crossing of many wonderful people along my paths really really made me more appreciate life ever than before...thank you!! :')
will be more motivated and i will remember to pass your deeds to others :')
and will never forget all these people ever:))
P/S: sometimes the small deed that you guys have done really made a whole load of differences in others' life... truly priceless feeling. i hope i can pass these on too whenever i could~

okay i'm babbling here..but thank you:)) finally seeing some lights... :)) 


it is utmost important to apply what you know to help others, regardless of the rewards (in which there's supposed to be no rewards at all for anything that you should expect, literally speaking)

:')

you guys won't know if you've made any differences in other people's life, but you guys did!!! :')

Best things in life are FREE!!

Expectations

hello!

It's already 'sian' have to live up to own expectations, and getting disappointed when dreams/ hope/ plans did not come true..

But it's worse if one have to live up to other people's expectations
What's the point of having face ah?

And talking about this, how to reduce the ego-ness?

We choose our own path because that's what we want- remember it, folks!
I always believe we are the sole designer of our lives, but nice people that comes along colour our lives, contributes, helps, whatever that makes it more meaningful
Donates more sunshine but not too heaty
Colors more rainbows after rain
Draw more twinkling stars at night

And the same (decolouration, haha:P) for those bad people..;)
Cause there's a need to balance or otherwise there'll be no reality and we'll probably living in heaven
Because lessons must be learned as we grow

But, what's the point to live up to other people's expectations? feels more burdened only
As if the rest of the parties can help to contribute anything, and anything but criticisms?

Wake up okay, life's never perfect, and so are people...