Grass is always 'softer' on the other side of the road

Hello!

Well technically speaking, the grass is indeed softer at a cooler country...erm...muchhhhh cooler country

I wonder if I will bu she de leave here...for now, it's just a so-so feeling..
When people asks, I just say 'so far so good'

Confided with my supervisor today and realised that we are always chasing the tail like a mice..
And he told me that, well, we can't always fulfil other people's requirements..

But to fulfil my own requirements is also....(erm I should lower down my expectations horrr)
But as one of my bests said, we are always fighting.. really can't agree more...
Though I lazy fight leh...

Anywayyy, on a brighter side of the story:

tadaaaa~

Welcoming spring and warmer but not-so-hot-weather:)

Recent trip to Radcliffe Camera

Probably my housemates will be zzzz with my procrastination of giving them their pictures...
*lazy me* lol..

Btw, it's a quarter of the year le... And finally today I found new motivations for this year's plan (well, it's never too late right?)

Lessons: we only learn when we deal with hardships/challenges (err well-known fact) =P

So long for now=)

Another chapter of adventure:)

Finally finished editing a paper (not of my expertise but just helping) and now, went through the really nice Stephen Hawking's movie!!
I seldom enjoy bibiliographies because I find them boring...but this one --> thumbsssss up! very inspiring, touching and great story:')

Oh, BTW, these are the views that I get while being temporary placed here...
One thing for sure that I get to see more: various species of birds chirping around:)
And less buildings, but more

Don't know what lies ahead yet, but for now: tired of walking and the amount of distance that I have had for the past 4 days is equivalent to twice of walking that I had during my previous China-Sichuan trip.

=.="

Oh well, getting out of comfort zone is not easy, especially the previous 1-2 months of rushing preparation for everything...all for these..
And before the interview's advices...thanks!!!:))

So much was done, so much was being expected to be done and all for these:))) *finally*
----> hopefully smooth one though I think more adventures to come somemore...

Think I had complained all to a few very understanding/listening friend who had went through these...and after hearing C's stories particularly; I am especially super grateful with mine.
And that nice last Malaysian food meal before flying off. Gonna miss my char kway teow and asam laksa for a longggggggg time ah! >.<"

But will have lotsa homemade bak kut teh for sure...haha

And singapore's white pepper bak kut teh also..

Anywayyyyy, I'm still feeling really blessed with all these; awesome family and close friends who had provided so much of help/supports/everythinggggg even until the very last minute: my overweight luggages to be put into the taxi before reaching airport and extra things to be 'tumpang'-ed also.

What more should I say? :'))
Big hugssssss to you awesome people!!! :'))

So longggg~




P/S: haven't done any homework on travelling yet......soooooo tiredddddd...but more to cover soon!!

Thought the bad things have ended...

First of all, this is going to be a pretty negative post..

Thought all bad things have ended and will see triple rainbow, only to realise that I'm caught in another act of disappointment..

And seemed that the events that had happened are prolonged and not those short, crash courses during my graduate studies..

I still get harassed by stalkr through messages (which apparently I have finally changed the number and did not inform the rest of the related-circle on the number change, even the close lab members because letting them know would only cause them to tell lies)..
Although the messages sounded kind "ie if you need my help, please do not hesitate to find me" bla bla...
I showed the message to one my the lab members and the answer was "doesn't sound harmful"
To me, I also CBB whether you think I'm paranoid or not...
But it just reminds me of those thriller series when the kidnapper wants the one hiding to come out from the hiding place (while trying to run away/escape) and promises security, safety, no harms, etc..

I didn't even tell my ex-boss of the change of number...

Ie: if they know and when that idio* asks, they have to pretend. It's better if they don't know right? I'm still contactable anyway through some accounts that don't need phone number.

I am really glad that I have moved away too..though initially felt like new landlady is very fussy; but sooner I realised that she is understanding in some ways. And provided me some new guidance that I am quite happy at the meantime..


I also realised that some hopes can never be carried on so I chose to let go..

My previous friend contacted me again, to my surprise..Okay, I may think too much and contemplated too, but my ex landlady (which I visited her few days back to see her and get some letters because she had called me twice in 3 weeks to ask how I am) had mentioned this: 好马不吃回头草 when she asked me whether I want to move back or not..*guilty*
Literally speaking, the chinese idiom was used for the wrong meaning...
I told her that I didn't want her to wait and waste her source of income...and it's not a job, it's a room lahh =.=

Anyway, back to the story: although I think that this is overthinking: but 好马不吃回头草 is applicable to jobs and relationships..which reminds me of my past. Anywayyy, no turning back although I was contacted and there were signs/hints (okay okay i overthink~) cannnoooot perasan!

Then I also probably choose to let go of another haunting, prolonged crisis, it just wouldn't work I guess...

Then there is also this job thing that made me superbly disappointed... I thought it could end all the bad things le, but the recent news that I've heard made me...speechless. How could that someone be so no creditability??

Many stories in these recent months, and 2 years..and most of it prolonged, so much terrible than work-till-wee hours-labwork-no-results-days
:/

But on the other hand, kinda thankful with caring friends that wondered whether I'll fly off for work trip or not because I didn't bother to update them anymore after realising all these crisis. 

My another friend said "so dramatic lorr"
I fully agree.... :/

Anyway, I have to hang on, but not very sure of the brighter side anymore...

So long..

Thanks and Picture credits


P/S: Oh well, at least no more midnight-oil burnings! 

1/2 year has flown by

Yep, the title that says it all.

Ask yourself these:

How much have been done for the past 1/2 year?

How much that is supposed to be accomplished, but you refused/denied/procastinated to do so?

How much that you've anticipated, have been done?

And, how much of resolutions that you have made earlier this year, have been achieved?


Well, can't wait for the time to open up another new chapter of life....;)

so long~

Between comfy and dream

Hallo!

The recent deals had made me contemplated; whether to move on or to stay on in my rented room...

Pros:
1. no more huge masterbedroom and low shared bathroom usage (because landlady has another toilet)
2. cheap rental
3. working place is super convenient and near.
4. some charity satisfaction (give it back to society) coz I don't have to volunteer at elderly homes.... it starts from home all along for many, many years already...and that I only volunteer in animal shelters...

Cons:
1. parents/friends can never stay over; i've always have to rent hotels for parents/ families
2. can't cook; and over the years of eating outside food made me really @@". So sick of eating outside food. And to add on, my skills in cooking had definitely diminished. I'm now even afraid to go mixing food during BBQ time. --> how useless I am hor.... (anyway, the guys usually does it somehow, LOL)
3. not air-conditioned. Discussing these deals with landlady will only cause conflicts....i even feel like renovating my room too coz it feels so, so boring to me now......throw all the old cupboards away; etc...
4. privacy matters. Well, you should be well aware that staying with owners is stable but...zzzz privacy matters so much to me as I am getting aged. I have had privacy conflicts before and she had compromised. else, worse ahhh.....
5. the nearby worshiping place wakes me up at 645am everyday...haihz...and locking windows doesn't help at all...my working hours need not need me to wake up so early ah... :/
6. landlady's health deteriorated so i come home with sometimes, different smells....sigh

wish I have own place to stay!!!

Torn in half ah....

somehow, listing these made me agree more that cons is more than pros...
but for a longer term speaking, the pros may still outweigh cons in terms of $$. The rest? you know it...

so long~

excited with a new avenue!!!

Can't disclose much yet, but super excited and positive feel with this! :D

Finally, a double layer of rainbows~

Picture credits
Can't wait to see if there's a triple one, but double one is already extreme happiness for me:D:D:D

so long~

Priceless help

Happy New Year!!!!!
Wishing all the best wishes in the world to everyone!!

I have something to update...
In fact, previous 2 months had been such a dreadful, time constraining, stress, whatever period I could think of. It wasn't past 2 months, it was since 1/2 year ago. Everything seemed so tough that I really thought I couldn't handle much anymore. And I thought I had limits because the obstacles were so much! No wonder can get perm head damage...sigh
And previous 2 months were the worse... All because of uncertain future...
Anyway, along the way when I was down, there were many nice people that helped here and there. It just so, priceless and felt so touched. Even when I felt there was little light and more darkness, suddenly, there were some angels here and there that provided some supports.
So you know, it fluctuated madly like, roller coaster
If you noticed my earlier blogs, I've always mentioned that I'm like those running mice in the roller...and how much time flies...and everything just seemed so : non-stop

I had severe diarrhea two days ago, was really severe...and boy, I was so weak!! Then I had MC yesterday and went to have lunch while being alone at home- for the first time over here, I was on MC. Can you imagine it? Almost 4 years and MC at home- 1st time.
And as I walked along to the hawker place all alone, I felt so peaceful, so relaxed, so nice! It was really such a nice feeling that I was sincerely hoping, I want a holiday and stop all the nonsense!

But I'm back again today on Friday, trying to finish the one I'm trying to procastinate..but can't because of the scary fees...sigh
It's just so horrible..

Then before off work, she made my day again!! She made my day last week when she helped me to settle the pass thing, and when I came on Wednesday in the morning, she had a very good piece of news for me- passed! :))
But then I was literally slightly dissatisfied because it wasn't the level that I wanted. Anyway, I was thankful enough for her help in making it so soon :))
Then suddenly today, she helped me again before off work time :')
And I finally won what i wanted!! sobs :'))))))
Really thankful. Along the way, there were many others too that helped sooooooo much... she was one of them who made a huge difference, along with few others such as YB, HM, and PC. A is the best :'))
For this matter: these 4 people helped soooooooooo much!!
and I could finally see real colors of others too zzzzz
For many others, numerous nice people along the way: J, CC, YY, CB, LG, SJ, ND, SY, JB
(Lol sounds like an acknowledgement page haha)
Sobs really touched.... :')   
not many people had crossed my path..but the things that you guys have done...priceless... :')
Thank you u guys!!
And i've posted this on my fb:

the crossing of many wonderful people along my paths really really made me more appreciate life ever than before...thank you!! :')
will be more motivated and i will remember to pass your deeds to others :')
and will never forget all these people ever:))
P/S: sometimes the small deed that you guys have done really made a whole load of differences in others' life... truly priceless feeling. i hope i can pass these on too whenever i could~

okay i'm babbling here..but thank you:)) finally seeing some lights... :)) 


it is utmost important to apply what you know to help others, regardless of the rewards (in which there's supposed to be no rewards at all for anything that you should expect, literally speaking)

:')

you guys won't know if you've made any differences in other people's life, but you guys did!!! :')

Hapy nEw YeAr!! A new year, new beginning,,

Happy new year 2011!!!

This is a year where most of us of my age will flashbacks our 1/4 century days,and either feel very emo, or emo about it..okay, not forgetting those that would be glad too- for those that had accomplished one of many life missions :)

I'm sure many would be emo, especially those in singledom
I didn't mean to start this note with an emo note, but I want to say here is, to you all out there who felt the same like me: Don't give up!

This is a year we all should be:

1. Make realistic resolutions
2. Be more courageous, time to do what we should, feel what we should, try what we hadn't, set a new path/ direction in life
3. No more lagging or losing motivations because this is an age where we're considered good enough for most things!
4. Those single ones, time to think seriously, get into relationships, grab chances, find the right person!
5. Those attached ones, start thinking: is this the right person? If yes, proceed, if not, better move on. It's always better to break and find someone right rather than keep dragging the sad relationship because couldn't bear to be single
6. More travelling!! Time to look out more! This is one of the age we get to do most of what we want to, though with financial hardships. But we can always travel and spend wisely.. right? Rather than to save save and later, still..save but going nowhere? Imagine an attached life with families, I bet there'll be less reasons to travel more (at least for those with baby kids)
7. Play and work hard!!
8. Instead of waiting, we should be the ones that move forward, regardless in anything.. so keep motivated!
9. Those who want to earn more money? Time for serious investments :)

Wish you guys good luck in everything!!
I hope you guys will give a happy and satisfying answer when you ask yourselves 25 more years later, what have i done in my first 1/2 of life..

Happy new year, once again!! :)

Don't give up ah!

Alooo~
Long time no blog so thought of putting this up lah. My current landlady is a 72-year old auntie who lived with her late mother before her mother passed away at the age of 94 years old  (woww!) 4 years ago
(==" what an introduction!)

She seemed nice to me though she told me that her temper was very bad when she was younger.
On the first Saturday after I've moved in, I saw her sweating profusely while searching for some important mass dates that she should attend in the nearby church.
It was like..
Her back shoulder was all wet and sweats were dripping on the sides of her face.
Few used tissues were on her table.
And she kept on sweating....
Blood also started to drain in my face, I thought "sei for, got problem ahh????"
I was shocked seeing her sweating like that!
I asked her why and she told me that it's normal for her to sweat whenever she was looking for things.
Poor her!

Anyway, on the following day, I brought back an organiser that my colleague had bought for me early this year which I seldom use, unless for drawing few angpows, mandarin oranges and a pig on the month of February (because I'm NOT that organised type of people anyway)..

And I gave it to her
It's the type with large squares with a huge page to represent a month.
That kind of organiser lah..(try to imagine by yourself okay?)

Then, last Saturday (my second Saturday here), her sister gave her an old model of Samsung flip phone.
I was telling her that I will teach her whenever she's ready *ahem* (Being a good teacher..lol!)

Yesterday morning, when I was rushing to the lab, she asked me to teach her in a split second
But that time she was going to church also, and me to lab for a time-point work

So, in the end, the teaching plan failed.

Today, I came home early and asked her immediately whether she was okay with the phone, since she's going for a medical check up in 2-days' time.
Eagerly, she took out her handphone and is finally ready to learn! :D
Hehe..

So, while explaining, I drew some cartoon figures and wrote down some simple instructions on few A4-sized papers for her so that she can refer whenever needed.

However, when I was telling her on what to do, she was again, sweating...
I feel like I'm scaring her ==" aiseh...
Then I told her to relax, take a deep breath and calm down.
She stresses herself too much at times :(

Hehe..
Anyway, she was really happy at the end of the lesson
She said she can sleep peacefully tonight
Lol!

I managed to get her to call me for a few times and her house phone also
Hope she'll remember to call me tomorrow for a test call
Will have to ask her everyday on how to call
Then settled;)

Nothing to blog much so telling this storylah..
My blog like not much updates due to my always busy life :(

Anyway, I'm really glad too that she's able to learn it
I mean, 72 years old and still eager to learn
Poeple of our age..?? Hmmmm :S
Some already want to give up without trying..

So lessons learned ah!

# Don't give up!
So long~

Smile =)

By Uncle cracker =D

You're better then the best
I'm lucky just to linger in your light
Cooler then the flip side of my pillow, that's right
Completely unaware
Nothing can compare to where you send me,
Lets me know that it's ok, yeah it's ok
And the moments where my good times start to fade

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along
Just like a flower poking the sidewalk crack and just like that
You steal away the rain and just like that

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

Don't know how I lived without you
Cuz everytime that I get around you
I see the best of me inside your eyes
You make me smile
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild

You make me smile like the sun
Fall out of bed, sing like bird
Dizzy in my head, spin like a record
Crazy on a Sunday night
You make me dance like a fool
Forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Ohh, you make me smile

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eskXnbVYr3Y

More pictures..

Chinatown 6th January 2009

Commonwealth Drive 11th January 2009

Bronze room in NUS Museum, an artifact on Bronze Money Tree (fragment) with ceramic base. Visited this interesting museum with few friends but ended up chatting with one of them. We were on the way of attending a 'Singlish' course. Since we didn't have much to do after the short orientation talk on facilities and services provided by NUS, we've decided to walk into this museum. I will go again and get more pictures later:)

Artifacts during Neolithic Era- there were more but I did not finish exploring because I was having a deep conversation with a sweet friend from Myanmar. Hope she will get well soon so that we can go to classes together.

Not long ago..

Burned the rest of my photos so these are some of the few ones kept in my phone. Been leaving this blog for some time dy. *paiseh*

Wax figurines in Images of Singapore, Imbiah Station, Sentosa 6th Jan 2009

Chinatown. Welcoming the year of mooooo. 6th Jan 2009

The God of Prosperity. Decors were placed along the road in Chinatown. Nice! 6th Jan 2009


If you are having insomnia, please look at this. Guaranteed sleepy. Trust me=P
Missing my doggie.

UPM. 23rd Dec 2008