And so, the stalker has veryyyyyy thick elephant skin as what my mom says...
It was 2 messages last week
today early morning at 1.38 am, another email that says gratitude + a pdf containing the pictures of the notes that I have left to correct st*pid behaviour for work and those that I CBB to mention face-to-face from early this year in the workplace..
The psycho person actually took pictures of all these and put in the ppt pictures..for so many months!!!!
I reli, reli, reli can't understand why is it still going on??!!
What I have learned is:
A weird/stalker behaviour of 'constantly harassing' belongs to someone who is extremely selfish, no compassion, rigid and stubborn.
I do not know if these are true, just my two cents.
I've in fact, spoken to some people (close friends usually) and few admitted that they did this when they broke up, years ago, but not at this 30-ish age.
One that knows the stalker closely said, he has an innocent mind.
I was like..@@ is that innocence OR selfish??
I also updated my close friends of the chronological events, in case something is bound to happen *sobs*
Reminds me of those sending weird parcels to house etc..(those thrillers that I used to watch a lot)
But the CBB mode is somehow quite going on especially with the workload that I have before my holiday..
SIGH..
So long..
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sick. Show all posts
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Thursday, December 12, 2013
Have you ever been stalked before?
Yes, I have been. A number of times. At least four times by different strangers, that was what I've observed/ realised.
But by someone known to me, that is something new, and something really frightening, depressing and made me full of hatred at the same time. I even noticed that my sense of the environment changes had diminished. I no longer enjoy the flowers on the trees, the chirpings of the birds, and the music of the rain.
No, it's not the same as stalking blogs. it's absolutely very, very different, okay?
Does it make any sense at all, to get this type of life? Being emotionally tortured is something far worse than pain inflicted physically. Or that is what I'm thinking.
They say, life is always full of ups and downs; and therefore, I always take bad experiences as lessons.
I've always believd that things happen for a reason.
But never have I imagined myself being stalked so badly that it emotionally drained my life in everything. It drains so much, even at this much mature age of mine.
I finally cried so badly today. Very badly. Yes I admit here, despite my ego-ness. It wasn't intended at all, but I do worry that I will succumb to depression.
And this is also when I learn, the freedom of life is something we have always taken for granted.
Something so priceless, and yet, takes so much for granted. So much the same as someone able-bodied to become someone disabled. or someone that is sick from a healthy state.
I am thankful with many wonderful friends that worries about me- it's very sweet of them, especially when I am in such a dire state. But, I really can't rely on you all always and become a liability. And I really don't want your sympathy, I only require solutions from brainstormings. Three people asked to accompany back home today. So sweet. Thank you very much. I really appreciate you guys so much. *hugssss*
But I turned down your help, because I really needed time to be alone to reflect and regain energy again.
I even FFK one at the very last minute.
Sigh, so abnormal of me; someone who hardly FFK people because promises must always be kept. But I can't be bothered about keeping promises at this state.
And as far as you all know me, I am someone who never wants to ma fan anyone at all, because it is just too annoying.
To the stalker, I will make you pay for what you've done to mine and my friends' lives!
I will not be soft-hearted and care about your future anymore- should you brainlessly repeat your action again.
This is what I pledge!
But by someone known to me, that is something new, and something really frightening, depressing and made me full of hatred at the same time. I even noticed that my sense of the environment changes had diminished. I no longer enjoy the flowers on the trees, the chirpings of the birds, and the music of the rain.
No, it's not the same as stalking blogs. it's absolutely very, very different, okay?
Does it make any sense at all, to get this type of life? Being emotionally tortured is something far worse than pain inflicted physically. Or that is what I'm thinking.
They say, life is always full of ups and downs; and therefore, I always take bad experiences as lessons.
I've always believd that things happen for a reason.
But never have I imagined myself being stalked so badly that it emotionally drained my life in everything. It drains so much, even at this much mature age of mine.
I finally cried so badly today. Very badly. Yes I admit here, despite my ego-ness. It wasn't intended at all, but I do worry that I will succumb to depression.
And this is also when I learn, the freedom of life is something we have always taken for granted.
Something so priceless, and yet, takes so much for granted. So much the same as someone able-bodied to become someone disabled. or someone that is sick from a healthy state.
I am thankful with many wonderful friends that worries about me- it's very sweet of them, especially when I am in such a dire state. But, I really can't rely on you all always and become a liability. And I really don't want your sympathy, I only require solutions from brainstormings. Three people asked to accompany back home today. So sweet. Thank you very much. I really appreciate you guys so much. *hugssss*
But I turned down your help, because I really needed time to be alone to reflect and regain energy again.
I even FFK one at the very last minute.
Sigh, so abnormal of me; someone who hardly FFK people because promises must always be kept. But I can't be bothered about keeping promises at this state.
And as far as you all know me, I am someone who never wants to ma fan anyone at all, because it is just too annoying.
To the stalker, I will make you pay for what you've done to mine and my friends' lives!
I will not be soft-hearted and care about your future anymore- should you brainlessly repeat your action again.
This is what I pledge!
Monday, February 1, 2010
Gonna get sick!! TCM way of relieving sickness..刮 Gua1 aka scrape
Fyi, TCM = traditional Chinese Medicine..
I've never been sick for almost 1 n 1/2 year I think, since the complimentary flu jab that I got when working as a RA in my previous department before I came here.. Which made me strongly believe that flu jabs are really really effective!! :P
My pretty senior offered to massage my throat..she's a Traditional Chinese doctor who had just graduated here and currently working in my lab.. what happened was she massaged with her two fingers (sort of like pinching the area that I feel sick).
That's why when, for example, your shoulder is in pain, a skin scraper is used together with some massage oil to massage that part. Have to scrap quite hard one lehh..
Hopefully will get well soon before CNY!!
So long~
I've never been sick for almost 1 n 1/2 year I think, since the complimentary flu jab that I got when working as a RA in my previous department before I came here.. Which made me strongly believe that flu jabs are really really effective!! :P
In fact, I've been hoping to never fall sick during my first year here, because of the busy schedules and I was afraid of scoring badly especially when near CAs (continual assessments- like exams) and finals. I am very grateful for not falling sick at all too :) At least the moments are over..now can get sick laa.. (you must be thinking "whATttt?? ThiS cRazYY gal!!"
I was afraid of getting sick because I've had bad experiences in falling sick during examinations..really suffering and bad for the grades too ..Anyway, I started to feel sick after today's lab meeting; my throats were dry, and could feel like getting a runny nose. I wonder how much I understand myself too- because 2 weeks ago I already told one of my seniors that I'll probably get sick soon. Haih..If all my intuitions are that sharp.. Anyway, this is sad because now is so so near to Chinese New Year!! *sobs.
Hopefully will be okay soon or otherwise... will cry man with those food cravings and I can't eat!
In fact, this type of massage (called Gua1 刮- don't know correct word or not, think yes, if not please tell me:P) works well for any part of the body, whichever place that you feel sick and not comfortable. And once it's pinched/ massaged repeatedly, the problematic area will show inflammation, showing signs that the particular area is problematic. And after inflammation, it will get well again.
It looks like this now!! Means problematic! >.<
That's why when, for example, your shoulder is in pain, a skin scraper is used together with some massage oil to massage that part. Have to scrap quite hard one lehh..
We did a case-control study because another labmate was there (Hehe!, knowing that both of us doubt the effectiveness of this treatment :P)..so my senior did the same pinching for him. In fact I didn't really believe that only problematic areas will show inflammations like this, because the pinchings weren't that soft. It was pretty, hmmm, slightly painful.. Coincidentally, that labmate also mentioned about what was going through in my mind- doubting the effectiveness of this treatment.
Suprisingly, it's truee laaa! That healthy guy only got some pinkish skin but mine was like- with 'punctuates'! (One of the things that we observe in the lab and looks like small holes in cells, either stained or not stained) It looked like areas with small red dots all over the pinching site..He has none except for the pinkish skin!!
Hopefully will get well soon before CNY!!
So long~
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Puffy eyes
I looked like someone whom had cried for weeks (and NON-STOP-type of crying) yesterday morning..
Today was..WORST!!!
Can't believe that I have allergy reaction to my favorite food that I've been eating all my life!!
Food poisoning would be more appropriate..I guess
Was so worried that I couldn't open my eyes to view the test paper.
Luckily I managed to survive that 'ordeal'..
Aii..
Hopefully tomorrow would be a better day..
Better listen to some nice songs and watch few series of dramas..
After all..no more tests at the meantime!
^.^
Been hooked to this old song recently
Today was..WORST!!!
Can't believe that I have allergy reaction to my favorite food that I've been eating all my life!!
Food poisoning would be more appropriate..I guess
Was so worried that I couldn't open my eyes to view the test paper.
Luckily I managed to survive that 'ordeal'..
Aii..
Hopefully tomorrow would be a better day..
Better listen to some nice songs and watch few series of dramas..
After all..no more tests at the meantime!
^.^
Been hooked to this old song recently
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Osteoporosis
Please take more calcium and magnesium. When you take calcium, the magnesium element should be present.
For more information, please read this.
However, calcium supplements should be taken into care because a high dose can lead to kidney stones.
After what had happened to my grandma, I think it's time for serious thoughts on taking more calcium in our body.
It's not something that we can take for granted, especially to women. And it just happens. No warnings. No symptoms.
Only post-symptoms with great pain.
And she will be bedridden completely.
These sufferings are ridiculous.
Why do sufferings take place?
Why??
For more information, please read this.
However, calcium supplements should be taken into care because a high dose can lead to kidney stones.
After what had happened to my grandma, I think it's time for serious thoughts on taking more calcium in our body.
It's not something that we can take for granted, especially to women. And it just happens. No warnings. No symptoms.
Only post-symptoms with great pain.
And she will be bedridden completely.
These sufferings are ridiculous.
Why do sufferings take place?
Why??
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
A day to think over
Tomorrow is Hari Raya Aidilfitri, a celebration celebrated by Muslims after fasting for a month. In fact, the fasting season is a unique season. One can see the reduction of customers in many 'Mamak' stalls and shops, Malay restaurants would close at this time and none of the Muslims will turn up in any restaurants.
This is the month also where you can see 'Pasar Ramadhan', or evening markets where various food and drinks are sold. Really, there are a variety of delicious food around. In fact, I've been advised before that on the first day of this 'Pasar Ramadhan', I should not be buying any food of these stalls because when they are fasting, they wouldn't be able to determine correctly the amount of sugar or salt or whatever ingredients added to make up the food. Neh..as time goes by, if they are good chefs, they would definitely know how much sugar or salt should be added in- thus, it'll not be THAT bad=P, right?
Anyway, today's is the last day for the fasting day and tomorrow would be the celebrations!! I am looking forward to open houses and all, but (*tsk tsk sob sob, I'm coughing and been sick for a week ady!!) haih!!
My sickness is due to infection in upper respiratory tract and also in lower respiratory tract. I am seriously irritated with my coughs and I have a feeling that my cough expectorant is not working at all. What's worse, the preservative of sodium benzoate is quite high (if I'm not mistaken, it is 0.1% v/w). Imagine how much you have consumed if you are taking 10 ml, 3 times a day for 2 weeks? Poisoned... *sob sob*
I have to control my food consumption- cannot be taking too sweet or too spicy food, nor items that are labelled as 'heaty' or oily food. Well, fried food, baked food and any food in deep hot oil are considered heaty- according to older generations.
That's bad, isn't it? That means, in short- I'll be eating tasteless food. *sigh*
Okay, back to my title. I am getting out of topic. *winks*
As the celebrations mood is around, and no one literally is in my office (yes- it's empty!!) I am also in the holiday mood right now. LOL.
So, I am going to pass on my working day less hectic as my previous days- today is a work+ moderate music+internet (a day that I've never had before this).
This is also a day for me to think over my past, what I should do with my future and steps to achieve it. A day for me to think thrice on my relationship with others. Well, a day to do anything that I can think of.
Okay, back to work and music.
This is the month also where you can see 'Pasar Ramadhan', or evening markets where various food and drinks are sold. Really, there are a variety of delicious food around. In fact, I've been advised before that on the first day of this 'Pasar Ramadhan', I should not be buying any food of these stalls because when they are fasting, they wouldn't be able to determine correctly the amount of sugar or salt or whatever ingredients added to make up the food. Neh..as time goes by, if they are good chefs, they would definitely know how much sugar or salt should be added in- thus, it'll not be THAT bad=P, right?
Anyway, today's is the last day for the fasting day and tomorrow would be the celebrations!! I am looking forward to open houses and all, but (*tsk tsk sob sob, I'm coughing and been sick for a week ady!!) haih!!
My sickness is due to infection in upper respiratory tract and also in lower respiratory tract. I am seriously irritated with my coughs and I have a feeling that my cough expectorant is not working at all. What's worse, the preservative of sodium benzoate is quite high (if I'm not mistaken, it is 0.1% v/w). Imagine how much you have consumed if you are taking 10 ml, 3 times a day for 2 weeks? Poisoned... *sob sob*
I have to control my food consumption- cannot be taking too sweet or too spicy food, nor items that are labelled as 'heaty' or oily food. Well, fried food, baked food and any food in deep hot oil are considered heaty- according to older generations.
That's bad, isn't it? That means, in short- I'll be eating tasteless food. *sigh*
Okay, back to my title. I am getting out of topic. *winks*
As the celebrations mood is around, and no one literally is in my office (yes- it's empty!!) I am also in the holiday mood right now. LOL.
So, I am going to pass on my working day less hectic as my previous days- today is a work+ moderate music+internet (a day that I've never had before this).
This is also a day for me to think over my past, what I should do with my future and steps to achieve it. A day for me to think thrice on my relationship with others. Well, a day to do anything that I can think of.
Okay, back to work and music.
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