Grass is always 'softer' on the other side of the road

Hello!

Well technically speaking, the grass is indeed softer at a cooler country...erm...muchhhhh cooler country

I wonder if I will bu she de leave here...for now, it's just a so-so feeling..
When people asks, I just say 'so far so good'

Confided with my supervisor today and realised that we are always chasing the tail like a mice..
And he told me that, well, we can't always fulfil other people's requirements..

But to fulfil my own requirements is also....(erm I should lower down my expectations horrr)
But as one of my bests said, we are always fighting.. really can't agree more...
Though I lazy fight leh...

Anywayyy, on a brighter side of the story:

tadaaaa~

Welcoming spring and warmer but not-so-hot-weather:)

Recent trip to Radcliffe Camera

Probably my housemates will be zzzz with my procrastination of giving them their pictures...
*lazy me* lol..

Btw, it's a quarter of the year le... And finally today I found new motivations for this year's plan (well, it's never too late right?)

Lessons: we only learn when we deal with hardships/challenges (err well-known fact) =P

So long for now=)

Be patient!

Hello..

The lesson for today:

BE PATIENT!!! These kinds of culture do happen, not what you had expected to have one side only. Really an inexperienced person (sigh! talking about myself and blabbing here paiseh)
How come so irrational today ah? :(
Please weigh PROs and CONs first =.= (I did, but insufficient)
Probably because of that fiery message I sent to someone in the morning for not keeping promises..

So desperate meh?? Oh well, it's something to remember in years to come but I really can't afford any mistakes to be taken as experiences at the moment... I wasn't always in this situation because I am quite a patient person, but today's (JUST ONLY) occasion would be labelled not as pro-active, but rather as desperate lorrrr...

Hopefully didn't get minus mark :/

I should take it as 'die die lah' as I had been in this mode for a long time since my graduation. Maybe because of mood changes ah? Haihz...no reasons can substitute my erm, over-reaction for today =.="




Picture credits and thank you

So long~

1/2 year has flown by

Yep, the title that says it all.

Ask yourself these:

How much have been done for the past 1/2 year?

How much that is supposed to be accomplished, but you refused/denied/procastinated to do so?

How much that you've anticipated, have been done?

And, how much of resolutions that you have made earlier this year, have been achieved?


Well, can't wait for the time to open up another new chapter of life....;)

so long~

excited with a new avenue!!!

Can't disclose much yet, but super excited and positive feel with this! :D

Finally, a double layer of rainbows~

Picture credits
Can't wait to see if there's a triple one, but double one is already extreme happiness for me:D:D:D

so long~

Puzzlessss slowly into pieces :)

As now things seemed to go on slower than previous days/months/years.... I stared at this pc screen of mine and wondering how should I convey my feelings for today..

Had a deep discussion with my Prof..
crossing)
And I'm really, really thankful for having to have met him..
Right up from day one before the interview for the scholarship..to the scholarship application..and how fast time flies...
until now..
(paiseh sounded emo eh?)
just, kinda really thankful :)
The chances that he gives..the good days...the training...the push..the motivation..
The supports...

If I'm gonna be in a position like him in future, I will do the same!
But, even if I'm not, I will pass on the deeds :)

In fact, this deep discussion have finally gave me more, ample time that I've ever needed previously..to re-plan my life..to plan my future again..

:)

I'm clear with what I want...but I need to work it out..

and I'm happy to say that..things alwayssssssssss become better when mood changes for better... so people, be positive okay!!!

But right now, to keep my words as he had to me..I will finish the promised things:) (own pinkies crossing) heehee..

Priceless help

Happy New Year!!!!!
Wishing all the best wishes in the world to everyone!!

I have something to update...
In fact, previous 2 months had been such a dreadful, time constraining, stress, whatever period I could think of. It wasn't past 2 months, it was since 1/2 year ago. Everything seemed so tough that I really thought I couldn't handle much anymore. And I thought I had limits because the obstacles were so much! No wonder can get perm head damage...sigh
And previous 2 months were the worse... All because of uncertain future...
Anyway, along the way when I was down, there were many nice people that helped here and there. It just so, priceless and felt so touched. Even when I felt there was little light and more darkness, suddenly, there were some angels here and there that provided some supports.
So you know, it fluctuated madly like, roller coaster
If you noticed my earlier blogs, I've always mentioned that I'm like those running mice in the roller...and how much time flies...and everything just seemed so : non-stop

I had severe diarrhea two days ago, was really severe...and boy, I was so weak!! Then I had MC yesterday and went to have lunch while being alone at home- for the first time over here, I was on MC. Can you imagine it? Almost 4 years and MC at home- 1st time.
And as I walked along to the hawker place all alone, I felt so peaceful, so relaxed, so nice! It was really such a nice feeling that I was sincerely hoping, I want a holiday and stop all the nonsense!

But I'm back again today on Friday, trying to finish the one I'm trying to procastinate..but can't because of the scary fees...sigh
It's just so horrible..

Then before off work, she made my day again!! She made my day last week when she helped me to settle the pass thing, and when I came on Wednesday in the morning, she had a very good piece of news for me- passed! :))
But then I was literally slightly dissatisfied because it wasn't the level that I wanted. Anyway, I was thankful enough for her help in making it so soon :))
Then suddenly today, she helped me again before off work time :')
And I finally won what i wanted!! sobs :'))))))
Really thankful. Along the way, there were many others too that helped sooooooo much... she was one of them who made a huge difference, along with few others such as YB, HM, and PC. A is the best :'))
For this matter: these 4 people helped soooooooooo much!!
and I could finally see real colors of others too zzzzz
For many others, numerous nice people along the way: J, CC, YY, CB, LG, SJ, ND, SY, JB
(Lol sounds like an acknowledgement page haha)
Sobs really touched.... :')   
not many people had crossed my path..but the things that you guys have done...priceless... :')
Thank you u guys!!
And i've posted this on my fb:

the crossing of many wonderful people along my paths really really made me more appreciate life ever than before...thank you!! :')
will be more motivated and i will remember to pass your deeds to others :')
and will never forget all these people ever:))
P/S: sometimes the small deed that you guys have done really made a whole load of differences in others' life... truly priceless feeling. i hope i can pass these on too whenever i could~

okay i'm babbling here..but thank you:)) finally seeing some lights... :)) 


it is utmost important to apply what you know to help others, regardless of the rewards (in which there's supposed to be no rewards at all for anything that you should expect, literally speaking)

:')

you guys won't know if you've made any differences in other people's life, but you guys did!!! :')

No longer finds it noble?

Either it's because of that or because I'm not that naive anymore in this field.. Alright I'm just babbling... I should learn and appreciate these rare chances Be thankful Be bold...

November days

Hullo!
Overheard in the radio today..DJ was saying: hello people..it's the eve of November already- have you decided where to go for a holiday?
No wor..wanted to have some holiday too but somehow my travel passion really gone down to drain at the moment..wondering because I felt older/ mature, or is it because of my current 'working' life which is so hectic.. and rushy..and pushy?

Looking back, it's really the end of the year.. so fast time flies
The fact that the duration of the time doesn't mean anything, but how have you passed it and how meaningful was it- remains the ultimate motive..
I was once motivated to think of how have i passed each week differently..but somehow i felt that those things that I've done were insufficient
Anyway, I did a wonderful thing today (or so called wonderful)
Shy shy also did something like 'that'
Was frightened, but I guess, at least I went through the moment
=)
Not telling here!! But I'm describing lah, in case you wanna know more..
My heart was really beating so fast due to unexpected expectations
For a moment, I wanted to give up
But then they pushed..and with their support, I went through it
I guess they were all feeling butterflies the same as mine somehow
Anyway, though it lasted for 3 mins, and there were mistakes done during that short time, I made it!!!
And boy, they were all laughing too..great encouragement lah..love you guys!! :D
So, I did something different today which I thought I wanted to but never had the courage enough
Hopefully more experiences after this:)
Anyway, good night and Hello november!!

Jigsaw puzzles of life

Life is like a board of jigsaw puzzles, with the hidden pieces everywhere..

Seriously, I feel that my current life is like a board of jigsaw puzzles..and the pictures are slowly drawn but the complete picture can never be seen

Finally, I've got what I wanted- after waiting and waiting for almost 1/2 year plus! Yay!! So glad to make it!! After planning for almost 2 years!!

Things just happens for a reason.. so, please believe it whole-'heartedly'..
It's weird but sometimes I feel that everything has its own momentum. It just cannot be rushed. For example, preparation for my exam. I was taking the last very minute and it's really the last minute to do it. Is it because of my lack of motivation or is it because I know it's just not time yet? Somehow, after this incident, I just believe that when it's time, it's just the time and will just happen?

Complicated yeah? And sounds insane and impossible and miraculous?
Probably I can't convey clearly the message here, but it's just something that has been on my mind for some time..

Now, next step, thinking of the future jigsaw patterns..

All the deadlines are rapidly rushing up.. Feel like a roller coaster at times
but kinda thankful and happy with most of it^^

I'm still looking for those missing pieces and slowly attaching it to the board!!

Life is an opportunity, grab it when you need to!!
So long~

Pic taken from here:)

Ganbatte!!!

Ganbatte to all that need it and to me also!!
Need to motivate myself, been lacking it lately..cham

This March month had been so hectic, and in a glimpse of time, it's going to end soon! I just can't deny how fast time flies. I think I've been long winded enough to mention this in my blog always (ya, always right?) and surprisingly, I've never uttered the opposing fact before- that time is so slowly ticking away.

So many things coming up, hopefully smooth smooth smooth..
Been rushing for many things since end of last year, it's like one after another lining up non stop. I predict (ahem!) that life will be as hectic as this months' bout 4 months from now on, or perhaps in September. Why do I feel so? I don't know, weird right? Let's see if my intuition is right again.

But I know there's plenty of plans during/ before that time too (but I'm sure not as busy as this month and since December 2010 happenings)- I'm referring to my work if you're wondering..loads of it lining up and i hope can produce it out soon!

Hopefully things are as expected- positive events lah:) so that all the plans will come in order. I have to rush up, time's flying.

By the way, as for the Japan's tsunami and nuclear plant disastrous event, it was something that really crushed my heart when I first saw it. Devastating, and it's telling us- life is short so treasure it to the max!! Do what you should do, want to do and most importantly, bear no regrets later.
The weather's getting very weird too. My colleague's hometown in Kunming, China was having a 24deg C a day before (last Tuesday) and snowed the following day!! So unimaginable is the weather, and it's just way too scary to think about it (I'm timid enough, forgive me for this..)
Before the Japan's tsunami on 11th March 2011, I was reading this article two days before only, and now that I get the updated news on this, I was not 'that' frightened/ superstitious anymore. Coz hor, the last time there were massive animals that died, something really bad happened after that. So it's just so devastating to read news like these..arrghh!

Anyway, my another message here is: Be courageous and bold enough, never turn back once you're determined- because life is too short to think over it and to waste time over it. Go on, keep moving forward because there might be a lot more of shooting stars out there waiting to be seen. Opportunities still come and go, so no worries.
'Kamparteh'!!

Better continue with my work.
All the best, buddies!!

Hapy nEw YeAr!! A new year, new beginning,,

Happy new year 2011!!!

This is a year where most of us of my age will flashbacks our 1/4 century days,and either feel very emo, or emo about it..okay, not forgetting those that would be glad too- for those that had accomplished one of many life missions :)

I'm sure many would be emo, especially those in singledom
I didn't mean to start this note with an emo note, but I want to say here is, to you all out there who felt the same like me: Don't give up!

This is a year we all should be:

1. Make realistic resolutions
2. Be more courageous, time to do what we should, feel what we should, try what we hadn't, set a new path/ direction in life
3. No more lagging or losing motivations because this is an age where we're considered good enough for most things!
4. Those single ones, time to think seriously, get into relationships, grab chances, find the right person!
5. Those attached ones, start thinking: is this the right person? If yes, proceed, if not, better move on. It's always better to break and find someone right rather than keep dragging the sad relationship because couldn't bear to be single
6. More travelling!! Time to look out more! This is one of the age we get to do most of what we want to, though with financial hardships. But we can always travel and spend wisely.. right? Rather than to save save and later, still..save but going nowhere? Imagine an attached life with families, I bet there'll be less reasons to travel more (at least for those with baby kids)
7. Play and work hard!!
8. Instead of waiting, we should be the ones that move forward, regardless in anything.. so keep motivated!
9. Those who want to earn more money? Time for serious investments :)

Wish you guys good luck in everything!!
I hope you guys will give a happy and satisfying answer when you ask yourselves 25 more years later, what have i done in my first 1/2 of life..

Happy new year, once again!! :)

The PILOT story

We went stationery shopping in the school co-op yesterday..
Ya in-house shopping since few of us were too free with nothing else to do..

My senior was looking for a marker pen and she found the Pilot brand one, asking me if it was nice to be used.

Eyes widened, I was like "Eh got PILOT brands here!"
Frankly speaking, I've never stepped into the co-op for more than 3 times throughout this year.

Then, I saw this!!! The PILOT H-325 mechanical pencil I've been searching for such a loooong looong time for years! I just can't believe that I've found it finally!!!

The upper bluish-purple Pilot!

Without hesitating, my grin widened until those with me were surprised! But of course, they wouldn't be as surprised and happy as me!! =D

Okay the shorter story version goes like this:

This beautiful mechanical pencil had been with me since I was 14 years old. It had been accompanying me throughout my secondary school life, high-school life but sadly, only during my first year undergraduate. It was with me for almost all the huge examinations that lead me to the undergraduate life. This PILOT has been with me through all my ups and downs, all the sweet and bitter memories (mostly sweeeet hehe!) as I never failed to use it daily since then. I remember writing lots of 'first-time' things with this pencil. Sweet ones, okay??

Also, although there are many many out there that complained how not comfy of this pencil is while using it, one particular person did enjoyed using it=) because that person owns a silver Parker version which I drooled over when I first saw it. But I'm remaining faithful to my PILOT! Alright, I'm just daydreaming here.. but just let me be!

Unfortunately, it got lost to some !@#$%^& who borrowed it without returning when I was in Biochemistry lab back in my first year undergraduate. I had been searching for weeks and finally, I've decided to find the replacement in bookstores outside. I remember peeping into people's pencil cases or whoever's hands whenever pencil-writing is required but fruitless.

As you see, after soo soo many years (about 6-7 years since 14 years old), it is not possible to find the exact one anymore, because this version is pretty heavy and I doubt many would use it. Many has been complaining to me how heavy it is although it's beautiful.

After so many searches, I only manage to find a brandless and much cheaper version- which was the black Pentel one (in the picture). And since then, the black imitation of the PILOT H-325 has been with me. But I never fail to find it in bookstores whenever I go out, and Popular has it too, but not with the same colour and features as they were of newer versions..

Somehow, I found it here!!!

I am just so glad of finding it again!! Just searched through the net and it's called a drafting mechanical pencil. A really special mechanical pencil in fact.

I could never find the same replacement anymore (as we always know- life has to go on) but I'm still really thankful and happy for getting this =D I'll definitely keep it with me closely for years to come!

And I got it as a gift again!! :D Thank you!!! *hugs*

So long~

Passed-by opportunity

I am so inclined to go!
But I'm not going, I think.

SIgh

What a great opportunity to be wasted.

I am not talking about myself- because I've decided. Yes I must decide it to be like this.
I am referring to someone else.
----- Why can't you just analyse closely?-----
----- Why don't you just try it?--------
----- It will bring no harm at all!-----

The policy is changing already. If you don't try it, you'd never know! Is it because of your back-in-school mentality?

It's so wasted that you are not going to accept it.
Really, this is such a great opportunity!!

And it's really time to crawl out of your shell.
Stubbornness is one of the greatest enemies in us.
IF everyone is S-M-A-R-T, there will be PERFECT PEOPLE in this world.

Come on, let's face the reality.
Another two years will bring you to nowhere, but this definitely will!
But I cannot give you 100% assurance because I won't be here to experience it.
But I know, if I were you, I will. I will definitely go for it!!

Sigh.

Some people just do not know how to appreciate valuable chances that come by.
And some never will..

Perhaps, you're afraid.
Or you are just too proud to admit it,
Or, you are just so 'kiasu',
Or, you're just too ignorant on this,
Or, you're just too rigid.

Or whatever:(

You should know that extreme rigidness is also another weaknesses in ourselves.

Should I?

Should I let it go?
And wait?

Or should I grab the chance?
And be bold?

Should I adapt to the changes that I anticipate?
Or should I change?

If I don't, will I regret?
Again?

But, is it worth it?

Which route should I choose?
Why is it so hard for me to do it?

I really don't know what am I thinking at times..


But I'm afraid that i will regret it, a-g-a-i-n.

So long~~