Sobs...RIP Robin Williams

My fave show with him was numerous, and one really unforgettable is the "Dead Poet Society...

 

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RIP Robin Williams....

Today, I was surprised that I was thought of when discussion is needed for that person's future project:) too bad la...things happen for a reason right....

And today, my junior helped to sit opposite me during lunch as one knows why I was so reluctant to join them for lunch..

Bad and good day.. 50-50

Subtle harassment is still ongoing...growing hatred but at the same time, CBB mood is turned on too..

As for the lab meeting, my boss was very 'face giving', asking me if he should disclose it and he didn't...hehe

List of eventful events though was initially shocked and saddened with the loss of Robin Williams..

My blog today is really *no face see* but I'm also not entirely in the blogging mood. Just to leave a short note..

So long..

A reminder post to myself in future: Being elderly

Lessons of life as you grow riper than before:

1. You must not grow to be more stubborn. Listen to advices.
- Do you remember how often you asked Aunt Joyce to stop taking cold, sweet Pokka green tea? A sip is still hazardous. Do you remember how many continuous hours of sleep she had after she took one-two sips only? Do you remember the NOTES that you left on her fridge?? God doesn't help those that don't help themselves??

2. You must continuously be happy.
- Yes, I know it's hard to be happy always, but be positive and be motivated! If you want to die, please don't bring troubles to others. Be happy, and everyone around you would be much happier.

3. You must know how to take care of yourself, and of others by this age.
- People say when we grow older, we become more childish, or was it- can't be bothered actually? (P/S: I wish I am able to do some research on this! =.=" oh well, neurology is definitely not my field!) If you want to bring less troubles to people, learn to take good care of yourself.

4. Go to the homes, if you think you should. You will not die so fast if you're continuously happy over at the homes, should you be there one day. Don't argue with everyone saying you're capable.
- Do I need to say more? I hope you're not having dementia by then and don't remember these! There's no such thing as leaving the homes only one says goodbye. It's not a jail, really. it may look like one, but it isn't at all. Going there is better than staying at home. It worries other people, such as me who is more busybody than anyone else.

5. Give more, and give without receiving is the greatest happiness of all. Forgive everyone.
- Life may be tough, but trust me, you'd be as happy as the dogs that you've seen in NANAS Singapore in Johor that you went earlier yesterday, rolling over the horses' kennels and irritating the horses to the point that *grin*, the horses had to stomp their feet and whined to complain or sigh loudly!

- There'll be relatives that forget you and can't forgive of what you've done in the past (of the scary stories that I heard earlier and don't know if it is ever validated) and if that happens, plan for your own future! (Sigh, I hope mine is never like that in future; leaving the tenant hopeless to find for help if something worse is bound to happen again) Forgive everyone and don't remember the bad things only.

But of all these points, I've realised that my threshold have reached. I can't be responsible for bigger events anymore as it really scares me, as I know her relatives are hopeless. My mom told me to do more charity as she said it's better than doing any other charity. I agree with her, but at the same time, I also know my limits and capabilities as well.

To be truth, I do without expectations (that's why I enjoyed myself tremendously in SPCA though I am a bit afraid of big, wild dogs despite my fondness for dogs: urgh); but for someone like her whom I hold no authority at all...it is a truly terrifying and tiring experience for me. I at least expect her relatives to be alert and care for her more (Well, I really insulted some of her relatives because they asked really brainless questions like: "Must she really be sent to the hospital?";"Was it really serious?""Oh, I can't see her tomorrow" (End-to-end, hospitalization is all about money and they were being practically cautious to stay away from all sorts of troubles or money matters, and probably they hope that one is not told at all or do not know anything on these at all) --> Selfish people='(

Say I'm timid, but really, I'll just do my best before leaving. Post-leaving this comfy rented room, I hope to hear better news but feelings negatively say so.

It's also entirely different from a case whereby: if something is bound to happen, and I will have the urge to straight contact her who-and-who immediately because I know they're RELIABLE and not selfish, cold-blooded, brainless or money-minded in any way. You know, when she was sent to the A & E, I actually can't be bothered to tell her sister at all despite my mom keep telling me to inform her at that moment; because I know it's plain hopeless. I did anyway and only to mentally vomit blood later with her response (Yes I am hot-tempered when it comes to things that I can't see go through fairly or well).

If they supported me thoroughly, I wouldn't be so depress when dealing with these. Well, things always happen for a reason. And this brings me to another last-but-not-least-lesson-of-the-day:

6. Things really happen for a reason. Always bear this in mind!
- On the surface, things may look really ugly but there's always a glitter of positivity when a negative issue surfaces.
- Coincidentally, all these re-surfacing problems are telling me now that despite feeling so tired with all these (plus the seem-so-far-to-end-workload before I see the real sunrise), it's also a point to know that I should move on to a better place. Every single close friend that are aware of my current life had told me these for sometime but I was just too lazy or probably, too comfy to be more hardworking to do this :| (Yes, blame myself for my procrastination!)

I really hope to find own home by now but sadly, I'm incapable to do so at this moment (BIG SIGH!). Well, it's just not time yet. Be patient gal!!

Anyway, remember these hard lessons, please!

So long~

of blood is thinner than water

People say it is blood that is THICKER than water

What I observe more is the other way round, especially living with a fine example.

I don't mean to poke my nose into people's family affair, but can you understand how do I feel when I don't have the feel to tell even her closest sister that she was hospitalised?

And after telling her, her answers were: Ok let me know if there's any updates and take care.

J.U.S.T.L.I.K.E.T.H.A.T

Then I reached home knowing I have to clean the toilet and her clothes with diarrhoea....because time would help the bacteria to grow more happily if it was not cleaned...

And the toilet will suffer..and so do I

Today morning while I was cleaning up her room from the heavy diarrhea before rushing to my friend's open house (she was really unfit to even bend down), I was telling her that she should go to the homes...

She said it was too expensive..

Then after coming back from the open house at about 6pm today (i brought some food for her also since I have the feel that she won't be able to cook, and probably wont eat)...I saw her head tilted against my room's locked door with clothes half worn on the rattan chair.

My expression was OMG @@"
So, I asked her to go hospital and she said she wants to take a cab.
I looked at her like this =.= and said, who's gonna carry you to the cab?

Then I said I need to call ambulance.
And so the ambulance came.

After reaching home at 9pm, all the phones came non-stop.

First was from her money-minded cousin:
Uncle S: Where is J?
Me: She was hospitalised. Just sent her to the hospital with the ambulance.
Uncle S: Oh
Me: speechless (too moody with J's sister comments thati CBB)
Uncle S: Why hospitalised?
Me: She was very weak lah
Uncle S: Did you inform her sis?
Me: (Am I supposed to cover all these? Not being calculative but I was only thinking, he could have done it and inform her right? Anyway, he has an 'RP' (personality) that i could never be fond of and never respected him) Yes I just told her
Uncle S: Tomoro I may not have time to go see her leh
Me: (bursted) Up to you whether have time or not, you all are her relatives. Anyway, you guys always no time one lah
Me: hang up the phone

Minutes later, phone rings again

Uncle S: Can I know which hospital she went to?
Me: Alexandra
Uncle S: Which ward and bed ah?
Me: I don't know coz I was not informed yet. the registration counter is open and you can ask them one.
Uncle S: Thanks
Me: bye

then minutes later, her old friend called...and said he tried getting her whole day..
I told her she was hopsitalised and said I couldn't access the mailbox. he left something for her.

Then minutes later, he called again asking which hospital again (this is quite old uncle that i didn't feel that angry when responding to him coz he sounded nice) and said his leg is in pain, may not be able to see her. I said, it's okay, got heart can already. Some people don't even have heart what more is time.

Then after that, her cousin's wife called. This time, she asked, what happened, why, and then was it serious?
I was like =.=" if not serious can go hospital one meh? And if don't know the ward, please go and ask at the counter.

haihz

practical people
and all these are rich people leh....
sigh...

my mom was laughing so much to see my insulting comments. too bad lah, i may sound really b**chy but these people don't earn my respect and so I really CBB.

so long~

MH 17:(

It doesn't matter which plane that got downed. What matters most is, how could they just shoot a plane like that??? These are innocent lives.. Why war?? St*pid, selfish ppl, terrorist!!! heartless!!!!

Why people must be at war and cause misery to each other???!

We had a great old friends gathering, and most of us were sad with the fate of MH, keep compensating...and the lives involved on the plane

But we were extremely furious...these are the innocent lives of people, family members flying for vacation, dreaming to see their loved ones for family reunions or festive seasons, and the scientists who would save millions of lives!! 

Even living people like us are furious...I wonder how could they really RIP? :'((

1/2 year has flown by

Yep, the title that says it all.

Ask yourself these:

How much have been done for the past 1/2 year?

How much that is supposed to be accomplished, but you refused/denied/procastinated to do so?

How much that you've anticipated, have been done?

And, how much of resolutions that you have made earlier this year, have been achieved?


Well, can't wait for the time to open up another new chapter of life....;)

so long~