weird weird lately

Yeah..is really weird weird case lately
Wondering what's wrong with myself too
Been irritated easier than before

eg 1:
bought breakfast for her as she sprained her back last week, wed i think, and she insisted i take the money every morning until saturday morning, when she actually handed me the money. i was zzzzz, and asked her, why so calculative?
erm, of coz i won't take the money la..i am as stubborn as a cow okay!

eg2:
washed toilet for her just only (yes I know is late at this hour, but at first i thought want to leave the bleach on as disinfectant until the next morning (previously i scrubbed hard at the walls and i think it's energy draining, especially for someone like me who always OT in school). finally decided to wait about 5 mins and rinse and scrub the walls off (after spraying with bleach), actually this is very easy. This was what i used to do at home, and glad that I have with the freedom of without my parents complaining of the bleach smell. I was worried that the stench would go into my landlady's room since you know lah, this is not back home where every compound is much bigger.

BTW, i did the more environmental-friendly way before by using vinegar, but the stench was really strong. I didn't dare to use it anymore already.

Anyway, just now, she came out at this hour to the toilet (coz she heard water running), and only to realise that i was using the toilet. and washed the toilet. she said, you only give me the rental, this is not your job. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
I feel really iritated loh. Perhaps she is also with bad mood since her back pain will take time to heal.
I know she's in bad mood because I'm always not at home- either work late or loiter around :S
What can I do leh?

What is wrong with me lah?
sigh

Okayla, just lamenting here. My monday blues is still on and I'm supposed to hand something soon but i wasn't doing anything related to it at all.

=.="

#stressedbecauseofworkandthuslookingforhouseworktodo

Too comfy at home-aka-room already

Good nite! :P

Never grow old?

Feel like I've never grown old enough, with pretty dramatic changes in mood now and then
And changing passions
Getting bored with used-to-want-to things
As I go on with this, i feel like doing something else
And so on
Been rushing almost entire this study journey
Is it really testing my patience or determination, I wonder?
Realised that my endurance is really low at times. Perhaps is due to lower motivations?
Or is it because of pessimism as I go on? Eh. The faster u want something to be done, the worse it became
Perhaps also, it's about how much I treasure flying time at times
So emo post today Hor?
In fact, it's not really emo actually, just reflecting. I realised that from day 1 itself, I've always complained of insufficient time and until now
Zzzzzz
It's like I'm always on roller- coaster, and this is totally different from my few months journey during my previous work trip many years ago, where everything was slow and relaxing and.. Whatever=='
Don't know how much more I've got to learn tk be better and more determined and matured
Have to think more wisely I guess
Ie, I'm not wasting my time here. I must not work to enjoy only. Arrghhh.. Seemed hard for someone playful like me actually
When all I thought was if I could do something else more meaningful, and things would be better
Perhaps is some weird crisis feelings going over me right now
Whatever it is, all the best lah~
One more, really really salute those that kept meeting bumps and still so so so determined!! I know who you are;) :*
Will keep learning!!!!