looking at my just-previous blog made me subconsciously smile, but with bitter feelings too
*admitting
hmmmm...:P
actually, i realised that it ain't as simple loh..i was just about to running + enjoying the view along the way, but suddenly got stopped by strangers asking me not to indulge in the flowers anymore because the land is going to be re-developed- means no more flowers/tress/passers-by walking-the-dogs/etc
in fact, the sentence mentioned above is just a statement and an irrelevant example that i could think of to convey my current feelings
and life
#meansidontmeantherealthinghere
so so confused at the moment
the choice that i currently-in-the-midst-of-making....so terrible?
i never doubted my choice/ path all along
though i care a lot on what they tell me
but asking me to go against my own will
is something that i doubt i wanna do at this age, anymore
so many choices/ opinions given earlier didn't benefit me
but i really don't know why i care so much on their opinion at the moment
when my feelings' telling me it's supposed to be right and they don't know the real situation
bla bla bla
#imblabbingagain
=.="
in fact, i'm disappointed with myself too...
but it's ever fair to compare, right? so why? all my life i'm never into comparing because i know every individual is different
i want to go against their will!!
oops
i'm actually having writer's block so reach here to babble a while
tata
