Fruitful day:)

Today's the day that I felt being treated like some very important contributing personnel. Feel like a grown up person (at this age =.=)! Today's also the day that I felt really thankful for these: 

1. Being given advices on current life; just be ready to take risks like what I'm currently doing. 

2. Being a listener to some nice stranger (very surprisingly; I probably have a good listener's face today)

3. Being able to solve the current biggest  headache before deadline after my severe pushy mood these two weeks!! and...

4. Being able to be approved of what I want for the current plans. Feel bad that instead of selling myself, others had to keep me continually interested. I guess it's all about my hunger for learning that made me like this. Sigh.. So ungrateful of me yeah? 

Anywayyyy, productive day huh?:)

What more can I say?:) 

#blessed

All in all, thank you for everything!!:)

So long~

Another chapter of adventure:)

Finally finished editing a paper (not of my expertise but just helping) and now, went through the really nice Stephen Hawking's movie!!
I seldom enjoy bibiliographies because I find them boring...but this one --> thumbsssss up! very inspiring, touching and great story:')

Oh, BTW, these are the views that I get while being temporary placed here...
One thing for sure that I get to see more: various species of birds chirping around:)
And less buildings, but more

Don't know what lies ahead yet, but for now: tired of walking and the amount of distance that I have had for the past 4 days is equivalent to twice of walking that I had during my previous China-Sichuan trip.

=.="

Oh well, getting out of comfort zone is not easy, especially the previous 1-2 months of rushing preparation for everything...all for these..
And before the interview's advices...thanks!!!:))

So much was done, so much was being expected to be done and all for these:))) *finally*
----> hopefully smooth one though I think more adventures to come somemore...

Think I had complained all to a few very understanding/listening friend who had went through these...and after hearing C's stories particularly; I am especially super grateful with mine.
And that nice last Malaysian food meal before flying off. Gonna miss my char kway teow and asam laksa for a longggggggg time ah! >.<"

But will have lotsa homemade bak kut teh for sure...haha

And singapore's white pepper bak kut teh also..

Anywayyyyy, I'm still feeling really blessed with all these; awesome family and close friends who had provided so much of help/supports/everythinggggg even until the very last minute: my overweight luggages to be put into the taxi before reaching airport and extra things to be 'tumpang'-ed also.

What more should I say? :'))
Big hugssssss to you awesome people!!! :'))

So longggg~




P/S: haven't done any homework on travelling yet......soooooo tiredddddd...but more to cover soon!!

Finding solitude in drawing..

While searching for holiday mood +

solitude, I ended up polishing my drawing skills (procrastinated since ages ago =.=)

Well, we're supposed to squeeze the lemon juice out if life treats us as sour as lemon.

I was reading on some law and regulation  matters regarding to workforce stuffs yesterday night and realised that things seemed darker than it had seemed actually.. Ignorance is a bliss Hor :/ (bluff myself for few weeks =.=)

Now, what should I say? Squeeze lemon juice, make a lemonade and look at the bright side *pat pat

Maybe things won't be this bad leh? (Still bluffing myself.. No thanks)

I always prepare myself in the worse case scenario; don't know why I have such a lousy habit but usually that's how I prepare myself. Probably coz can't rely on anyone to help me a lot ba...

I guess that I also learned a lot these few months. What a funny experience lor; thought things would be better drastically (oh well, actually it did because I have more time to settle own things)

Less harassments (pity my friend that got harassed because of me)..

On the other side, more time means more me-time, reflections; back to square 1 but happy on one side; and uncertainties on the other side

Lessons:

1. Please do homework more carefully and no more relying on word of mouth or friends only (tough lesson for me lorrrr)

2. When we don't have hope, we'd have less disappointments (or

perhaps none). But stay motivated on the correct track because every passing minute cannot be refunded anymore.

3. No point regretting what has been done. Forget the past and fear not for the future (something that I got from watching the recent drama series on correctional behavior also). Meaningful:)

4. Be rational and keep calm. Things will happen in due course (as if fated lah); because rush rush also in the end is like that *urgh* or even worse/negatively unexpected..

Btw, we change when we meet the love of our life --> for better; I never changed much leh.. But I think over the years, I =.= ; I have surrounding friends that have changed because of me. This, adds me to another misery (a recent encounter). Probably because I was too ignorant all along due to busy, roller coaster life... *urgh

Kind of irritated actually :((

On the other hand, because I was relying on some people's help (you know la when desperate); things went worse. All were victimized. To put it safely, no win-win situation but more learning lessons. Time to get back on the feet after all the nightmares le...

Ganbatte!!!

P/s: the Madame Solittude is some manga series character.. Not sure if it's really misspelled that way.. Cbb :p

So long~

Thought the bad things have ended...

First of all, this is going to be a pretty negative post..

Thought all bad things have ended and will see triple rainbow, only to realise that I'm caught in another act of disappointment..

And seemed that the events that had happened are prolonged and not those short, crash courses during my graduate studies..

I still get harassed by stalkr through messages (which apparently I have finally changed the number and did not inform the rest of the related-circle on the number change, even the close lab members because letting them know would only cause them to tell lies)..
Although the messages sounded kind "ie if you need my help, please do not hesitate to find me" bla bla...
I showed the message to one my the lab members and the answer was "doesn't sound harmful"
To me, I also CBB whether you think I'm paranoid or not...
But it just reminds me of those thriller series when the kidnapper wants the one hiding to come out from the hiding place (while trying to run away/escape) and promises security, safety, no harms, etc..

I didn't even tell my ex-boss of the change of number...

Ie: if they know and when that idio* asks, they have to pretend. It's better if they don't know right? I'm still contactable anyway through some accounts that don't need phone number.

I am really glad that I have moved away too..though initially felt like new landlady is very fussy; but sooner I realised that she is understanding in some ways. And provided me some new guidance that I am quite happy at the meantime..


I also realised that some hopes can never be carried on so I chose to let go..

My previous friend contacted me again, to my surprise..Okay, I may think too much and contemplated too, but my ex landlady (which I visited her few days back to see her and get some letters because she had called me twice in 3 weeks to ask how I am) had mentioned this: 好马不吃回头草 when she asked me whether I want to move back or not..*guilty*
Literally speaking, the chinese idiom was used for the wrong meaning...
I told her that I didn't want her to wait and waste her source of income...and it's not a job, it's a room lahh =.=

Anyway, back to the story: although I think that this is overthinking: but 好马不吃回头草 is applicable to jobs and relationships..which reminds me of my past. Anywayyy, no turning back although I was contacted and there were signs/hints (okay okay i overthink~) cannnoooot perasan!

Then I also probably choose to let go of another haunting, prolonged crisis, it just wouldn't work I guess...

Then there is also this job thing that made me superbly disappointed... I thought it could end all the bad things le, but the recent news that I've heard made me...speechless. How could that someone be so no creditability??

Many stories in these recent months, and 2 years..and most of it prolonged, so much terrible than work-till-wee hours-labwork-no-results-days
:/

But on the other hand, kinda thankful with caring friends that wondered whether I'll fly off for work trip or not because I didn't bother to update them anymore after realising all these crisis. 

My another friend said "so dramatic lorr"
I fully agree.... :/

Anyway, I have to hang on, but not very sure of the brighter side anymore...

So long..

Thanks and Picture credits


P/S: Oh well, at least no more midnight-oil burnings! 

excited with a new avenue!!!

Can't disclose much yet, but super excited and positive feel with this! :D

Finally, a double layer of rainbows~

Picture credits
Can't wait to see if there's a triple one, but double one is already extreme happiness for me:D:D:D

so long~

Volcanoes....

For the first time in my life, a salesperson in a Beauty departmental store was asking me if I need pimple cream for the huge volcano on my face.


Sigh, the point is: I am not prone to pimples many. many years before.
And today, even my junior was like...... is something wrong inside your body??

You'd probably be saying: zzzzzz what the heck?? This also want to complain??! But this is my blog leh...... so pardon me to lament anything that I want here. TQ.

I also know that this post would sound like those teenagers complaining/whining about looks; or to learn to be grateful at least one or two volcanoes only......... but I STILL insist on writing this one, as I probably will laugh at my pimple days later in years to come...

But another point to lament is: the scars are so much slower to heal!!! *sobs....--> thanks to aging factor :'(
 
I blame it on...........................
Though i adore both former and the latter:

 

 All pictures were googled so copyrights remain to them ya~

I am blogging at this beautiful hour thanks to the firing email that I had just sent to my young collaborator after recent, countless incidences...

I have to dedicate my weekend to this person's work somemore but it's okay...it's all about the learning process right....

Well, life is short so say out before things get worse...

The consequences should be.....

I don't want to imagine but something will not be very right though...

P/S: I met up another friend just now and got a free ice-cream today. The point that I want to share here is: heeheee I managed to brainwash someone's thinking to get attached and have babies.... It was a real hardship to do this to that person about 6-8 months earlier. That surprised me...what a change huh? :P :D

But I have another close friend here who has succumbed to singledom life those...and that one, nag until saliva dry also cannot help.. haizz......

So long~

Puzzlessss slowly into pieces :)

As now things seemed to go on slower than previous days/months/years.... I stared at this pc screen of mine and wondering how should I convey my feelings for today..

Had a deep discussion with my Prof..
crossing)
And I'm really, really thankful for having to have met him..
Right up from day one before the interview for the scholarship..to the scholarship application..and how fast time flies...
until now..
(paiseh sounded emo eh?)
just, kinda really thankful :)
The chances that he gives..the good days...the training...the push..the motivation..
The supports...

If I'm gonna be in a position like him in future, I will do the same!
But, even if I'm not, I will pass on the deeds :)

In fact, this deep discussion have finally gave me more, ample time that I've ever needed previously..to re-plan my life..to plan my future again..

:)

I'm clear with what I want...but I need to work it out..

and I'm happy to say that..things alwayssssssssss become better when mood changes for better... so people, be positive okay!!!

But right now, to keep my words as he had to me..I will finish the promised things:) (own pinkies crossing) heehee..

What hurts most..

My last Penang fieldtrip for this year was the most enlightening one.

It was sort of painful too.

We had visited a hydrocephalic baby. It's the last birth defect case that I had visited for my current job.
I did not capture her photo but I found a substitute from here.



(from http://www.lucinafoundation.org/assets/hydrocephalus.jpg)

The history of this baby is still unknown. It could possibly due to the solvent exposure near her living place released by printing industries. According to my supervisor, her survival rate is low. Her spine was malformed.
She had several diagnoses, including kidney problems.
At such a tender age of six months plus, and she is suffering from all these.
Why????

It really hurts to see such a beautiful and cute baby to be suffering from this.
She is a really cheerful girl.
Though she's suffering in silence.
When we played with her, she would smile gleefully. Her eyes would try to turn left and right to capture our voices.
Innocently, she'd be smiling.
A really smart baby- I would say.

But we could not show our empathy much, not right in front of her mother.
And I really felt helpless.
What hurts most- is when you can't do anything, and anything at all.

Penang 6th trip

Was in the mood of capturing photos.

Penang 5th trip

My 28th-31st October trip..

Second and third picture were taken at Hospital Balik Pulau, Pulau Pinang.
The cactus is nice isn't it? It looked like some plant in a dessert.
But, it was really hot!

They were having a Hari Raya open house and we were invited!
I'm really impressed by their friendliness.
Took rendang ayam (really nice!!) with nasi pulut from lemang. Was eating it with my boss so I did not capture the food that I took:P

Inspiration

I can't believe that this is already another week!
Frankly, I've been anticipating it because I have no laptop with me for my field trip this week.

So bored!! Couldn't access anything after work. All I could do was to watch TV and some movies and read up some journals.

Yesterday I went out with a chemist and his wife. Well, my boss sends samples for testing to his laboratory and both of them treated me for my dinner at New Park World. Thank you Mr and Mrs Teoh!

Nice char koay teow and ice kacang..hehe..with a scoop of vanilla ice cream.

But err, I did not capture any pictures. Tell me, how do you want to capture pictures in front of a big boss and his wife?;)

I was pretty pleased to be able to meet them up. It was purely on coincidence. I was supposed to send them samples for water and soil testings so they came to the hotel to pick it up. And, out of their kindness and friendliness, I was treated! Hehe..
But the main story was not on the treats-lah. Coz small matters only. The big news is that they gave me some good tips for my next Singapore stay. Where to stay, where to eat, where can my parents stay and so on.. :D

Their daughters have excellent academics and sports records. I was truly amazed listening to their eldest daughter's story, who went to Singapore (NUS also) for Asean scholarship, offered scholarships and even Harvard university offered her without any application! Then, she got various gold medals in sports and research. Another one is a lawyer. WOW..they had truly inspired me:P

Feel proud for them (though I do not have any linkages to them at all! LOL)

And I was really inspired:)

Thank you!!

Next Penang trip

My next Penang trip is tentatively scheduled on 28th October for the whole particular week. It's to the mainland's hospitals.

Wonder if the hotels would be okay.

Will have to arrange for transportation and letters soon.

Hope it'd be enjoying, because I will be going with my boss only. Yes, only her. The other colleague would busy celebrating her Deepavali celebrations in KL.

The data and results collection would be petty, though. Especially if I can't chat with my another colleague. Haih..

Contradictorily, I am kind of excited with this trip also. It could probably be one of my very last few trips to Penang for this year, and maybe next year's.

A day to think over

Tomorrow is Hari Raya Aidilfitri, a celebration celebrated by Muslims after fasting for a month. In fact, the fasting season is a unique season. One can see the reduction of customers in many 'Mamak' stalls and shops, Malay restaurants would close at this time and none of the Muslims will turn up in any restaurants.

This is the month also where you can see 'Pasar Ramadhan', or evening markets where various food and drinks are sold. Really, there are a variety of delicious food around. In fact, I've been advised before that on the first day of this 'Pasar Ramadhan', I should not be buying any food of these stalls because when they are fasting, they wouldn't be able to determine correctly the amount of sugar or salt or whatever ingredients added to make up the food. Neh..as time goes by, if they are good chefs, they would definitely know how much sugar or salt should be added in- thus, it'll not be THAT bad=P, right?

Anyway, today's is the last day for the fasting day and tomorrow would be the celebrations!! I am looking forward to open houses and all, but (*tsk tsk sob sob, I'm coughing and been sick for a week ady!!) haih!!

My sickness is due to infection in upper respiratory tract and also in lower respiratory tract. I am seriously irritated with my coughs and I have a feeling that my cough expectorant is not working at all. What's worse, the preservative of sodium benzoate is quite high (if I'm not mistaken, it is 0.1% v/w). Imagine how much you have consumed if you are taking 10 ml, 3 times a day for 2 weeks? Poisoned... *sob sob*

I have to control my food consumption- cannot be taking too sweet or too spicy food, nor items that are labelled as 'heaty' or oily food. Well, fried food, baked food and any food in deep hot oil are considered heaty- according to older generations.

That's bad, isn't it? That means, in short- I'll be eating tasteless food. *sigh*

Okay, back to my title. I am getting out of topic. *winks*

As the celebrations mood is around, and no one literally is in my office (yes- it's empty!!) I am also in the holiday mood right now. LOL.

So, I am going to pass on my working day less hectic as my previous days- today is a work+ moderate music+internet (a day that I've never had before this).

This is also a day for me to think over my past, what I should do with my future and steps to achieve it. A day for me to think thrice on my relationship with others. Well, a day to do anything that I can think of.

Okay, back to work and music.

Climate Change International Conference 2008

I was really excited and happy when my boss recommended me to become a rapporteur in my first international conference! It was held from 17th-20th September (well, I was kind of late to post this=P)

Finally, I have a glimpse of how international conferences are held and how my work is supposed to be performed. It was an eye-opening experience to me. The way they organised it, how the people worked together and all.

A truly new experience.

The venue was Crowne Plaza Mutiara, Jalan Sultan ismail. It was really a nice hotel. I really liked the ballroom where the conference was held. Check out these pictures!

My special day in Penang

Today's the day I officially turn one year old older. *sob sob*

Time is flying fast, and I could only stare ahead and struggling to keep up with the time..

I'm currently staying in one of the hotels along Penang road, and these are some of the pictures that I've captured with my phone camera. I love the scene overlooking the sea. It's just so spectacular!

In fact, this is my 4th visit to Penang within 5 months- solely because I'm working and my work is likely to be based here for at least a week every month. During my stay here, I have traveled to many nearby places through my feet (well, Penang island is really small and you can see many interesting places when walking!)

I enjoy the magnificent sceneries!!