And so, the stalker has veryyyyyy thick elephant skin as what my mom says...
It was 2 messages last week
today early morning at 1.38 am, another email that says gratitude + a pdf containing the pictures of the notes that I have left to correct st*pid behaviour for work and those that I CBB to mention face-to-face from early this year in the workplace..
The psycho person actually took pictures of all these and put in the ppt pictures..for so many months!!!!
I reli, reli, reli can't understand why is it still going on??!!
What I have learned is:
A weird/stalker behaviour of 'constantly harassing' belongs to someone who is extremely selfish, no compassion, rigid and stubborn.
I do not know if these are true, just my two cents.
I've in fact, spoken to some people (close friends usually) and few admitted that they did this when they broke up, years ago, but not at this 30-ish age.
One that knows the stalker closely said, he has an innocent mind.
I was like..@@ is that innocence OR selfish??
I also updated my close friends of the chronological events, in case something is bound to happen *sobs*
Reminds me of those sending weird parcels to house etc..(those thrillers that I used to watch a lot)
But the CBB mode is somehow quite going on especially with the workload that I have before my holiday..
SIGH..
So long..
Sunday, August 17, 2014
Saturday, August 16, 2014
No wonder the education level goes more faster to the drain...
I really wonder what will happen in 20-30 years time
The education system is going down, and the leaders are not even bothered because of own well-being, and not for the future generations
They blame these elites to leave the country, but they didn't realise that the unfairness is getting worse
If these students stayed on, the future generations will benefit from them as they are really capable
Now this give chances to these elites to leave the country, and this is not the only case. It has been ongoing for many, many years..even when I was very, very young..
The entire system is really a crap!
Such a shame and disgrace to the education system, fairness and equality
http://www.kinitv.com/video/9709O8
STPM top scorer applies to study medicine, offered nursing
A STPM top scorer who applied to nine different local universities to pursue medicine and dentistry was only offered a nursing course by one university.
For your info, STPM is much harder than matrikulasi..!!
The education system is going down, and the leaders are not even bothered because of own well-being, and not for the future generations
They blame these elites to leave the country, but they didn't realise that the unfairness is getting worse
If these students stayed on, the future generations will benefit from them as they are really capable
Now this give chances to these elites to leave the country, and this is not the only case. It has been ongoing for many, many years..even when I was very, very young..
The entire system is really a crap!
Such a shame and disgrace to the education system, fairness and equality
http://www.kinitv.com/video/9709O8
STPM top scorer applies to study medicine, offered nursing
A STPM top scorer who applied to nine different local universities to pursue medicine and dentistry was only offered a nursing course by one university.
For your info, STPM is much harder than matrikulasi..!!
Tuesday, August 12, 2014
Sobs...RIP Robin Williams
My fave show with him was numerous, and one really unforgettable is the "Dead Poet Society...
Candle image was googled so picture rights remain to the image's owner.
RIP Robin Williams....
Today, I was surprised that I was thought of when discussion is needed for that person's future project:) too bad la...things happen for a reason right....
And today, my junior helped to sit opposite me during lunch as one knows why I was so reluctant to join them for lunch..
Bad and good day.. 50-50
Subtle harassment is still ongoing...growing hatred but at the same time, CBB mood is turned on too..
As for the lab meeting, my boss was very 'face giving', asking me if he should disclose it and he didn't...hehe
List of eventful events though was initially shocked and saddened with the loss of Robin Williams..
My blog today is really *no face see* but I'm also not entirely in the blogging mood. Just to leave a short note..
So long..
Sunday, August 3, 2014
A reminder post to myself in future: Being elderly
Lessons of life as you grow riper than before:
1. You must not grow to be more stubborn. Listen to advices.
- Do you remember how often you asked Aunt Joyce to stop taking cold, sweet Pokka green tea? A sip is still hazardous. Do you remember how many continuous hours of sleep she had after she took one-two sips only? Do you remember the NOTES that you left on her fridge?? God doesn't help those that don't help themselves??
2. You must continuously be happy.
- Yes, I know it's hard to be happy always, but be positive and be motivated! If you want to die, please don't bring troubles to others. Be happy, and everyone around you would be much happier.
3. You must know how to take care of yourself, and of others by this age.
- People say when we grow older, we become more childish, or was it- can't be bothered actually? (P/S: I wish I am able to do some research on this! =.=" oh well, neurology is definitely not my field!) If you want to bring less troubles to people, learn to take good care of yourself.
4. Go to the homes, if you think you should. You will not die so fast if you're continuously happy over at the homes, should you be there one day. Don't argue with everyone saying you're capable.
- Do I need to say more? I hope you're not having dementia by then and don't remember these! There's no such thing as leaving the homes only one says goodbye. It's not a jail, really. it may look like one, but it isn't at all. Going there is better than staying at home. It worries other people, such as me who is more busybody than anyone else.
5. Give more, and give without receiving is the greatest happiness of all. Forgive everyone.
- Life may be tough, but trust me, you'd be as happy as the dogs that you've seen in NANAS Singapore in Johor that you went earlier yesterday, rolling over the horses' kennels and irritating the horses to the point that *grin*, the horses had to stomp their feet and whined to complain or sigh loudly!
- There'll be relatives that forget you and can't forgive of what you've done in the past (of the scary stories that I heard earlier and don't know if it is ever validated) and if that happens, plan for your own future! (Sigh, I hope mine is never like that in future; leaving the tenant hopeless to find for help if something worse is bound to happen again) Forgive everyone and don't remember the bad things only.
But of all these points, I've realised that my threshold have reached. I can't be responsible for bigger events anymore as it really scares me, as I know her relatives are hopeless. My mom told me to do more charity as she said it's better than doing any other charity. I agree with her, but at the same time, I also know my limits and capabilities as well.
To be truth, I do without expectations (that's why I enjoyed myself tremendously in SPCA though I am a bit afraid of big, wild dogs despite my fondness for dogs: urgh); but for someone like her whom I hold no authority at all...it is a truly terrifying and tiring experience for me. I at least expect her relatives to be alert and care for her more (Well, I really insulted some of her relatives because they asked really brainless questions like: "Must she really be sent to the hospital?";"Was it really serious?""Oh, I can't see her tomorrow" (End-to-end, hospitalization is all about money and they were being practically cautious to stay away from all sorts of troubles or money matters, and probably they hope that one is not told at all or do not know anything on these at all) --> Selfish people='(
Say I'm timid, but really, I'll just do my best before leaving. Post-leaving this comfy rented room, I hope to hear better news but feelings negatively say so.
It's also entirely different from a case whereby: if something is bound to happen, and I will have the urge to straight contact her who-and-who immediately because I know they're RELIABLE and not selfish, cold-blooded, brainless or money-minded in any way. You know, when she was sent to the A & E, I actually can't be bothered to tell her sister at all despite my mom keep telling me to inform her at that moment; because I know it's plain hopeless. I did anyway and only to mentally vomit blood later with her response (Yes I am hot-tempered when it comes to things that I can't see go through fairly or well).
If they supported me thoroughly, I wouldn't be so depress when dealing with these. Well, things always happen for a reason. And this brings me to another last-but-not-least-lesson-of-the-day:
6. Things really happen for a reason. Always bear this in mind!
- On the surface, things may look really ugly but there's always a glitter of positivity when a negative issue surfaces.
- Coincidentally, all these re-surfacing problems are telling me now that despite feeling so tired with all these (plus the seem-so-far-to-end-workload before I see the real sunrise), it's also a point to know that I should move on to a better place. Every single close friend that are aware of my current life had told me these for sometime but I was just too lazy or probably, too comfy to be more hardworking to do this :| (Yes, blame myself for my procrastination!)
I really hope to find own home by now but sadly, I'm incapable to do so at this moment (BIG SIGH!). Well, it's just not time yet. Be patient gal!!
Anyway, remember these hard lessons, please!
So long~
1. You must not grow to be more stubborn. Listen to advices.
- Do you remember how often you asked Aunt Joyce to stop taking cold, sweet Pokka green tea? A sip is still hazardous. Do you remember how many continuous hours of sleep she had after she took one-two sips only? Do you remember the NOTES that you left on her fridge?? God doesn't help those that don't help themselves??
2. You must continuously be happy.
- Yes, I know it's hard to be happy always, but be positive and be motivated! If you want to die, please don't bring troubles to others. Be happy, and everyone around you would be much happier.
3. You must know how to take care of yourself, and of others by this age.
- People say when we grow older, we become more childish, or was it- can't be bothered actually? (P/S: I wish I am able to do some research on this! =.=" oh well, neurology is definitely not my field!) If you want to bring less troubles to people, learn to take good care of yourself.
4. Go to the homes, if you think you should. You will not die so fast if you're continuously happy over at the homes, should you be there one day. Don't argue with everyone saying you're capable.
- Do I need to say more? I hope you're not having dementia by then and don't remember these! There's no such thing as leaving the homes only one says goodbye. It's not a jail, really. it may look like one, but it isn't at all. Going there is better than staying at home. It worries other people, such as me who is more busybody than anyone else.
5. Give more, and give without receiving is the greatest happiness of all. Forgive everyone.
- Life may be tough, but trust me, you'd be as happy as the dogs that you've seen in NANAS Singapore in Johor that you went earlier yesterday, rolling over the horses' kennels and irritating the horses to the point that *grin*, the horses had to stomp their feet and whined to complain or sigh loudly!
- There'll be relatives that forget you and can't forgive of what you've done in the past (of the scary stories that I heard earlier and don't know if it is ever validated) and if that happens, plan for your own future! (Sigh, I hope mine is never like that in future; leaving the tenant hopeless to find for help if something worse is bound to happen again) Forgive everyone and don't remember the bad things only.
But of all these points, I've realised that my threshold have reached. I can't be responsible for bigger events anymore as it really scares me, as I know her relatives are hopeless. My mom told me to do more charity as she said it's better than doing any other charity. I agree with her, but at the same time, I also know my limits and capabilities as well.
To be truth, I do without expectations (that's why I enjoyed myself tremendously in SPCA though I am a bit afraid of big, wild dogs despite my fondness for dogs: urgh); but for someone like her whom I hold no authority at all...it is a truly terrifying and tiring experience for me. I at least expect her relatives to be alert and care for her more (Well, I really insulted some of her relatives because they asked really brainless questions like: "Must she really be sent to the hospital?";"Was it really serious?""Oh, I can't see her tomorrow" (End-to-end, hospitalization is all about money and they were being practically cautious to stay away from all sorts of troubles or money matters, and probably they hope that one is not told at all or do not know anything on these at all) --> Selfish people='(
Say I'm timid, but really, I'll just do my best before leaving. Post-leaving this comfy rented room, I hope to hear better news but feelings negatively say so.
It's also entirely different from a case whereby: if something is bound to happen, and I will have the urge to straight contact her who-and-who immediately because I know they're RELIABLE and not selfish, cold-blooded, brainless or money-minded in any way. You know, when she was sent to the A & E, I actually can't be bothered to tell her sister at all despite my mom keep telling me to inform her at that moment; because I know it's plain hopeless. I did anyway and only to mentally vomit blood later with her response (Yes I am hot-tempered when it comes to things that I can't see go through fairly or well).
If they supported me thoroughly, I wouldn't be so depress when dealing with these. Well, things always happen for a reason. And this brings me to another last-but-not-least-lesson-of-the-day:
6. Things really happen for a reason. Always bear this in mind!
- On the surface, things may look really ugly but there's always a glitter of positivity when a negative issue surfaces.
- Coincidentally, all these re-surfacing problems are telling me now that despite feeling so tired with all these (plus the seem-so-far-to-end-workload before I see the real sunrise), it's also a point to know that I should move on to a better place. Every single close friend that are aware of my current life had told me these for sometime but I was just too lazy or probably, too comfy to be more hardworking to do this :| (Yes, blame myself for my procrastination!)
I really hope to find own home by now but sadly, I'm incapable to do so at this moment (BIG SIGH!). Well, it's just not time yet. Be patient gal!!
Anyway, remember these hard lessons, please!
So long~
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