Yes, I have been. A number of times. At least four times by different strangers, that was what I've observed/ realised.
But by someone known to me, that is something new, and something really frightening, depressing and made me full of hatred at the same time. I even noticed that my sense of the environment changes had diminished. I no longer enjoy the flowers on the trees, the chirpings of the birds, and the music of the rain.
No, it's not the same as stalking blogs. it's absolutely very, very different, okay?
Does it make any sense at all, to get this type of life? Being emotionally tortured is something far worse than pain inflicted physically. Or that is what I'm thinking.
They say, life is always full of ups and downs; and therefore, I always take bad experiences as lessons.
I've always believd that things happen for a reason.
But never have I imagined myself being stalked so badly that it emotionally drained my life in everything. It drains so much, even at this much mature age of mine.
I finally cried so badly today. Very badly. Yes I admit here, despite my ego-ness. It wasn't intended at all, but I do worry that I will succumb to depression.
And this is also when I learn, the freedom of life is something we have always taken for granted.
Something so priceless, and yet, takes so much for granted. So much the same as someone able-bodied to become someone disabled. or someone that is sick from a healthy state.
I am thankful with many wonderful friends that worries about me- it's very sweet of them, especially when I am in such a dire state. But, I really can't rely on you all always and become a liability. And I really don't want your sympathy, I only require solutions from brainstormings. Three people asked to accompany back home today. So sweet. Thank you very much. I really appreciate you guys so much. *hugssss*
But I turned down your help, because I really needed time to be alone to reflect and regain energy again.
I even FFK one at the very last minute.
Sigh, so abnormal of me; someone who hardly FFK people because promises must always be kept. But I can't be bothered about keeping promises at this state.
And as far as you all know me, I am someone who never wants to ma fan anyone at all, because it is just too annoying.
To the stalker, I will make you pay for what you've done to mine and my friends' lives!
I will not be soft-hearted and care about your future anymore- should you brainlessly repeat your action again.
This is what I pledge!
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Monday, December 9, 2013
better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all
From Alfred Lord Tennyson's poem In Memoriam:27, 1850:
Wedding planner of my friend's pasted on their website..though we feel it's not really appropriate ...
Anyway, does is kind of reflect some thoughts in your mind too?
So long~
I hold it true, whate'er befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
'Tis better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
Wedding planner of my friend's pasted on their website..though we feel it's not really appropriate ...
Anyway, does is kind of reflect some thoughts in your mind too?
So long~
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Temptations vs busy workload
Temptations are always the highest when we are doing something very uninteresting, mind-boggling, heart-wrenching or boring stuff...urgh --> :\
But not when we're relaxing.....
I'm longing to finish my favourite book but I have to put it away until this is done ah!!
The book that I'm currently reading reminds me so much of Black Beauty..and my world of horse-riding..hehee:P
So long~
But not when we're relaxing.....
I'm longing to finish my favourite book but I have to put it away until this is done ah!!
The book that I'm currently reading reminds me so much of Black Beauty..and my world of horse-riding..hehee:P
So long~
Thursday, October 31, 2013
locking toilets?
I'm utterly disgusted by the 'no-whereness' this is going..
Locking toilets so that it will not be accessible to non-dept ppl..
This is seriously ridiculous and hillarious..
We even had boiling point of blood when it was first stated..
The issue came from:
1. Switching off the water system so that it cannot be used after working hours. We usually work late and we did not realise this ruling when it was first imposed. I remember going to that toilet very early the next day to clear the 'leftovers' :S
And then I stopped using the toilet after work and went to next dept to use theirs. I think next dept should lock their toilet considering that numerous dept ppl that visit their toilet every day as compared to our problem.
2. The lady cleaner hired never really cleaned the toilet properly. I noticed that next dept's cleaner clean twice a day at least, and their (last year? or the year before?) renovated toilet was much, much better than ours which was just established this year. Even with alcohol to clean the seats. Bigger. Cleaner. Urgh...
And these problems led to:
Less hygienic toilets..
Unfortunately, the issues weren't to settle it but to make it bigger. Instead of either making sure that the cleaners clean properly, they came up with a ridiculous idea of locking the toilets. So we have to use the key whenever we need it.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Someone did mention that locking it will be safer due to uneventful events that had happened in the past. However, the if something bad is going to happen, the person trapped inside can't even run in time too! This locking may only help office-working hours people, but never, ever to those working OT.
So in summary, it's a rule created to protect themselves and not the rest. In fact, it's unfair because the toilet belongs to the public and not to these few people who came up with this idea.
And, it's really going no where when ridiculous ideas keep coming up.
I'm seriously zzzzzz with these..
Another issue was on the window ventilation. Are they actually trying to find faults when there's supposed to be none?
The issue even had to be reported to the higher authorities without a word mentioned to us. We were not wrong in this, there were some odour that led to us with this move. Nevertheless, we were told that we cannot do this by the higher authority people and not told by someone who reported it silently.
Are we in the midst of being backstabbed by people?
Moreover, issues of water bottles in the lab and wearing slippers. If you disagree with these, you can always advise us directly instead of going through another person. We are all humans with brains.
I guess, if you're not happy with any of our group, you shouldn't be hiding and complaining. Face us and tell us straight, please. Be a gentle and fair 'person'.
I haven't even mentioned the small tables that we have now and sleeping in labs because the current place is so.not.comfy.at.all.
The system is very bad, really :(
Are there ways to improve it?
I'm so, so disappointed.
They say, "If you can't beat them, join them!"
Well, never am I gonna agree with the huge flaw somehow. Just plain irritated at the moment.
Locking toilets so that it will not be accessible to non-dept ppl..
This is seriously ridiculous and hillarious..
We even had boiling point of blood when it was first stated..
The issue came from:
1. Switching off the water system so that it cannot be used after working hours. We usually work late and we did not realise this ruling when it was first imposed. I remember going to that toilet very early the next day to clear the 'leftovers' :S
And then I stopped using the toilet after work and went to next dept to use theirs. I think next dept should lock their toilet considering that numerous dept ppl that visit their toilet every day as compared to our problem.
2. The lady cleaner hired never really cleaned the toilet properly. I noticed that next dept's cleaner clean twice a day at least, and their (last year? or the year before?) renovated toilet was much, much better than ours which was just established this year. Even with alcohol to clean the seats. Bigger. Cleaner. Urgh...
And these problems led to:
Less hygienic toilets..
Unfortunately, the issues weren't to settle it but to make it bigger. Instead of either making sure that the cleaners clean properly, they came up with a ridiculous idea of locking the toilets. So we have to use the key whenever we need it.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Someone did mention that locking it will be safer due to uneventful events that had happened in the past. However, the if something bad is going to happen, the person trapped inside can't even run in time too! This locking may only help office-working hours people, but never, ever to those working OT.
So in summary, it's a rule created to protect themselves and not the rest. In fact, it's unfair because the toilet belongs to the public and not to these few people who came up with this idea.
And, it's really going no where when ridiculous ideas keep coming up.
I'm seriously zzzzzz with these..
Another issue was on the window ventilation. Are they actually trying to find faults when there's supposed to be none?
The issue even had to be reported to the higher authorities without a word mentioned to us. We were not wrong in this, there were some odour that led to us with this move. Nevertheless, we were told that we cannot do this by the higher authority people and not told by someone who reported it silently.
Are we in the midst of being backstabbed by people?
Moreover, issues of water bottles in the lab and wearing slippers. If you disagree with these, you can always advise us directly instead of going through another person. We are all humans with brains.
I guess, if you're not happy with any of our group, you shouldn't be hiding and complaining. Face us and tell us straight, please. Be a gentle and fair 'person'.
I haven't even mentioned the small tables that we have now and sleeping in labs because the current place is so.not.comfy.at.all.
The system is very bad, really :(
Are there ways to improve it?
I'm so, so disappointed.
They say, "If you can't beat them, join them!"
Well, never am I gonna agree with the huge flaw somehow. Just plain irritated at the moment.
Wednesday, September 11, 2013
Important month
I asked to eat noodle-like food for celebration this month..
Feel more closer to home I guess...
Been eating that home-cooked one by mom for years..
I'm not revealing more:p
Back to non-food story..
I can't sleep at this hour though the weather is very, very nice..
Feels like winter in Sg.. Okay, not exaggerating but.. It's really nice:)
Aunt Joyce and I were chatting briefly before I decided to read in room..
I told her to use warm shower.. Being an elderly who plans to wash hair at 10pm =.=
She said nope despite the cold weather..
And so, I complained "the weather's so weird lately!"
She: it's monsoon my dear
Me: no leh, last year rained in oct only.. This year so early
She: now's almost oct wat
Me: @@ no leh, now is still early sept...rained since last week, remember?
Cutely, being such an elderly person (have I mentioned that she's 76 this year?)
She replied: yeah, thanks to all the tall tall buildings, mrts, buses lahhh....
I can't really convey how she said that.. I just laughed and explained indirectly.. Yeah de, vety much less trees ah.....
And then I bade good night to her lah
Anyway..September is a pretty important month for me..
As it marks the 3rd quarter of the year
It's time to start planning..
I'm undecided on my future plans.. Seemed so cloudy, so far and yet so fast it's coming ...
Sigh..
Time flies eh?
And I had a 'chasing the cat's tail discussion with my Prof again'
The ending of the story seemed is always in circles..
So irritating.. Perhaps we both are just a bit zzzz of how to end it in a better way?
And that I have to run more samples too?! =.=
Sigh
Actually it should be mentioned that.. It's because of my reluctance in doing those...
Aright forget it please..
And we got free chocolates yesterday! Really yummy one:) Thanks!:) it did help to cheer up my mood so much though I dislike raisins..
Feel more closer to home I guess...
Been eating that home-cooked one by mom for years..
I'm not revealing more:p
Back to non-food story..
I can't sleep at this hour though the weather is very, very nice..
Feels like winter in Sg.. Okay, not exaggerating but.. It's really nice:)
Aunt Joyce and I were chatting briefly before I decided to read in room..
I told her to use warm shower.. Being an elderly who plans to wash hair at 10pm =.=
She said nope despite the cold weather..
And so, I complained "the weather's so weird lately!"
She: it's monsoon my dear
Me: no leh, last year rained in oct only.. This year so early
She: now's almost oct wat
Me: @@ no leh, now is still early sept...rained since last week, remember?
Cutely, being such an elderly person (have I mentioned that she's 76 this year?)
She replied: yeah, thanks to all the tall tall buildings, mrts, buses lahhh....
I can't really convey how she said that.. I just laughed and explained indirectly.. Yeah de, vety much less trees ah.....
And then I bade good night to her lah
Anyway..September is a pretty important month for me..
As it marks the 3rd quarter of the year
It's time to start planning..
I'm undecided on my future plans.. Seemed so cloudy, so far and yet so fast it's coming ...
Sigh..
Time flies eh?
And I had a 'chasing the cat's tail discussion with my Prof again'
The ending of the story seemed is always in circles..
So irritating.. Perhaps we both are just a bit zzzz of how to end it in a better way?
And that I have to run more samples too?! =.=
Sigh
Actually it should be mentioned that.. It's because of my reluctance in doing those...
Aright forget it please..
And we got free chocolates yesterday! Really yummy one:) Thanks!:) it did help to cheer up my mood so much though I dislike raisins..
Saturday, September 7, 2013
Thought-provoking late evening
"Respect"
Learning to do this more because I highly demand this from others
I'm cancelling my sent friend request because I felt that I probably isn't just up to the game
Tired of these too..
If you have no sincerity, I wouldn't demand from you lah=P
Plus it's good too... the pros is more than cons..because I was also thinking for sometime if I should hit that button initially..
We went to the River Valley's boat ride..Seemed that her question reminded me many of the past..
I wonder if she will ever understand how i feel by asking these sorta sensitive questions.. *sigh
Maybe it wasn't as sensitive for her than for me
Or I was portraying a strong personality that....?
Or just to break the ice- that's why?
And the drenched and very late back home journey back was a thought-provoking one too... like..choices are made so just have to grit my teeth and go ahead..
The rain was somehow drenching my soul..
I should be thankful
Well, I am really thankful for the past
For what that has been pampered and done
That I do wonder if my choice was very wrong..
Nevertheless, once made, I just can't turn back anymore because I would have thought of these earlier before deciding..
The what ifs.. it's always there somehow
Btw, yesterday too, provoked me on...the values of friendship
And how beyond we can go before we put a STOP sign
Somehow I'm learning to have the CBB mood turned on in almost every single thing that I'm doing
Surprised but..
just CBB anymore..sigh
P/S: I always wonder off to blogs when I write important things... zzzz.... sigh >.< lousy me!
oh another one: Notre dame de musical here I come! :)
Learning to do this more because I highly demand this from others
I'm cancelling my sent friend request because I felt that I probably isn't just up to the game
Tired of these too..
If you have no sincerity, I wouldn't demand from you lah=P
Plus it's good too... the pros is more than cons..because I was also thinking for sometime if I should hit that button initially..
We went to the River Valley's boat ride..Seemed that her question reminded me many of the past..
I wonder if she will ever understand how i feel by asking these sorta sensitive questions.. *sigh
Maybe it wasn't as sensitive for her than for me
Or I was portraying a strong personality that....?
Or just to break the ice- that's why?
And the drenched and very late back home journey back was a thought-provoking one too... like..choices are made so just have to grit my teeth and go ahead..
The rain was somehow drenching my soul..
I should be thankful
Well, I am really thankful for the past
For what that has been pampered and done
That I do wonder if my choice was very wrong..
Nevertheless, once made, I just can't turn back anymore because I would have thought of these earlier before deciding..
The what ifs.. it's always there somehow
Btw, yesterday too, provoked me on...the values of friendship
And how beyond we can go before we put a STOP sign
Somehow I'm learning to have the CBB mood turned on in almost every single thing that I'm doing
Surprised but..
just CBB anymore..sigh
P/S: I always wonder off to blogs when I write important things... zzzz.... sigh >.< lousy me!
oh another one: Notre dame de musical here I come! :)
Monday, August 26, 2013
Kids and wisdoms
Fluorescent-shirt boy asking the younger boy (wearing red shirt) in Chinese, which parent do you prefer?
Younger boy said: my dad. Mom is not good.
Older boy was surprised and said, in Chinese proverb, mom is always the most important. Both your parents worked hard. Your mom bought you all the toys, you know... How could you said your mom like that?
Younger boy: .... Dunno what happened after that (I didn continue 'eavesdropping' but..)
Younger boy started slapping his face himself and both the elder boy (fluorescent t-shirt) and his another sibling said: enough already, don't slap anymore ya..
P/S: chocolate-flavoured food are indeed one's best friend when one is in deep thoughts..
So long~
Younger boy said: my dad. Mom is not good.
Older boy was surprised and said, in Chinese proverb, mom is always the most important. Both your parents worked hard. Your mom bought you all the toys, you know... How could you said your mom like that?
Younger boy: .... Dunno what happened after that (I didn continue 'eavesdropping' but..)
Younger boy started slapping his face himself and both the elder boy (fluorescent t-shirt) and his another sibling said: enough already, don't slap anymore ya..
:)
I was enjoying the live band at the Esplanade area, while overlooking the Singapore river..
Nice weather for some soul-searching activity..
Suddenly, a cute little girl came towards me while I was mesmerised by the river.. in deep thoughts..
Her black huge eyes widened at the sight of me munching my pepero sticks..
And so, instincts told me to share my chocolate sticks with her..
After some moments, her family decided to leave the seats there and placed her on her stroller..
She reluctantly left with her eyes glued to me..and my chocolate sticks I supposed..
Didn't even bothered to wave goodbye at all..
Only her lingering eyes..
How cute.. =)
P/S: chocolate-flavoured food are indeed one's best friend when one is in deep thoughts..
So long~
Sunday, August 11, 2013
Back already lahhhh...
I'm back from the short holiday!!
Seems that holidays is never long, and days and nights flew off just like that..
The dreadfullness (despite soooo many donkey years and trips from home to here) never go away...
When will I be more mature ah?
Anyway, CBB..
:S
Mersing has lotsa nice places leh!
And *proudly grinning yet guilty contradictory; I think I've gained weight =.="
My beloved doggies... ~
Updates of Mersing trip: A piece of rock with lotsa oysters shell! Edible oysters don't have though (left panel)... And seafood galore (right panel)! Middle picture was crayfish as huge as a palm! :P
Had it near Tanjung Gemuk Jetty restaurant..
Hehehe...our durian buffet trip... not forgetting a bash of squirrel-eaten durian as well..tasted really nice! And it was eye-widening for me too, how could squirrel eat such a hard-shelled fruit.. The hole that they (or individual?) bored was pretty huge...
Kite flying (my bro flew it up while I successfully dragged it down *muahahaha evil look*)
This was at Kg. Air Papan beach
This romantic-looking place was at the further away-located beach near Mersing Jetty, a place where one can lie on the grass and read! :P
Anyway, I realised that I'm still not completely ready to let go of the past, despite the flying time...
Sigh..
The 'serba-salah' feeling is still there..
Really wondering what else can be done..
But it's better lah..
Need to be less emo but it's still.. there..
I'm thinking of going volunteering in animal shelters.. (previously I had mine in MINDS, but it's a bit too far)
But volunteering need commitment of weeks.. if I'm away for a holiday, who can take my place ah?
Hmmmm...
Let me think about it first..
Seems that holidays is never long, and days and nights flew off just like that..
The dreadfullness (despite soooo many donkey years and trips from home to here) never go away...
When will I be more mature ah?
Anyway, CBB..
:S
Mersing has lotsa nice places leh!
And *proudly grinning yet guilty contradictory; I think I've gained weight =.="
My beloved doggies... ~
Volunteering at Chin Chee Kok temple..while my bro (and my parents) are still active in this.. me not anymore though :(
Updates of Mersing trip: A piece of rock with lotsa oysters shell! Edible oysters don't have though (left panel)... And seafood galore (right panel)! Middle picture was crayfish as huge as a palm! :P
Had it near Tanjung Gemuk Jetty restaurant..
Hehehe...our durian buffet trip... not forgetting a bash of squirrel-eaten durian as well..tasted really nice! And it was eye-widening for me too, how could squirrel eat such a hard-shelled fruit.. The hole that they (or individual?) bored was pretty huge...
Kite flying (my bro flew it up while I successfully dragged it down *muahahaha evil look*)
This was at Kg. Air Papan beach
This romantic-looking place was at the further away-located beach near Mersing Jetty, a place where one can lie on the grass and read! :P
Anyway, I realised that I'm still not completely ready to let go of the past, despite the flying time...
Sigh..
The 'serba-salah' feeling is still there..
Really wondering what else can be done..
But it's better lah..
Need to be less emo but it's still.. there..
I'm thinking of going volunteering in animal shelters.. (previously I had mine in MINDS, but it's a bit too far)
But volunteering need commitment of weeks.. if I'm away for a holiday, who can take my place ah?
Hmmmm...
Let me think about it first..
Sunday, August 4, 2013
Balik kampung!!!
Can't wait to be home after such a longgggg visit previously.. Since cny? @@"Can't wait to see everyone
Can't wait to sleep on my comfy bed in freezing air conditioned room (okay okay, less environmental friendly but I sleep with a fan here, okay?)
Can't wait to just stay rotten in parents' shop watching drama series (though I used to help them wipe shoes in any vacations earlier...now.. Getting lazier :( sigh.. Probably will help in other stuffs lahhh)
Can't wait to meet my beloved doggie of coz! (Missing him so soooooo much!!!)
Can't wait to play hide and seek with him, and let him leave some scratching scars while hugging my legs the moment I reach home's gate..
Can't wait to hug him sooooo tightly that he can't move at all though resisting, but with his tail vigorously wagging non-stop
And that everyone around can will the gush of wind too...
Or that his tail might wag too fast until get injured :p
By the way, aunt Joyce dug out a souvenir cup and an angpow..for mom
I wanna faint and of coz, die die oso won't accept lah
She must have forgotten her roles in accepting gifts from us and not the opposite
Haih.. This landlady ah... :S
Yesterday and today were different group of friends with either baby full moon celebration or 100 days celebration..
Which made us realised one thing: we're lagging behind in some very important aspects of life.. In our pursuit of our dreams that we think is very important..
So long~
Can't wait to sleep on my comfy bed in freezing air conditioned room (okay okay, less environmental friendly but I sleep with a fan here, okay?)
Can't wait to just stay rotten in parents' shop watching drama series (though I used to help them wipe shoes in any vacations earlier...now.. Getting lazier :( sigh.. Probably will help in other stuffs lahhh)
Can't wait to meet my beloved doggie of coz! (Missing him so soooooo much!!!)
Can't wait to play hide and seek with him, and let him leave some scratching scars while hugging my legs the moment I reach home's gate..
Can't wait to hug him sooooo tightly that he can't move at all though resisting, but with his tail vigorously wagging non-stop
And that everyone around can will the gush of wind too...
Or that his tail might wag too fast until get injured :p
By the way, aunt Joyce dug out a souvenir cup and an angpow..for mom
I wanna faint and of coz, die die oso won't accept lah
She must have forgotten her roles in accepting gifts from us and not the opposite
Haih.. This landlady ah... :S
Yesterday and today were different group of friends with either baby full moon celebration or 100 days celebration..
Which made us realised one thing: we're lagging behind in some very important aspects of life.. In our pursuit of our dreams that we think is very important..
So long~
Thursday, August 1, 2013
Lessons learned: say no when you feel so
I have this deep sense of responsibilities when people asked for my help. And I'm way disappointed with myself for this.
I've finally learned this in a hard, hard way; that is: to say no when you just want to. And protect yourself. Sometimes, many thing just CBB anymore...
Please, please let me plant this in my mind!
I'm kind of disappointed that I only learn when I meet selfish people. And usually, a few events are needed to trigger this and not just once. Sigh
I'm just low in EQ I guess:(
And I've to learn not to trust people that easily anymore, despite their promises. But I'll continue keeping my words as I always will, and never hurt any party the way I do not want to be treated.
Lessons learned.. I confess here: I'm deeply disappointed with you bunch of selfish people..
Perhaps, I'm just not up to this game.. Or perhaps, I just care too much of others' feelings..
And now, I'm way too disappointed..
Sigh, I really need to go back to my happy self and not posting these kind of emo events anymore..
The gift hunting, farewell and karaoke sessions are more than enough to remember this- for.life.
I've finally learned this in a hard, hard way; that is: to say no when you just want to. And protect yourself. Sometimes, many thing just CBB anymore...
Please, please let me plant this in my mind!
I'm kind of disappointed that I only learn when I meet selfish people. And usually, a few events are needed to trigger this and not just once. Sigh
I'm just low in EQ I guess:(
And I've to learn not to trust people that easily anymore, despite their promises. But I'll continue keeping my words as I always will, and never hurt any party the way I do not want to be treated.
Lessons learned.. I confess here: I'm deeply disappointed with you bunch of selfish people..
Perhaps, I'm just not up to this game.. Or perhaps, I just care too much of others' feelings..
And now, I'm way too disappointed..
Sigh, I really need to go back to my happy self and not posting these kind of emo events anymore..
The gift hunting, farewell and karaoke sessions are more than enough to remember this- for.life.
Monday, July 29, 2013
Practicality of human beings
Today's gonna be quite a negative post to convey my negative feeling...
Someone is leaving.. And the person that seemed closest to this person seemed to be so reluctant in sharing the farewell gift..=.=
While some of the rest also seemed cant be bothered..
Somehow I think they're so so so practical that I really, really felt disappointed
Sigh..
Is this the culture of people these days?
I felt so bad that I realised I probably can't survive in such a harsh world..
I guess I'm more emotions-feelings-type-of-person..
But I really don't want to change to become like that..
Is money so important until....?
And another one is, I should have just chosen the cheaper gift (which I think is more suitable/appropriate and budget suitable for the students-I was thinking of a good quality formal jacket) than to accept the other person's idea (and yet now seemed a bit reluctant too after realizing have to pay for other things ie meal and k-ok) to prevent this practicality issue
I really bu shuang...
If I buy an expensive gift for this person from myself is rather easier than to spend practically whole day for the gift sharing.. Just to zzzzz...with such an emotion
I haven't even complained that the mall was so crowded until I have to go to some waiting area for ships to depart to sit there for an hour..
Sigh
Feel like making the wrong decision.. Voluntarily.. And now regret sigh
The world's not all about money and money only ah! Sober man...sigh
Sick of it..
Miss my beloved loyal doggie...so so much
Someone is leaving.. And the person that seemed closest to this person seemed to be so reluctant in sharing the farewell gift..=.=
While some of the rest also seemed cant be bothered..
Somehow I think they're so so so practical that I really, really felt disappointed
Sigh..
Is this the culture of people these days?
I felt so bad that I realised I probably can't survive in such a harsh world..
I guess I'm more emotions-feelings-type-of-person..
But I really don't want to change to become like that..
Is money so important until....?
And another one is, I should have just chosen the cheaper gift (which I think is more suitable/appropriate and budget suitable for the students-I was thinking of a good quality formal jacket) than to accept the other person's idea (and yet now seemed a bit reluctant too after realizing have to pay for other things ie meal and k-ok) to prevent this practicality issue
I really bu shuang...
If I buy an expensive gift for this person from myself is rather easier than to spend practically whole day for the gift sharing.. Just to zzzzz...with such an emotion
I haven't even complained that the mall was so crowded until I have to go to some waiting area for ships to depart to sit there for an hour..
Sigh
Feel like making the wrong decision.. Voluntarily.. And now regret sigh
The world's not all about money and money only ah! Sober man...sigh
Sick of it..
Miss my beloved loyal doggie...so so much
Friday, July 26, 2013
Puzzlessss slowly into pieces :)
As now things seemed to go on slower than previous days/months/years.... I stared at this pc screen of mine and wondering how should I convey my feelings for today..
Had a deep discussion with my Prof..
crossing)
And I'm really, really thankful for having to have met him..
Right up from day one before the interview for the scholarship..to the scholarship application..and how fast time flies...
until now..
(paiseh sounded emo eh?)
just, kinda really thankful :)
The chances that he gives..the good days...the training...the push..the motivation..
The supports...
If I'm gonna be in a position like him in future, I will do the same!
But, even if I'm not, I will pass on the deeds :)
In fact, this deep discussion have finally gave me more, ample time that I've ever needed previously..to re-plan my life..to plan my future again..
:)
I'm clear with what I want...but I need to work it out..
and I'm happy to say that..things alwayssssssssss become better when mood changes for better... so people, be positive okay!!!
But right now, to keep my words as he had to me..I will finish the promised things:) (own pinkies crossing) heehee..
Had a deep discussion with my Prof..
crossing)
And I'm really, really thankful for having to have met him..
Right up from day one before the interview for the scholarship..to the scholarship application..and how fast time flies...
until now..
(paiseh sounded emo eh?)
just, kinda really thankful :)
The chances that he gives..the good days...the training...the push..the motivation..
The supports...
If I'm gonna be in a position like him in future, I will do the same!
But, even if I'm not, I will pass on the deeds :)
In fact, this deep discussion have finally gave me more, ample time that I've ever needed previously..to re-plan my life..to plan my future again..
:)
I'm clear with what I want...but I need to work it out..
and I'm happy to say that..things alwayssssssssss become better when mood changes for better... so people, be positive okay!!!
But right now, to keep my words as he had to me..I will finish the promised things:) (own pinkies crossing) heehee..
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
Hairspray!
Hairspray is in Singapore!!! I'm so tempted to watch despite after watching the youtube version for 2h... =.=" sigh
Must turn off this fetish leh...but... let's see it will go off in few days' time
Reallyyyyy tempted to watch right now! Wondering if I should get the tickets??
The link is here
:(
So long~
Must turn off this fetish leh...but... let's see it will go off in few days' time
Reallyyyyy tempted to watch right now! Wondering if I should get the tickets??
The link is here
:(
So long~
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
NUS commencement 2013
well, it was initially a formal one until I heard the Prof chairperson announcing '...-KAI'...urrghhh
and so my expression turned suddenly from :\ (coz scared of falling on stage) to :S (after the mis-pronunciation) and then I just can't be bothered, and so I turned to this --> :D when I went to receive the scroll..with their cheerings...(else my pic would have a pale-faced one)
I think I'm the only one with cheerings (shy nya!) besides the last graduate recepient (because everyone was so bored to wait for the ceremony to finish!)
These friends of mine actually insisted shouting despite my reluctance, because who knows, I might fall further with sudden cheerings, right?
Actually the main reason I told them not to cheer was because: the hall is a very quiet, formal hall. boring type (full stop)
What they replied was: we will cheer louder and take more picture if you did fall!
shheeshhhhh >.<
And because this prata-hat looks like a witch's hat...they came up with all sorts of idea from stealing a stalk of plants that were used as a decor on the table to make a wand...to the final creative idea of combining two black straws to make a nice wand!
Anyway, congratulations to the batch of 2013 Commencement graduates!!
:D
Kinda touched with their presence :')
Guess it's gonna be a journey to be forever and ever, remembered....
Saturday, July 6, 2013
Quarter-life-crisis
After reading this 'feeling-so-true' article here, I don't know what else should I say here...
Well, I guess I'm falling right behind track too..after all the series of happy and unhappy events that had taken place since months back.
Well, as usual, life's got to have ups and downs.. or there won't be a proper balance right?
I wonder if I've made the correct choice too.. seemed that I'm seeing more of the consequences now..and a hinge of 'regret-fullness' did come by at times..
But on the other hand, it's really a paradox one..
Anyway, the quarter-life-crisis seemed to be an endless one the moment I've finished my thesis though. Indescribable..
:S And me, now, in NUS now, with an unplanned life ahead....
Wish I could lie down on a hugeeee patch of beautiful garden, overlooking the sky while reading my favourite book..
Smelling the fresh grass and flowers scent that fills the air
With pretty butterflies flying and birds chirping..
And have a cuppa of coffee when I'm craving for it
Or even fly a kite somewhere nearby..
With a care-free life..
And yes, life's not a race..I no longer take it as a race after my degree conferment..suddenly, everything seemed to slow down..
Slowing down to the extent that my procrastination seemed to deteriorate
But I can't be bothered :P
CBB~ (can't be bothered~ something that I always use to text my friends, sort of my fave acronym)
I even look forward to having own time in the library to surf the net and read science-unrelated things while listening to my fave concerto no 1 in E minor op11...or other classics..over and over again..
I've cancelled most of my this week's weekend plans for this moment...and sigh :S got fired by few friends for breaking promises..
Got one even thought too much for my weirdness..and thought if I was hurt in some ways that I broke my promise of going out/ or resent going out..
Somehow, I seemed to be less sensitive eh...(feel bad and regretted too)
Oh well, I really, really need some own time to do my own things as I watch life passing by..
Finally, I understand on why some working people have the so-called 'dreams' or intentions to get a cup of coffee in some cafe and watch people walking by, especially in the early mornings when they're rushing to work
Urrghh... =="
And I'm feeling that myself..though uncertainties are so strong..
Gotta finish 3 things by today but it's almost 7pm... Well done to myself =.= (the sarcastic me!)
So long~
Well, I guess I'm falling right behind track too..after all the series of happy and unhappy events that had taken place since months back.
Well, as usual, life's got to have ups and downs.. or there won't be a proper balance right?
I wonder if I've made the correct choice too.. seemed that I'm seeing more of the consequences now..and a hinge of 'regret-fullness' did come by at times..
But on the other hand, it's really a paradox one..
Anyway, the quarter-life-crisis seemed to be an endless one the moment I've finished my thesis though. Indescribable..
:S And me, now, in NUS now, with an unplanned life ahead....
Wish I could lie down on a hugeeee patch of beautiful garden, overlooking the sky while reading my favourite book..
Smelling the fresh grass and flowers scent that fills the air
With pretty butterflies flying and birds chirping..
And have a cuppa of coffee when I'm craving for it
Or even fly a kite somewhere nearby..
With a care-free life..
And yes, life's not a race..I no longer take it as a race after my degree conferment..suddenly, everything seemed to slow down..
Slowing down to the extent that my procrastination seemed to deteriorate
But I can't be bothered :P
CBB~ (can't be bothered~ something that I always use to text my friends, sort of my fave acronym)
I even look forward to having own time in the library to surf the net and read science-unrelated things while listening to my fave concerto no 1 in E minor op11...or other classics..over and over again..
I've cancelled most of my this week's weekend plans for this moment...and sigh :S got fired by few friends for breaking promises..
Got one even thought too much for my weirdness..and thought if I was hurt in some ways that I broke my promise of going out/ or resent going out..
Somehow, I seemed to be less sensitive eh...(feel bad and regretted too)
Oh well, I really, really need some own time to do my own things as I watch life passing by..
Finally, I understand on why some working people have the so-called 'dreams' or intentions to get a cup of coffee in some cafe and watch people walking by, especially in the early mornings when they're rushing to work
Urrghh... =="
And I'm feeling that myself..though uncertainties are so strong..
Gotta finish 3 things by today but it's almost 7pm... Well done to myself =.= (the sarcastic me!)
So long~
Thursday, July 4, 2013
Comma point of life
Have you ever been in a state where you just stay at a full-stop point?
And don't know what else to do?
Well, I'm having this feeling- something that everyone would feel once they've graduated or near to graduation (or so I think).
It's something like, urm... we keep running until we've passed the marathon line; and then, we cheer, smiled, cried, and then- an emotionless feeling returns.
What's next?
And so, when we're at this point, we need to open another new chapter in the book, and start writing something down..
To have plans, and then to pursue it..
I'm thinking still.. and I'll come up with something soon, I hope :)
And so, I would like to say, I'm in a comma mode now..
So long~
Wednesday, July 3, 2013
When you've decided not to live for others more than for yourself..
The recent language-speaking phenomenon in our place had further strike more weird feeling-ness
and I've decided not to be supportive..because I'm so irritated with it
Try to stand in my shoes too...
Anyway, I think that's not practical enough anyway...
On the other hand, I've also complained to people who would probably be taking me for granted due to 'free resources'...
Helping is fine..but helping and feeling dumb at the same time or feeling unfairly treated- hmmm..that's not my way at all
When the line is stepped/ crossed over, that's way too :S
I know there's no fairness and justice always......
But I strive to maintain mine..
Because when we asked for people's help, we're also trying to prevent the supports to go futile
and not to waste that person's energy, time, etc, or even the feelings...
Well, there are cases when the person who asks for help doesn't even bother on all these because they just can't be bothered, except for themselves..
This is when I classify these people as selfish...
And I start to think of mine too, and that's when I've decided to live for myself more than for others too...
so long~
and I've decided not to be supportive..because I'm so irritated with it
Try to stand in my shoes too...
Anyway, I think that's not practical enough anyway...
On the other hand, I've also complained to people who would probably be taking me for granted due to 'free resources'...
Helping is fine..but helping and feeling dumb at the same time or feeling unfairly treated- hmmm..that's not my way at all
When the line is stepped/ crossed over, that's way too :S
I know there's no fairness and justice always......
But I strive to maintain mine..
Because when we asked for people's help, we're also trying to prevent the supports to go futile
and not to waste that person's energy, time, etc, or even the feelings...
Well, there are cases when the person who asks for help doesn't even bother on all these because they just can't be bothered, except for themselves..
This is when I classify these people as selfish...
And I start to think of mine too, and that's when I've decided to live for myself more than for others too...
so long~
Monday, May 27, 2013
:) Another journey ending soon...
This
current journey is about to come to an end le...some people say, life
begins after this journey..I'm not sure if it's true.. but the baby
steps of reaching this stage seemed so torturous initially...and
prolonged unconsciously, though years and months seemed like hours and
minutes...
Looking back now, I really wonder why did I choose this at the first place...and what had motivated me throughout this journey...
Perhaps, just as I've always hold on to this belief...everything happens for a right reason?
Anyway, just like dark chocolates, it's really bitter sweet when comes to the near end...
what more can I say?
hopefully smooth smooth la...~
The nostalgicness...is...indescribable...
This would be a post to be remembered in many, many years to come...
Looking back now, I really wonder why did I choose this at the first place...and what had motivated me throughout this journey...
Perhaps, just as I've always hold on to this belief...everything happens for a right reason?
Anyway, just like dark chocolates, it's really bitter sweet when comes to the near end...
what more can I say?
hopefully smooth smooth la...~
The nostalgicness...is...indescribable...
This would be a post to be remembered in many, many years to come...
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
free education not relevant though
As for the free education part, in fact, I personally feel that we have been subsidised good enough for the school fees since we were in primary school
Free books, low education fees..only about rm 100 per year (with books, back in my time)
To the university fees
I would think that the fees paid by undergraduates are sufficient enough and good enough (RM21000 my time for the goverment University)
So that the universities and research system can generate income from that
The undergraduates, on the other hand, should pay for their degree, unless they are able to work harder for the exemption of fees
I think this system is good enough
You won't realise the ridiculous increment of university fees in other countries..
In Singapore, there's no such free education like this
Many, many top scholars that are pursuing their PhD, would still would have to pay monthly repayment, despite their good results and good work in the PhD research field (You can see how hardworking these people are and how smart they are)
Only in higher levels of education such as PhD are these people given scholarships
So that they would work hard for their degree..
Giving free education, to me, is another way of spoon-feeding
Moreover, I really cannot imagine that: subsidising university students and subsidising students that clapped hands for ridiculous, brainless remarks such as those seen in Bavani and Sharifah's case????
Sometimes, we need to work hard to get what we want, for such as a degree
Giving free education for all would not benefit the country at all.. to me, it's definitely a lost investment...
There's no point having undergraduates everyhwhere when their thinking ability is not developed...and what's more, they are still spoon-fed even up to university!
Please wake up!
Free books, low education fees..only about rm 100 per year (with books, back in my time)
To the university fees
I would think that the fees paid by undergraduates are sufficient enough and good enough (RM21000 my time for the goverment University)
So that the universities and research system can generate income from that
The undergraduates, on the other hand, should pay for their degree, unless they are able to work harder for the exemption of fees
I think this system is good enough
You won't realise the ridiculous increment of university fees in other countries..
In Singapore, there's no such free education like this
Many, many top scholars that are pursuing their PhD, would still would have to pay monthly repayment, despite their good results and good work in the PhD research field (You can see how hardworking these people are and how smart they are)
Only in higher levels of education such as PhD are these people given scholarships
So that they would work hard for their degree..
Giving free education, to me, is another way of spoon-feeding
Moreover, I really cannot imagine that: subsidising university students and subsidising students that clapped hands for ridiculous, brainless remarks such as those seen in Bavani and Sharifah's case????
Sometimes, we need to work hard to get what we want, for such as a degree
Giving free education for all would not benefit the country at all.. to me, it's definitely a lost investment...
There's no point having undergraduates everyhwhere when their thinking ability is not developed...and what's more, they are still spoon-fed even up to university!
Please wake up!
Smoking prevalence..can't it be controlled?
I went back recently to meet my family...it was a really really short trip- 2 days...with not much stuffs done except of sleep deprivation, non-stop diarrhoea as well as intense thesis writing
What I was utterly disappointed was the smoking habit
We went out to eat most of the time as my parents were also so busy working (sih the really work so hard at this older age and I do hope can make a difference..though judging from the country's zzzz situation, I doubt economy will be better and life would be easier for them)
Thanks to increasing costs of everything...and everything means everythingEven as I was the one paying most of the stuffs, I realised I cannot tahan the increasing price in everything
:(
Why there aren't controls?!
And the smoking habit...ewww...I'm so so so disgusted with these people...their smoke is just particularly next to your nose!
Why can't the health government implement some rules on it? Especially those stalls and shops..it's just, regardless where you sit, there is at least 2 smokers by your side
We really couldn't stand it, regardless whether we sit inside or outside
Because:
1. The shop owners are afraid of losing their business- money is really hard to earn nowadays :'(
2. And so, the customers acted with a don't-care attitude
Why can't the government force food operators to divide smoking and non-smoking areas?
If the government could come up with some regulations to make sure every shop comply to this, then the non-smokers will not suffer
And the smokers can smoke all that one at their corner
And the risks of getting lung cancer decreases
And the hospitalisation bills will definitely reduce
And so, the government's funds on hospitalisation can be reduced
Can't something as simple as this be implemented?
Instead of worrying the smoking companies will complain in reduction in their smoke revenue, which subsequently affect the country's tax revenue?
Moreover, health subsidies are also very high..it's one of the costs that can be cut by the government if the people are healthy
The costs of the drugs are increasingly scary, life is all about money, and worse is, most drugs are imported stuffs. Even over here, I've heard of those super expensive drugs to cure cancers.. It scares me, really...
Since the leaders are brainless, and they're rich..hmm, will they be bpthered about this? In the end, those who can't afford to pay will die, simple as that
And again, the government loses people who pay income tax...
All these should come from at least, smarter and wiser leaders' brains
Not those confined to coconut-shells brains
As for the recent halal and non-halal elevators...
If you guys continuously shrink your minds into petite stuffs, you're actually inviting problems.. we change because everyone develops, and not going backwards to those stone age...
How can all of us stay in silence when things are flicking our anger?
And accumulating things are definitely bad for the people too
Mind you, we're all getting educated, not getting dumber
Go outside, see the world, compare and you guys will know it's not too late yet to save our beloved country..
Don't let it succumb to countries that are so much weakened
By the way, you guys always compare to those less developed countries, that's why you feel proud
If you could at least try to look at a higher peak, not only you guys will earn from it, but the people as well..
So so disappointed, but don't even know where can voice out these except through blogging..
What I was utterly disappointed was the smoking habit
We went out to eat most of the time as my parents were also so busy working (sih the really work so hard at this older age and I do hope can make a difference..though judging from the country's zzzz situation, I doubt economy will be better and life would be easier for them)
Thanks to increasing costs of everything...and everything means everythingEven as I was the one paying most of the stuffs, I realised I cannot tahan the increasing price in everything
:(
Why there aren't controls?!
And the smoking habit...ewww...I'm so so so disgusted with these people...their smoke is just particularly next to your nose!
Why can't the health government implement some rules on it? Especially those stalls and shops..it's just, regardless where you sit, there is at least 2 smokers by your side
We really couldn't stand it, regardless whether we sit inside or outside
Because:
1. The shop owners are afraid of losing their business- money is really hard to earn nowadays :'(
2. And so, the customers acted with a don't-care attitude
Why can't the government force food operators to divide smoking and non-smoking areas?
If the government could come up with some regulations to make sure every shop comply to this, then the non-smokers will not suffer
And the smokers can smoke all that one at their corner
And the risks of getting lung cancer decreases
And the hospitalisation bills will definitely reduce
And so, the government's funds on hospitalisation can be reduced
Can't something as simple as this be implemented?
Instead of worrying the smoking companies will complain in reduction in their smoke revenue, which subsequently affect the country's tax revenue?
Moreover, health subsidies are also very high..it's one of the costs that can be cut by the government if the people are healthy
The costs of the drugs are increasingly scary, life is all about money, and worse is, most drugs are imported stuffs. Even over here, I've heard of those super expensive drugs to cure cancers.. It scares me, really...
Since the leaders are brainless, and they're rich..hmm, will they be bpthered about this? In the end, those who can't afford to pay will die, simple as that
And again, the government loses people who pay income tax...
All these should come from at least, smarter and wiser leaders' brains
Not those confined to coconut-shells brains
As for the recent halal and non-halal elevators...
If you guys continuously shrink your minds into petite stuffs, you're actually inviting problems.. we change because everyone develops, and not going backwards to those stone age...
How can all of us stay in silence when things are flicking our anger?
And accumulating things are definitely bad for the people too
Mind you, we're all getting educated, not getting dumber
Go outside, see the world, compare and you guys will know it's not too late yet to save our beloved country..
Don't let it succumb to countries that are so much weakened
By the way, you guys always compare to those less developed countries, that's why you feel proud
If you could at least try to look at a higher peak, not only you guys will earn from it, but the people as well..
So so disappointed, but don't even know where can voice out these except through blogging..
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
B vz S
This will be just another day to be remembered...
I just can't understand how could those freshies laugh and clapped when all that she mentioned were so brainless?
Because of the mentality that Sharifah has, we'll never progress.. You guys just think everything is so perfect and that those that are not satisfied should leave. You don't compare because you know you're not even competitive enough. And because you don't compare to other countries, you'll just be like those happy frogs under the coconut shell.. you won't even know of the tsunami is coming and in a blink of eyes, everything is gone.
People that lead us should at least has a wise judgement. You don't have to compare the education level to indicate that you're smart or not. It's the IQ and EQ itself.
Those that applauded when those brainless facts were voiced up. Did they applaud because her voice was loud and seemed strong?
Or did they applaud, barely understanding anything?
One thing to be noted, I'm sure the English level is barely good for most of them.
Comparing to animals and sharks fins. Being thankful because we get to eat shark fins? Hello, do you notice how many of us who are against sharks fins soup nowadays?
And talking about animal rights? When human rights, that we, as human, are born to be able to speak out were asked to keep quiet when we want to raise our opinions?
No one said about the microphone being snatched off. To me, you've snatched off her microphone, even before she finishes her statement.
Perhaps, your scheme of giving smart phones may brainwash some, but definitely not all. What's the point of giving a smartphone? To boost up the economy? When the economy seemed getting worse?
With all the increasing costs?
I can barely understand. Why not use the money to improvise in research? In scholarships? In increasing educational system?
When university rankings are dropped, it's be hardert o climb up again. It's not the end if proper ways are implemented.
Sigh..
If there are more Bavani(s), we'll definitely progress much better,
Have you seen how much our university drop from year to year?
Worse is, the dropping level is horrendous. It's just so disappointing. To be truth, there are many of us who would want to return to our home beloved country when the time is right. I am one of them who wanted to. But my heart is shattered when more of these come up.
Do you know how many talents are recruited to other countries? Do you know how much of money that you all have spent for those free education since we were young?
Do you realise that the money that you've spent were mostly 0 investments?
Because those would leave any soon?
It's not that they want to leave, it's a force to leave.
Do you realise the money spent on health coverage for the people would be reduced, if you control the diets of the people better?
Do you realise how many obese people are around because there's a lack of control for health consciousness?
All these will lead to expenditures in the governement health sectors.
Do you realise that the more shrunken your mentality is, the worse everything will exponentially become? :(
It's really a true disappointment...
Also, itt feels so hopeless to see what these new generations are becoming into. She had mentioned this, if you're not happy, you should leave. This statement, doesn't really apply to educational level only. it could represent more than that. Do you think everyone's mind is like those youngsters who applauded?
Perhaps, if you train up more people like these, the country will surely succumb. Other countries make the best out of the best. You guys are the total opposite. making the worse out of the best. We have eberything in the country- from sceneries, to resources, to talents. And yet, the standards are dropping ridiculously each year. It feels really sad. Why other countries could welcome us so warmly while you guys,... prefer to kick out...
The main reason is the sense of comfort. You guys are not willing to change because you're happy and contented. You guys are lazy to think.
Or another reason is, you guys are just trying to make us think 2+2= 5
So that you guys will not have to have much troubles. So you guys can live easily while the others stay in silence.
If leaders are themselves lack of good thinking skills, how can they lead people for better?
I just can't understand how could those freshies laugh and clapped when all that she mentioned were so brainless?
Because of the mentality that Sharifah has, we'll never progress.. You guys just think everything is so perfect and that those that are not satisfied should leave. You don't compare because you know you're not even competitive enough. And because you don't compare to other countries, you'll just be like those happy frogs under the coconut shell.. you won't even know of the tsunami is coming and in a blink of eyes, everything is gone.
People that lead us should at least has a wise judgement. You don't have to compare the education level to indicate that you're smart or not. It's the IQ and EQ itself.
Those that applauded when those brainless facts were voiced up. Did they applaud because her voice was loud and seemed strong?
Or did they applaud, barely understanding anything?
One thing to be noted, I'm sure the English level is barely good for most of them.
Comparing to animals and sharks fins. Being thankful because we get to eat shark fins? Hello, do you notice how many of us who are against sharks fins soup nowadays?
And talking about animal rights? When human rights, that we, as human, are born to be able to speak out were asked to keep quiet when we want to raise our opinions?
No one said about the microphone being snatched off. To me, you've snatched off her microphone, even before she finishes her statement.
Perhaps, your scheme of giving smart phones may brainwash some, but definitely not all. What's the point of giving a smartphone? To boost up the economy? When the economy seemed getting worse?
With all the increasing costs?
I can barely understand. Why not use the money to improvise in research? In scholarships? In increasing educational system?
When university rankings are dropped, it's be hardert o climb up again. It's not the end if proper ways are implemented.
Sigh..
If there are more Bavani(s), we'll definitely progress much better,
Have you seen how much our university drop from year to year?
Worse is, the dropping level is horrendous. It's just so disappointing. To be truth, there are many of us who would want to return to our home beloved country when the time is right. I am one of them who wanted to. But my heart is shattered when more of these come up.
Do you know how many talents are recruited to other countries? Do you know how much of money that you all have spent for those free education since we were young?
Do you realise that the money that you've spent were mostly 0 investments?
Because those would leave any soon?
It's not that they want to leave, it's a force to leave.
Do you realise the money spent on health coverage for the people would be reduced, if you control the diets of the people better?
Do you realise how many obese people are around because there's a lack of control for health consciousness?
All these will lead to expenditures in the governement health sectors.
Do you realise that the more shrunken your mentality is, the worse everything will exponentially become? :(
It's really a true disappointment...
Also, itt feels so hopeless to see what these new generations are becoming into. She had mentioned this, if you're not happy, you should leave. This statement, doesn't really apply to educational level only. it could represent more than that. Do you think everyone's mind is like those youngsters who applauded?
Perhaps, if you train up more people like these, the country will surely succumb. Other countries make the best out of the best. You guys are the total opposite. making the worse out of the best. We have eberything in the country- from sceneries, to resources, to talents. And yet, the standards are dropping ridiculously each year. It feels really sad. Why other countries could welcome us so warmly while you guys,... prefer to kick out...
The main reason is the sense of comfort. You guys are not willing to change because you're happy and contented. You guys are lazy to think.
Or another reason is, you guys are just trying to make us think 2+2= 5
So that you guys will not have to have much troubles. So you guys can live easily while the others stay in silence.
If leaders are themselves lack of good thinking skills, how can they lead people for better?
Babbling too much
Recently I have this habit of babbling too much- erm, through emails...mainly because:
1. I was too occupied with writing and writing- that until my brain seemed to dysfunction
2. I was anti-social- all outings reduced to -1
3. I was sitting at my desk place most of the time- health also probably deteriorated; lack of sports!!
4. I wasn't having sufficent sleeping hours.. 5-6 hours? - resulting in strenuous brain after waking up
Oh boy, I deserve a looooooooooooong gooooood holiday!
Anyway, my points wasn't the above:
well, I bombed my colleague's email yesterday coz I wasn't focused on the email that he had sent me just for my information...
I first replied with a wrong date
Then i corrected the date
Then I sent another email saying please disregard my earlier two emails to further explain and minus his time reading my email...(it was about 6pm, all done within 15mins?)
Then today morning, i realised that i read the contents of the email wrongly...OOooopPPsss
Means I had deciphered the wrong information
And so, whatever that I wrote yesterday were in fact- useless
Hmmmmmm --> :S (this was my expression when I was showering, because the thought just came up when I was having my morning shower)
zzzzzzzzzzzz
And so, I decided to send him the 4th email apologizing: sorry for bombing your mailbox
aiyohhh how paiseh I felt
how blur was I ah? =="
anyway, felt kinda touched when he said these:
LOL
haihhhh...paisehnyaaaaa
==
but really, really thankful for sweeeet people like these too ^^
and suddenly I'm thankful not for being a doctor
imagine how careless would I be?
:S
anyway, thanks everything to brain dysfunction! So lousy, at such a young age and being such a blur person :(
And before all these, I only got complimented for being meticulous
wrong judgement hor...
Sigh...Recently, the sleep deprivation effect had me feeling lack of sufficient sleep, that even my junior, when she saw me (for us to have lunch), she asked me- did you just wake up from sleep?
zzzzzzzz
If I have such a nice life to wake up from sleep during lunch hour... that would be a rainbow lor! Plus, impossible for right now when the writing work is so intense...
okayla so long~
1. I was too occupied with writing and writing- that until my brain seemed to dysfunction
2. I was anti-social- all outings reduced to -1
3. I was sitting at my desk place most of the time- health also probably deteriorated; lack of sports!!
4. I wasn't having sufficent sleeping hours.. 5-6 hours? - resulting in strenuous brain after waking up
Oh boy, I deserve a looooooooooooong gooooood holiday!
Anyway, my points wasn't the above:
well, I bombed my colleague's email yesterday coz I wasn't focused on the email that he had sent me just for my information...
I first replied with a wrong date
Then i corrected the date
Then I sent another email saying please disregard my earlier two emails to further explain and minus his time reading my email...(it was about 6pm, all done within 15mins?)
Then today morning, i realised that i read the contents of the email wrongly...OOooopPPsss
Means I had deciphered the wrong information
And so, whatever that I wrote yesterday were in fact- useless
Hmmmmmm --> :S (this was my expression when I was showering, because the thought just came up when I was having my morning shower)
zzzzzzzzzzzz
And so, I decided to send him the 4th email apologizing: sorry for bombing your mailbox
aiyohhh how paiseh I felt
how blur was I ah? =="
anyway, felt kinda touched when he said these:
No problem.
I don’t really understand what you are writing anyway.
Good to get things out of your system when you are
stressed. Bomb my mailbox anytime.
LOL
haihhhh...paisehnyaaaaa
==
but really, really thankful for sweeeet people like these too ^^
and suddenly I'm thankful not for being a doctor
imagine how careless would I be?
:S
anyway, thanks everything to brain dysfunction! So lousy, at such a young age and being such a blur person :(
And before all these, I only got complimented for being meticulous
wrong judgement hor...
Sigh...Recently, the sleep deprivation effect had me feeling lack of sufficient sleep, that even my junior, when she saw me (for us to have lunch), she asked me- did you just wake up from sleep?
zzzzzzzz
If I have such a nice life to wake up from sleep during lunch hour... that would be a rainbow lor! Plus, impossible for right now when the writing work is so intense...
okayla so long~
Friday, January 4, 2013
Priceless help
Happy New Year!!!!!
Wishing all the best wishes in the world to everyone!!
I have something to update...
In fact, previous 2 months had been such a dreadful, time constraining, stress, whatever period I could think of. It wasn't past 2 months, it was since 1/2 year ago. Everything seemed so tough that I really thought I couldn't handle much anymore. And I thought I had limits because the obstacles were so much! No wonder can get perm head damage...sigh
And previous 2 months were the worse... All because of uncertain future...
Anyway, along the way when I was down, there were many nice people that helped here and there. It just so, priceless and felt so touched. Even when I felt there was little light and more darkness, suddenly, there were some angels here and there that provided some supports.
So you know, it fluctuated madly like, roller coaster
If you noticed my earlier blogs, I've always mentioned that I'm like those running mice in the roller...and how much time flies...and everything just seemed so : non-stop
I had severe diarrhea two days ago, was really severe...and boy, I was so weak!! Then I had MC yesterday and went to have lunch while being alone at home- for the first time over here, I was on MC. Can you imagine it? Almost 4 years and MC at home- 1st time.
And as I walked along to the hawker place all alone, I felt so peaceful, so relaxed, so nice! It was really such a nice feeling that I was sincerely hoping, I want a holiday and stop all the nonsense!
But I'm back again today on Friday, trying to finish the one I'm trying to procastinate..but can't because of the scary fees...sigh
It's just so horrible..
Then before off work, she made my day again!! She made my day last week when she helped me to settle the pass thing, and when I came on Wednesday in the morning, she had a very good piece of news for me- passed! :))
But then I was literally slightly dissatisfied because it wasn't the level that I wanted. Anyway, I was thankful enough for her help in making it so soon :))
Then suddenly today, she helped me again before off work time :')
And I finally won what i wanted!! sobs :'))))))
Really thankful. Along the way, there were many others too that helped sooooooo much... she was one of them who made a huge difference, along with few others such as YB, HM, and PC. A is the best :'))
For this matter: these 4 people helped soooooooooo much!!
and I could finally see real colors of others too zzzzz
For many others, numerous nice people along the way: J, CC, YY, CB, LG, SJ, ND, SY, JB
(Lol sounds like an acknowledgement page haha)
Sobs really touched.... :')
not many people had crossed my path..but the things that you guys have done...priceless... :')
Thank you u guys!!
And i've posted this on my fb:
the crossing of many wonderful people along my paths really really made me more appreciate life ever than before...thank you!! :')
will be more motivated and i will remember to pass your deeds to others :')
and will never forget all these people ever:))
P/S: sometimes the small deed that you guys have done really made a whole load of differences in others' life... truly priceless feeling. i hope i can pass these on too whenever i could~
okay i'm babbling here..but thank you:)) finally seeing some lights... :))
it is utmost important to apply what you know to help others, regardless of the rewards (in which there's supposed to be no rewards at all for anything that you should expect, literally speaking)
:')
you guys won't know if you've made any differences in other people's life, but you guys did!!! :')
Wishing all the best wishes in the world to everyone!!
I have something to update...
In fact, previous 2 months had been such a dreadful, time constraining, stress, whatever period I could think of. It wasn't past 2 months, it was since 1/2 year ago. Everything seemed so tough that I really thought I couldn't handle much anymore. And I thought I had limits because the obstacles were so much! No wonder can get perm head damage...sigh
And previous 2 months were the worse... All because of uncertain future...
Anyway, along the way when I was down, there were many nice people that helped here and there. It just so, priceless and felt so touched. Even when I felt there was little light and more darkness, suddenly, there were some angels here and there that provided some supports.
So you know, it fluctuated madly like, roller coaster
If you noticed my earlier blogs, I've always mentioned that I'm like those running mice in the roller...and how much time flies...and everything just seemed so : non-stop
I had severe diarrhea two days ago, was really severe...and boy, I was so weak!! Then I had MC yesterday and went to have lunch while being alone at home- for the first time over here, I was on MC. Can you imagine it? Almost 4 years and MC at home- 1st time.
And as I walked along to the hawker place all alone, I felt so peaceful, so relaxed, so nice! It was really such a nice feeling that I was sincerely hoping, I want a holiday and stop all the nonsense!
But I'm back again today on Friday, trying to finish the one I'm trying to procastinate..but can't because of the scary fees...sigh
It's just so horrible..
Then before off work, she made my day again!! She made my day last week when she helped me to settle the pass thing, and when I came on Wednesday in the morning, she had a very good piece of news for me- passed! :))
But then I was literally slightly dissatisfied because it wasn't the level that I wanted. Anyway, I was thankful enough for her help in making it so soon :))
Then suddenly today, she helped me again before off work time :')
And I finally won what i wanted!! sobs :'))))))
Really thankful. Along the way, there were many others too that helped sooooooo much... she was one of them who made a huge difference, along with few others such as YB, HM, and PC. A is the best :'))
For this matter: these 4 people helped soooooooooo much!!
and I could finally see real colors of others too zzzzz
For many others, numerous nice people along the way: J, CC, YY, CB, LG, SJ, ND, SY, JB
(Lol sounds like an acknowledgement page haha)
Sobs really touched.... :')
not many people had crossed my path..but the things that you guys have done...priceless... :')
Thank you u guys!!
And i've posted this on my fb:
the crossing of many wonderful people along my paths really really made me more appreciate life ever than before...thank you!! :')
will be more motivated and i will remember to pass your deeds to others :')
and will never forget all these people ever:))
P/S: sometimes the small deed that you guys have done really made a whole load of differences in others' life... truly priceless feeling. i hope i can pass these on too whenever i could~
okay i'm babbling here..but thank you:)) finally seeing some lights... :))
it is utmost important to apply what you know to help others, regardless of the rewards (in which there's supposed to be no rewards at all for anything that you should expect, literally speaking)
:')
you guys won't know if you've made any differences in other people's life, but you guys did!!! :')
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