Practicality of human beings

Today's gonna be quite a negative post to convey my negative feeling...
Someone is leaving.. And the person that seemed closest to this person seemed to be so reluctant in sharing the farewell gift..=.=
While some of the rest also seemed cant be bothered..
Somehow I think they're so so so practical that I really, really felt disappointed
Sigh..
Is this the culture of people these days?
I felt so bad that I realised I probably can't survive in such a harsh world..
I guess I'm more emotions-feelings-type-of-person..
But I really don't want to change to become like that..
Is money so important until....?
And another one is, I should have just chosen the cheaper gift (which I think is more suitable/appropriate and budget suitable for the students-I was thinking of a good quality formal jacket) than to accept the other person's idea (and yet now seemed a bit reluctant too after realizing have to pay for other things ie meal and k-ok) to prevent this practicality issue
I really bu shuang...
If I buy an expensive gift for this person from myself is rather easier than to spend practically whole day for the gift sharing.. Just to zzzzz...with such an emotion
I haven't even complained that the mall was so crowded until I have to go to some waiting area for ships to depart to sit there for an hour..
Sigh
Feel like making the wrong decision.. Voluntarily.. And now regret sigh

The world's not all about money and money only ah! Sober man...sigh
Sick of it..

Miss my beloved loyal doggie...so so much

Puzzlessss slowly into pieces :)

As now things seemed to go on slower than previous days/months/years.... I stared at this pc screen of mine and wondering how should I convey my feelings for today..

Had a deep discussion with my Prof..
crossing)
And I'm really, really thankful for having to have met him..
Right up from day one before the interview for the scholarship..to the scholarship application..and how fast time flies...
until now..
(paiseh sounded emo eh?)
just, kinda really thankful :)
The chances that he gives..the good days...the training...the push..the motivation..
The supports...

If I'm gonna be in a position like him in future, I will do the same!
But, even if I'm not, I will pass on the deeds :)

In fact, this deep discussion have finally gave me more, ample time that I've ever needed previously..to re-plan my life..to plan my future again..

:)

I'm clear with what I want...but I need to work it out..

and I'm happy to say that..things alwayssssssssss become better when mood changes for better... so people, be positive okay!!!

But right now, to keep my words as he had to me..I will finish the promised things:) (own pinkies crossing) heehee..

Hairspray!

Hairspray is in Singapore!!! I'm so tempted to watch despite after watching the youtube version for 2h... =.=" sigh
Must turn off this fetish leh...but...  let's see it will go off in few days' time

Reallyyyyy tempted to watch right now! Wondering if I should get the tickets??

The link is here
:(

So long~

NUS commencement 2013

It was an unexpected surprise for most of everything after the official ceremony...

well, it was initially a formal one until I heard the Prof chairperson announcing '...-KAI'...urrghhh
and so my expression turned suddenly from :\ (coz scared of falling on stage) to :S (after the mis-pronunciation) and then I just can't be bothered, and so I  turned to this --> :D when I went to receive the scroll..with their cheerings...(else my pic would have a pale-faced one)

I think I'm the only one with cheerings (shy nya!) besides the last graduate recepient (because everyone was so bored to wait for the ceremony to finish!)

These friends of mine actually insisted shouting despite my reluctance, because who knows, I might fall further with sudden cheerings, right?

Actually the main reason I told them not to cheer was because: the hall is a very quiet, formal hall. boring type (full stop)

What they replied was: we will cheer louder and take more picture if you did fall!
shheeshhhhh >.<

And because this prata-hat looks like a witch's hat...they came up with all sorts of idea from stealing a stalk of plants that were used as a decor on the table to make a wand...to the final creative idea of combining two black straws to make a nice wand!

Finally, the battle of commencing this year came true!! :') Now, what's next?

Anyway, congratulations to the batch of 2013 Commencement graduates!!
:D

Kinda touched with their presence :')
Guess it's gonna be a journey to be forever and ever, remembered....

Quarter-life-crisis

After reading this 'feeling-so-true' article here, I don't know what else should I say here...

Well, I guess I'm falling right behind track too..after all the series of happy and unhappy events that had taken place since months back.


Well, as usual, life's got to have ups and downs.. or there won't be a proper balance right?
I wonder if I've made the correct choice too.. seemed that I'm seeing more of the consequences now..and a hinge of 'regret-fullness' did come by at times..
But on the other hand, it's really a paradox one..

Anyway, the quarter-life-crisis seemed to be an endless one the moment I've finished my thesis though. Indescribable..

:S And me, now, in NUS now, with an unplanned life ahead....

Wish I could lie down on a hugeeee patch of beautiful garden, overlooking the sky while reading my favourite book..
Smelling the fresh grass and flowers scent that fills the air
With pretty butterflies flying and birds chirping..
And have a cuppa of coffee when I'm craving for it
Or even fly a kite somewhere nearby..
With a care-free life..

And yes, life's not a race..I no longer take it as a race after my degree conferment..suddenly, everything seemed to slow down..
Slowing down to the extent that my procrastination seemed to deteriorate
But I can't be bothered :P
CBB~ (can't be bothered~ something that I always use to text my friends, sort of my fave acronym)

I even look forward to having own time in the library to surf the net and read science-unrelated things while listening to my fave concerto no 1 in E minor op11...or other classics..over and over again..
I've cancelled most of my this week's weekend plans for this moment...and sigh :S got fired by few friends for breaking promises..
Got one even thought too much for my weirdness..and thought if I was hurt in some ways that I broke my promise of going out/ or resent going out..
Somehow, I seemed to be less sensitive eh...(feel bad and regretted too)

Oh well, I really, really need some own time to do my own things as I watch life passing by..

Finally, I understand on why some working people have the so-called 'dreams' or intentions to get a cup of coffee in some cafe and watch people walking by, especially in the early mornings when they're rushing to work
Urrghh... =="
And I'm feeling that myself..though uncertainties are so strong..

Gotta finish 3 things by today but it's almost 7pm... Well done to myself =.= (the sarcastic me!)

So long~

Comma point of life

Have you ever been in a state where you just stay at a full-stop point?
And don't know what else to do?

Well, I'm having this feeling- something that everyone would feel once they've graduated or near to graduation (or so I think).

It's something like, urm... we keep running until we've passed the marathon line; and then, we cheer, smiled, cried, and then- an emotionless feeling returns.

What's next?

Well, that's what I'm feeling exactly..

And so, when we're at this point, we need to open another new chapter in the book, and start writing something down..

To have plans, and then to pursue it..

I'm thinking still.. and I'll come up with something soon, I hope :)

And so, I would like to say, I'm in a comma mode now..

So long~

When you've decided not to live for others more than for yourself..

The recent language-speaking phenomenon in our place had further strike more weird feeling-ness
and I've decided not to be supportive..because I'm so irritated with it
Try to stand in my shoes too...
Anyway, I think that's not practical enough anyway...

On the other hand, I've also complained to people who would probably be taking me for granted due to 'free resources'...

Helping is fine..but helping and feeling dumb at the same time or feeling unfairly treated- hmmm..that's not my way at all

When the line is stepped/ crossed over, that's way too :S

I know there's no fairness and justice always......
But I strive to maintain mine..

Because when we asked for people's help, we're also trying to prevent the supports to go futile
and not to waste that person's energy, time, etc, or even the feelings...

Well, there are cases when the person who asks for help doesn't even bother on all these because they just can't be bothered, except for themselves..
This is when I classify these people as selfish...

And I start to think of mine too, and that's when I've decided to live for myself more than for others too...

so long~