Flashbacks

I used to be the one wishing the opposite party on special occasions. Now it is the bounce back. Surprised but..

I wouldn't really want to think much; but I would never want to contact my past and  offer help because it would be really hurtful to do so; unless I have plans to reconcile.

That said, meaning: I do not have the guts nor interests in becoming very friends again with my past. 

Maybe I haven't let go still? (That is worst case scenario) *urgh*

Well, unfortunately, the opposite had happened to my past.

On an unrelated story, I understand that some actions need a lot of guts.. But soulmates? (Oh just saw a confession of a girl who had confessed to a guy because she felt right)

I would still be traditional: the guy should make the first move. If he's not daring enough to even make the first move, how to rely on him for future decisions..zzz =.=

My ego is really high huh? Truly admit this =.=

Anyway, merry Xmas and happy new year! Let past be bygones~ 

A new exciting avenue is coming soon, I hope ( sometimes I feel so tired with disappointed excitements nowadays) :/

So long~ 

Winter solstice festival

I was initially planning to catch a last minute train or bus ride home to surprise my parents in due time to celebrate this dongzhi festival.. But my current flu problem had made me stay over here to rest :S

Since my fave dessert shop is also not very near to my current staying place, I had decided to skip my tradition of having rice balls this year.. Until my spontaneous cravings told me that I should walk to a nearby mall to buy and cook myself..

So ta daaaaaaa~~~|

Can't buy 1/2 peanut and 1/2 black sesame (what I do if I buy cooked one from my fave dessert shop) so have to buy entire packet with black sesame only..

And only to realise that:

A packet of grounded peanut was also inside to eat along with the rice ball + soups! Good Hor!:p

Oh, I didn't take the grounded peanut because it was so late and I hate cleaning up more later (the powder may fly in my room) so I decided to finish the rice balls and went to sleep.

Mission accomplished!!:D

Btw, winter Soltice is an astronomical day with the longest night of the year and has the shortest day period.. Why we have tang yuans? It is to signify the coming new year, an event for family get-togetherness and that, having these means there's an increase of one year old in age.

Chinese New Year is coming soon le!

So long~

Salute to these bikers!

http://kl.coconuts.co/2014/12/05/dbkl-goes-silent-pothole-complaints-biker-group-repairs-roads-kl-themselves

Instead of answering reports that fell to silent ears or can't be bothered notes, they were more hardworking in changing the road signs...and to cause havoc in now and future..

For changing road signs: it's a totally waste of money, causing direction headaches, changes of address worldwide-satellite system, and that someone were robbed and in order to report the affected area/location)

These people 'so hardworkingly' do unnecessary things than to properly do job that actually serve the people...(read: http://www.thestar.com.my/News/Community/2014/11/26/Baffled-over-new-road-names-City-folk-surprised-by-DBKLs-sudden-decision/)

Why always walk backwards than to fly forward ah? *depressing* =.=

Anyway, this is what mismanagement is all about.. zzzzz
So memalukan, as always... sighhhh...

So long~

Frezprit's growth

It's my VFT's name.. Meant to be "free-spirited"; just like the insects that freely being eaten by it:p

Okay I'm not that cruel.. I just named it that hoping that it would be more free-spirited as our lives are often tied to rules or things that we have to do:p

More shoots out hor?:)))

Think I'm going to miss it a lot next year when it's under the care of its 'godfather'.. Hopefully it will grow more and live happily lah:)

I have yet to transfer the baby plant to another pot.. Planning to put it in a nice fishbowl:)

Been packing a lot of things within these few days and threw out the junks; as I didn't organize my things properly during my shifting to this new place.. 

New year~ new life~ new experiences~

:)

So long~

Stamps and childhood

I still remember we siblings used to fight over the loss of our stamps; tears and threatens and breakouts; and even resort to stealing the other party's stamps; or counting the number of stamps when we put these on our table just to enjoy it (show off).

Funniest part was when those aunties and uncles saw us collecting these and kind-heatedly gave us one bag of envelopes that they have collected in their office; and in an attempt to divide fairly among ourselves (which is rarely possible as we were selective on the stamps that we want); eventually --> fights ensued.

How innocent were lives back then hor?

I showed this picture in our family chat room; and all the memories flooded back..

I have plenty of time this month to do this.. December is resting time lol..

And will be re-organizing my stamps here during my free time.. Lol

So long~

My Venus flytrap has babies!!

Got this Venus flytrap (VFT) as a birthday pressie last month; and another friend gave me a pretty 'colonial' style vase to accompany it. 

In which, coincidentally, I saw the same vase in a colonial hotel that we were staying for our chiangmai trip:p

Really pretty right? I have named it as Frezprit.. Heehee

This was the classic vase (left, in my room now) and the right one was seen in a colonial-like hotel:)

I didn't use the case for this plant btw.. 

Now, my VFT is about two months old (and don't look that pretty le). As I was doing mini gardening this morning to remove the black leaves, I found this... Tadaaaaa~

Baby VFT!!! :D sooo happy! I have in fact, watered it with boiled water as Sg water is low in Total dissolved solid (TDS) but after reading it yesterday, I realised that the TDS of tap water here is still higher than 50. *sigh*

Sometimes I use filtered water to water it and the forums that I went through yesterday says that--> inappropriate..

The best water is in fact, rain water; reverse osmosis water or distilled water (those that are entirely free of minerals and nutrients); as minerals can kill the plant. That explains why sphagnum moss with peat is used to culture VFT as it has high water retention and low nutrients availability.

Hence, I went to collect an approximate 500ml of rainwater just only because it was raining heavily:p

First time collecting rainwater and found that it has lotsa particles in it..:/

I remembered back in my kiddie days, my dad would be happily placing pots of flowers under the rain. Made me laugh so much when I see that. Now I know why...

And also,..

*shake head* my new obsession... *urgh*

I finally know how to propagate it too as I was only reading about it yesterday..:)

Hopefully it can go through without dormancy... 

So long~

P/s: I have a plant in school that ages same as my graduate years.. That was a mint plant that was cultured from terrarium; and from a leaf only.. Though I miss it, I have yet to transfer it to home because landlady may not be happy.. Sigh.. Talk about living in homes that do not belong to ourselves :/ 

Be patient!

Hello..

The lesson for today:

BE PATIENT!!! These kinds of culture do happen, not what you had expected to have one side only. Really an inexperienced person (sigh! talking about myself and blabbing here paiseh)
How come so irrational today ah? :(
Please weigh PROs and CONs first =.= (I did, but insufficient)
Probably because of that fiery message I sent to someone in the morning for not keeping promises..

So desperate meh?? Oh well, it's something to remember in years to come but I really can't afford any mistakes to be taken as experiences at the moment... I wasn't always in this situation because I am quite a patient person, but today's (JUST ONLY) occasion would be labelled not as pro-active, but rather as desperate lorrrr...

Hopefully didn't get minus mark :/

I should take it as 'die die lah' as I had been in this mode for a long time since my graduation. Maybe because of mood changes ah? Haihz...no reasons can substitute my erm, over-reaction for today =.="




Picture credits and thank you

So long~

Chiang Rai, Thailand Snack Shop that you should NOT go and buy; A visit to Chiang Mai

Thongsuen and Pattaravadae Co. Ltd

68 Moo 5 Wiang Pa Pao, Chiang Rai 57170

PLEASE DON'T VISIT THIS SHOP!!!!

This was the shop that we bought some snacks such as the following..

And she found tiny black insects in one of it that she thrown off so fast for getting so disgusted..

All the packets of nuts that my aunt bought were with a weird smell :'(

How could these people sell such goods?!!!

Worst, it can cost liver damage and lives from food poisoning!!!

At Mae Hong Son, there was a lady that sells avocado that cut the fruits in front of us. However, both cut avocado were oxidized (turned bad) and she was so embarrassed. I felt warmth with her honesty actually.... ... But this snack shop is really bad =,= 

We bought some very fresh nuts in the Warorot Market, which has many artpieces at the basement shop and is known to have better quality souvenirs. The nuts were labelled with 'AAA' markings and were even fresher than the morning local market that we went when we wanted to buy offerings for monks. This market is within walking distance from the Night Bazaar. Some magnet souvenirs were hand drawn so well!

Won't be blogging much on this trip but just as a precaution for you guys, please DO NOT visit this Chiang Rai snack shop. Thank you.

So long..

Finding solitude in drawing..

While searching for holiday mood +

solitude, I ended up polishing my drawing skills (procrastinated since ages ago =.=)

Well, we're supposed to squeeze the lemon juice out if life treats us as sour as lemon.

I was reading on some law and regulation  matters regarding to workforce stuffs yesterday night and realised that things seemed darker than it had seemed actually.. Ignorance is a bliss Hor :/ (bluff myself for few weeks =.=)

Now, what should I say? Squeeze lemon juice, make a lemonade and look at the bright side *pat pat

Maybe things won't be this bad leh? (Still bluffing myself.. No thanks)

I always prepare myself in the worse case scenario; don't know why I have such a lousy habit but usually that's how I prepare myself. Probably coz can't rely on anyone to help me a lot ba...

I guess that I also learned a lot these few months. What a funny experience lor; thought things would be better drastically (oh well, actually it did because I have more time to settle own things)

Less harassments (pity my friend that got harassed because of me)..

On the other side, more time means more me-time, reflections; back to square 1 but happy on one side; and uncertainties on the other side

Lessons:

1. Please do homework more carefully and no more relying on word of mouth or friends only (tough lesson for me lorrrr)

2. When we don't have hope, we'd have less disappointments (or

perhaps none). But stay motivated on the correct track because every passing minute cannot be refunded anymore.

3. No point regretting what has been done. Forget the past and fear not for the future (something that I got from watching the recent drama series on correctional behavior also). Meaningful:)

4. Be rational and keep calm. Things will happen in due course (as if fated lah); because rush rush also in the end is like that *urgh* or even worse/negatively unexpected..

Btw, we change when we meet the love of our life --> for better; I never changed much leh.. But I think over the years, I =.= ; I have surrounding friends that have changed because of me. This, adds me to another misery (a recent encounter). Probably because I was too ignorant all along due to busy, roller coaster life... *urgh

Kind of irritated actually :((

On the other hand, because I was relying on some people's help (you know la when desperate); things went worse. All were victimized. To put it safely, no win-win situation but more learning lessons. Time to get back on the feet after all the nightmares le...

Ganbatte!!!

P/s: the Madame Solittude is some manga series character.. Not sure if it's really misspelled that way.. Cbb :p

So long~

Thought the bad things have ended...

First of all, this is going to be a pretty negative post..

Thought all bad things have ended and will see triple rainbow, only to realise that I'm caught in another act of disappointment..

And seemed that the events that had happened are prolonged and not those short, crash courses during my graduate studies..

I still get harassed by stalkr through messages (which apparently I have finally changed the number and did not inform the rest of the related-circle on the number change, even the close lab members because letting them know would only cause them to tell lies)..
Although the messages sounded kind "ie if you need my help, please do not hesitate to find me" bla bla...
I showed the message to one my the lab members and the answer was "doesn't sound harmful"
To me, I also CBB whether you think I'm paranoid or not...
But it just reminds me of those thriller series when the kidnapper wants the one hiding to come out from the hiding place (while trying to run away/escape) and promises security, safety, no harms, etc..

I didn't even tell my ex-boss of the change of number...

Ie: if they know and when that idio* asks, they have to pretend. It's better if they don't know right? I'm still contactable anyway through some accounts that don't need phone number.

I am really glad that I have moved away too..though initially felt like new landlady is very fussy; but sooner I realised that she is understanding in some ways. And provided me some new guidance that I am quite happy at the meantime..


I also realised that some hopes can never be carried on so I chose to let go..

My previous friend contacted me again, to my surprise..Okay, I may think too much and contemplated too, but my ex landlady (which I visited her few days back to see her and get some letters because she had called me twice in 3 weeks to ask how I am) had mentioned this: 好马不吃回头草 when she asked me whether I want to move back or not..*guilty*
Literally speaking, the chinese idiom was used for the wrong meaning...
I told her that I didn't want her to wait and waste her source of income...and it's not a job, it's a room lahh =.=

Anyway, back to the story: although I think that this is overthinking: but 好马不吃回头草 is applicable to jobs and relationships..which reminds me of my past. Anywayyy, no turning back although I was contacted and there were signs/hints (okay okay i overthink~) cannnoooot perasan!

Then I also probably choose to let go of another haunting, prolonged crisis, it just wouldn't work I guess...

Then there is also this job thing that made me superbly disappointed... I thought it could end all the bad things le, but the recent news that I've heard made me...speechless. How could that someone be so no creditability??

Many stories in these recent months, and 2 years..and most of it prolonged, so much terrible than work-till-wee hours-labwork-no-results-days
:/

But on the other hand, kinda thankful with caring friends that wondered whether I'll fly off for work trip or not because I didn't bother to update them anymore after realising all these crisis. 

My another friend said "so dramatic lorr"
I fully agree.... :/

Anyway, I have to hang on, but not very sure of the brighter side anymore...

So long..

Thanks and Picture credits


P/S: Oh well, at least no more midnight-oil burnings! 

Stalker emailed me...urgh

And so, the stalker has veryyyyyy thick elephant skin as what my mom says...

It was 2 messages last week
today early morning at 1.38 am, another email that says gratitude + a pdf containing the pictures of the notes that I have left to correct st*pid behaviour for work and those that I CBB to mention face-to-face from early this year in the workplace..

The psycho person actually took pictures of all these and put in the ppt pictures..for so many months!!!!

I reli, reli, reli can't understand why is it still going on??!!

What I have learned is:

A weird/stalker behaviour of 'constantly harassing' belongs to someone who is extremely selfish, no compassion, rigid and stubborn.

I do not know if these are true, just my two cents.

I've in fact, spoken to some people (close friends usually) and few admitted that they did this when they broke up, years ago, but not at this 30-ish age.
One that knows the stalker closely said, he has an innocent mind.

I was like..@@ is that innocence OR selfish?? 

I also updated my close friends of the chronological events, in case something is bound to happen *sobs*

Reminds me of those sending weird parcels to house etc..(those thrillers that I used to watch a lot)

But the CBB mode is somehow quite going on especially with the workload that I have before my holiday..
SIGH..


So long..

No wonder the education level goes more faster to the drain...

I really wonder what will happen in 20-30 years time
The education system is going down, and the leaders are not even bothered because of own well-being, and not for the future generations
They blame these elites to leave the country, but they didn't realise that the unfairness is getting worse
If these students stayed on, the future generations will benefit from them as they are really capable

Now this give chances to these elites to leave the country, and this is not the only case. It has been ongoing for many, many years..even when I was very, very young..

The entire system is really a crap!

Such a shame and disgrace to the education system, fairness and equality

http://www.kinitv.com/video/9709O8

STPM top scorer applies to study medicine, offered nursing

A STPM top scorer who applied to nine different local universities to pursue medicine and dentistry was only offered a nursing course by one university.


For your info, STPM is much harder than matrikulasi..!!

Sobs...RIP Robin Williams

My fave show with him was numerous, and one really unforgettable is the "Dead Poet Society...

 

Candle image was googled so picture rights remain to the image's owner.

RIP Robin Williams....

Today, I was surprised that I was thought of when discussion is needed for that person's future project:) too bad la...things happen for a reason right....

And today, my junior helped to sit opposite me during lunch as one knows why I was so reluctant to join them for lunch..

Bad and good day.. 50-50

Subtle harassment is still ongoing...growing hatred but at the same time, CBB mood is turned on too..

As for the lab meeting, my boss was very 'face giving', asking me if he should disclose it and he didn't...hehe

List of eventful events though was initially shocked and saddened with the loss of Robin Williams..

My blog today is really *no face see* but I'm also not entirely in the blogging mood. Just to leave a short note..

So long..

A reminder post to myself in future: Being elderly

Lessons of life as you grow riper than before:

1. You must not grow to be more stubborn. Listen to advices.
- Do you remember how often you asked Aunt Joyce to stop taking cold, sweet Pokka green tea? A sip is still hazardous. Do you remember how many continuous hours of sleep she had after she took one-two sips only? Do you remember the NOTES that you left on her fridge?? God doesn't help those that don't help themselves??

2. You must continuously be happy.
- Yes, I know it's hard to be happy always, but be positive and be motivated! If you want to die, please don't bring troubles to others. Be happy, and everyone around you would be much happier.

3. You must know how to take care of yourself, and of others by this age.
- People say when we grow older, we become more childish, or was it- can't be bothered actually? (P/S: I wish I am able to do some research on this! =.=" oh well, neurology is definitely not my field!) If you want to bring less troubles to people, learn to take good care of yourself.

4. Go to the homes, if you think you should. You will not die so fast if you're continuously happy over at the homes, should you be there one day. Don't argue with everyone saying you're capable.
- Do I need to say more? I hope you're not having dementia by then and don't remember these! There's no such thing as leaving the homes only one says goodbye. It's not a jail, really. it may look like one, but it isn't at all. Going there is better than staying at home. It worries other people, such as me who is more busybody than anyone else.

5. Give more, and give without receiving is the greatest happiness of all. Forgive everyone.
- Life may be tough, but trust me, you'd be as happy as the dogs that you've seen in NANAS Singapore in Johor that you went earlier yesterday, rolling over the horses' kennels and irritating the horses to the point that *grin*, the horses had to stomp their feet and whined to complain or sigh loudly!

- There'll be relatives that forget you and can't forgive of what you've done in the past (of the scary stories that I heard earlier and don't know if it is ever validated) and if that happens, plan for your own future! (Sigh, I hope mine is never like that in future; leaving the tenant hopeless to find for help if something worse is bound to happen again) Forgive everyone and don't remember the bad things only.

But of all these points, I've realised that my threshold have reached. I can't be responsible for bigger events anymore as it really scares me, as I know her relatives are hopeless. My mom told me to do more charity as she said it's better than doing any other charity. I agree with her, but at the same time, I also know my limits and capabilities as well.

To be truth, I do without expectations (that's why I enjoyed myself tremendously in SPCA though I am a bit afraid of big, wild dogs despite my fondness for dogs: urgh); but for someone like her whom I hold no authority at all...it is a truly terrifying and tiring experience for me. I at least expect her relatives to be alert and care for her more (Well, I really insulted some of her relatives because they asked really brainless questions like: "Must she really be sent to the hospital?";"Was it really serious?""Oh, I can't see her tomorrow" (End-to-end, hospitalization is all about money and they were being practically cautious to stay away from all sorts of troubles or money matters, and probably they hope that one is not told at all or do not know anything on these at all) --> Selfish people='(

Say I'm timid, but really, I'll just do my best before leaving. Post-leaving this comfy rented room, I hope to hear better news but feelings negatively say so.

It's also entirely different from a case whereby: if something is bound to happen, and I will have the urge to straight contact her who-and-who immediately because I know they're RELIABLE and not selfish, cold-blooded, brainless or money-minded in any way. You know, when she was sent to the A & E, I actually can't be bothered to tell her sister at all despite my mom keep telling me to inform her at that moment; because I know it's plain hopeless. I did anyway and only to mentally vomit blood later with her response (Yes I am hot-tempered when it comes to things that I can't see go through fairly or well).

If they supported me thoroughly, I wouldn't be so depress when dealing with these. Well, things always happen for a reason. And this brings me to another last-but-not-least-lesson-of-the-day:

6. Things really happen for a reason. Always bear this in mind!
- On the surface, things may look really ugly but there's always a glitter of positivity when a negative issue surfaces.
- Coincidentally, all these re-surfacing problems are telling me now that despite feeling so tired with all these (plus the seem-so-far-to-end-workload before I see the real sunrise), it's also a point to know that I should move on to a better place. Every single close friend that are aware of my current life had told me these for sometime but I was just too lazy or probably, too comfy to be more hardworking to do this :| (Yes, blame myself for my procrastination!)

I really hope to find own home by now but sadly, I'm incapable to do so at this moment (BIG SIGH!). Well, it's just not time yet. Be patient gal!!

Anyway, remember these hard lessons, please!

So long~

of blood is thinner than water

People say it is blood that is THICKER than water

What I observe more is the other way round, especially living with a fine example.

I don't mean to poke my nose into people's family affair, but can you understand how do I feel when I don't have the feel to tell even her closest sister that she was hospitalised?

And after telling her, her answers were: Ok let me know if there's any updates and take care.

J.U.S.T.L.I.K.E.T.H.A.T

Then I reached home knowing I have to clean the toilet and her clothes with diarrhoea....because time would help the bacteria to grow more happily if it was not cleaned...

And the toilet will suffer..and so do I

Today morning while I was cleaning up her room from the heavy diarrhea before rushing to my friend's open house (she was really unfit to even bend down), I was telling her that she should go to the homes...

She said it was too expensive..

Then after coming back from the open house at about 6pm today (i brought some food for her also since I have the feel that she won't be able to cook, and probably wont eat)...I saw her head tilted against my room's locked door with clothes half worn on the rattan chair.

My expression was OMG @@"
So, I asked her to go hospital and she said she wants to take a cab.
I looked at her like this =.= and said, who's gonna carry you to the cab?

Then I said I need to call ambulance.
And so the ambulance came.

After reaching home at 9pm, all the phones came non-stop.

First was from her money-minded cousin:
Uncle S: Where is J?
Me: She was hospitalised. Just sent her to the hospital with the ambulance.
Uncle S: Oh
Me: speechless (too moody with J's sister comments thati CBB)
Uncle S: Why hospitalised?
Me: She was very weak lah
Uncle S: Did you inform her sis?
Me: (Am I supposed to cover all these? Not being calculative but I was only thinking, he could have done it and inform her right? Anyway, he has an 'RP' (personality) that i could never be fond of and never respected him) Yes I just told her
Uncle S: Tomoro I may not have time to go see her leh
Me: (bursted) Up to you whether have time or not, you all are her relatives. Anyway, you guys always no time one lah
Me: hang up the phone

Minutes later, phone rings again

Uncle S: Can I know which hospital she went to?
Me: Alexandra
Uncle S: Which ward and bed ah?
Me: I don't know coz I was not informed yet. the registration counter is open and you can ask them one.
Uncle S: Thanks
Me: bye

then minutes later, her old friend called...and said he tried getting her whole day..
I told her she was hopsitalised and said I couldn't access the mailbox. he left something for her.

Then minutes later, he called again asking which hospital again (this is quite old uncle that i didn't feel that angry when responding to him coz he sounded nice) and said his leg is in pain, may not be able to see her. I said, it's okay, got heart can already. Some people don't even have heart what more is time.

Then after that, her cousin's wife called. This time, she asked, what happened, why, and then was it serious?
I was like =.=" if not serious can go hospital one meh? And if don't know the ward, please go and ask at the counter.

haihz

practical people
and all these are rich people leh....
sigh...

my mom was laughing so much to see my insulting comments. too bad lah, i may sound really b**chy but these people don't earn my respect and so I really CBB.

so long~

MH 17:(

It doesn't matter which plane that got downed. What matters most is, how could they just shoot a plane like that??? These are innocent lives.. Why war?? St*pid, selfish ppl, terrorist!!! heartless!!!!

Why people must be at war and cause misery to each other???!

We had a great old friends gathering, and most of us were sad with the fate of MH, keep compensating...and the lives involved on the plane

But we were extremely furious...these are the innocent lives of people, family members flying for vacation, dreaming to see their loved ones for family reunions or festive seasons, and the scientists who would save millions of lives!! 

Even living people like us are furious...I wonder how could they really RIP? :'((

1/2 year has flown by

Yep, the title that says it all.

Ask yourself these:

How much have been done for the past 1/2 year?

How much that is supposed to be accomplished, but you refused/denied/procastinated to do so?

How much that you've anticipated, have been done?

And, how much of resolutions that you have made earlier this year, have been achieved?


Well, can't wait for the time to open up another new chapter of life....;)

so long~

Between comfy and dream

Hallo!

The recent deals had made me contemplated; whether to move on or to stay on in my rented room...

Pros:
1. no more huge masterbedroom and low shared bathroom usage (because landlady has another toilet)
2. cheap rental
3. working place is super convenient and near.
4. some charity satisfaction (give it back to society) coz I don't have to volunteer at elderly homes.... it starts from home all along for many, many years already...and that I only volunteer in animal shelters...

Cons:
1. parents/friends can never stay over; i've always have to rent hotels for parents/ families
2. can't cook; and over the years of eating outside food made me really @@". So sick of eating outside food. And to add on, my skills in cooking had definitely diminished. I'm now even afraid to go mixing food during BBQ time. --> how useless I am hor.... (anyway, the guys usually does it somehow, LOL)
3. not air-conditioned. Discussing these deals with landlady will only cause conflicts....i even feel like renovating my room too coz it feels so, so boring to me now......throw all the old cupboards away; etc...
4. privacy matters. Well, you should be well aware that staying with owners is stable but...zzzz privacy matters so much to me as I am getting aged. I have had privacy conflicts before and she had compromised. else, worse ahhh.....
5. the nearby worshiping place wakes me up at 645am everyday...haihz...and locking windows doesn't help at all...my working hours need not need me to wake up so early ah... :/
6. landlady's health deteriorated so i come home with sometimes, different smells....sigh

wish I have own place to stay!!!

Torn in half ah....

somehow, listing these made me agree more that cons is more than pros...
but for a longer term speaking, the pros may still outweigh cons in terms of $$. The rest? you know it...

so long~

ROS reactive oxygen species; stress and aging

Hallo!

I wasn't planning to tell much on ROS, aging and stress here...but just to share a story on our most recent moment conversation in the lab..

Situation:
Student A has been sleeping very late lately due to paper submission, answering reviewers, writing thesis, preparing presentation and most importantly, to present well in front of panel of potential examiners/future boss..
Student A is having indigestion, sleepless nights, high stress level, and partial failure in anger management

Me: You looked really pale. Go and eat some multivitamins. Do you want my multivitamin? I have it on my table. Your ROS level is definitely very high now...need antioxidants ah....

Student A: Oh no!! *Eyes widening and face near to mine* Do you see any additional wrinkles????

Me: =.=""""""



Okay, to those who don't really get this nerdy joke, my =.=""""" face is due to: ROS level can lead to aging, but not as soon as 2 weeks' sleeps...I think it's more than that. Probably fine lines in 2 weeks, maybe?

Second point, Student A was @@" with me too...talk about ROS linkage to sleepless nights....--->sigh

How can we end up being so 'nerdily' scientific ah??
=.=""


Talk about being labrats huh?

excited with a new avenue!!!

Can't disclose much yet, but super excited and positive feel with this! :D

Finally, a double layer of rainbows~

Picture credits
Can't wait to see if there's a triple one, but double one is already extreme happiness for me:D:D:D

so long~

Happppy eat dumpling day!!!

Picture explains all...

Landlady warmed and removed leaves for me to prevent oiliness on my hands... See, that's why I always get touched :(

Food and heart bribery from her...:/

If you notice the second picture of dumplings (Zhang) carefully, there are three types here: Kee zhang, bak Zhang (pork dumpling) and nyonya Zhang. Kee is the yellow type and plain one, and is auntie landlady's favorite.. She bought for me once and I had to swallow it fast fast coz I don't like it.. 

Nyonya is the sweet type and also not my favorite lol..

And also learned tht different types of leaves are used for these.. Only pandan leaves are for Kee Zhang.. The rest are imported leaves from china, according to auntie landlady..

For the history on why we eat rice dumplings, pls read up yourself... 

P/s: I'm late for work!!

cadbury issues

The recent news on Cadbury chocs tainted with porcine DNA had shocked everyone...

My two cents are:

Instead of finding the source (or perhaps there are but the public is unaware of)... they made it into a =.=" racial issue..

Although I'm not that old to experience multi-cultural people eating in a shop like Sabah because I reside in KL, nevertheless, the mentality of the people other than Peninsular is not like this at all..

It's the tolerance and accepting others' faith that made the people so strong..

Now, the small-brains people made it so absurd by saying things like compensation is not enough (if your blood is already tainted, how much money is also not sufficient..and then, the question goes to...the money goes to who?", should tear off the 'halal' label, 'war' against it...

Aren't we supposed to be open-minded and after all, it wasn't intentionally eaten? Thank goodness that there are also religious groups that are aware of the small-issue-turned-big and trying to correct those with improper thinking ones (ie saying wash blood etc....) --> =.="

I'm sure there exists people who say wash blood etc are not that good-hearted, have sinned and don't do charity etc..Do good from home even before you talk about religions, okay??

AND, I really wonder where the source of the news saying there's tainted DNA in the chocolates in the first place... and how come such news exists?
Will these be unsolved issues, again???

So long~

Touched :')

My recent closures in few projects had made me really hectic.. And to add on to the late hours of coming back home, my elderly landlady is also having mood swings and looking for more troubles.

Lessons: They say the more elderly one is, the more suspicious one would be. 

Could hardly imagine if I become like that too...:(

Moreover, instead of solving problems, she has the tendency to create bigger problems...:/

It has been all along like this but it was occasional, and so I could tolerate well..

But this time, my patience level has reached the peak and I couldn't care much to be too charitable anymore.

What's very disappointing is, (although I never care if she's really grateful or not though her relatives told me so whenever they come; for taking care and bringing her out for shopping etc); the trust factor is missing and this bothers me maximally...

She's afraid that I will not take care of the room after all these donkey yearsssss..(reminded me of the washing machine case in the earlier years that made me stressed if I was going to spoil it).... 

My recent disappointment with her actually reminded me of my past experience with a veryy close, special

person of mine whom I had reacted similarly after giving up on the 'ship' that we had.

They said, don't be 'kecil hati' with an elderly person like her; but to be frank, how many people can tolerate someone like this for years as not even a relative of yours? 

Anyway, she sensed my unhappiness this time and used food to 'settle' me again:

A really, superbly, nicely brewed herbal pork soup!! 

She warmed it in a metal bowl as above and planned to transfer to a glass bowl (of coz I refuse the 'mafan-ness')..

Plus the need to wash another bowl :/

I initially refused before she made, as I don't really want to be linked much anymore and drop it to landlord-tenant friendship and no more community services when I can't even settle my own problems..

And even planned to move out if my bubbles burst...

Anyway, I came back at 11plus night yesterday and she pasted a note on the fridge (our usual way of communicating if we don't see each other) saying the soup is there on the stove.

But what really :') me was, she let the soup brewed warmly with small flame (as I love to drink really hot soups) though she had gone into her bedroom to have a short nap while waiting for me to come back (and at such late hours, see how guilty I felt??!!) that's why I don't want to drink it also so that she won't have to wait for me and I don't have to come back early just to drink it.... Sigh...

Anyway, she then came out when I have unlocked my room, and placed the really, really nice soup on the table :'))

So long la...~

Cow family~

I was in fact, planning to draw water colour pencil drawing but ended up doing this with oil pastels.... 

This is a private post and I don't hope for any copyright infringement stuffs becoz I did get some inspirations from the web :p

Anyway, I feel like 6 again=D

Will work on water colour pencils later then... 

The truth is, I really miss the drawing sessions that I had with our dedicated lab techs' twin kids years ago... 

They used to guess my drawings and jumped around happily in the old office lounge (in which there was really a huge whiteboard) 

Now, a really, really small one without any additional space to write; what more to draw :S

So long~

Volcanoes....

For the first time in my life, a salesperson in a Beauty departmental store was asking me if I need pimple cream for the huge volcano on my face.


Sigh, the point is: I am not prone to pimples many. many years before.
And today, even my junior was like...... is something wrong inside your body??

You'd probably be saying: zzzzzz what the heck?? This also want to complain??! But this is my blog leh...... so pardon me to lament anything that I want here. TQ.

I also know that this post would sound like those teenagers complaining/whining about looks; or to learn to be grateful at least one or two volcanoes only......... but I STILL insist on writing this one, as I probably will laugh at my pimple days later in years to come...

But another point to lament is: the scars are so much slower to heal!!! *sobs....--> thanks to aging factor :'(
 
I blame it on...........................
Though i adore both former and the latter:

 

 All pictures were googled so copyrights remain to them ya~

I am blogging at this beautiful hour thanks to the firing email that I had just sent to my young collaborator after recent, countless incidences...

I have to dedicate my weekend to this person's work somemore but it's okay...it's all about the learning process right....

Well, life is short so say out before things get worse...

The consequences should be.....

I don't want to imagine but something will not be very right though...

P/S: I met up another friend just now and got a free ice-cream today. The point that I want to share here is: heeheee I managed to brainwash someone's thinking to get attached and have babies.... It was a real hardship to do this to that person about 6-8 months earlier. That surprised me...what a change huh? :P :D

But I have another close friend here who has succumbed to singledom life those...and that one, nag until saliva dry also cannot help.. haizz......

So long~

Genes are composed of lotsa rubbish

What a title..but that was what my labmate told me today after I learned another life lesson yesterday..

What did I learn?
 --> Don't talk too much..and life's is always full of rubbish
--> DNA is full of useless things..just like our life...
--> nevertheless, some genes may look useless but it also may have some functions
--> Overall, life is still full of rubbish.

To be frank, I don't talk a lot to people unless those close ones.. but yesterday evening, I was teaching my so-called collaborator on the current project..and sharing knowledge on what experiments can be done

The consequence?
I bet you would probably have guessed it: I was told to perform those experiments..

To be frank, I'm really pretty angry because I find that those experiments can't contribute much to the people's health; other than to get more popular...

So contradicting eh?
Plus, time wasted can never be bought back. Really a hard lesson for me.
I was initially motivated to do their work. right now, I am really at the CBB mode.

On the other side, the st*lk*r is practically irritating me on a day-to-day basis..
From trying to talk a bit to a bit everyday to seeing the id*ot*c face during lunch

Sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

I think life's not that positive at the moment leh despite my trials of getting more positive like before..

Oh yeah, an update on a heart-to-heart talk with my mentor, and he actually advised me on something very personal... ---> jackpot hit!
All along we thought that he can't be bothered about that event (not disclosing here); but LOL he surprised me and we think that it could be due to his wife's recent roles... heehee

I'm just leaving a short note here for the sake of me reading in years to come (when I retire, most likely) and laugh or trying to recall what had happened earlier:P

Happy Labour's Day to all!!
I have to go to school though.....

Even a grass flower is special enough

I saw some lalangs today on the way to office place but it was too far to be captured with my phone..

It was on the school's field actually:D

Really pretty leh....

At that moment, I was enjoying the lalang's beauty as it may be cut off by grass cutter very, very soon..

Just like these flowers that I had been observing...

You probably would feel funny, but I really got very disappointed when these were cut off by the grass cutter:((

I have a collection of flowers taken while

I was on the way to school (like those partially uploaded here).

Lessons: The beauty of life can be found everywhere, and for free~ =)

Remember that, peeps!

One with photo caption because I was busy editing it with a newly downloaded phone app in the bus soon after photographing it... The rest... ---> lazy me:p

P/S: i really don't understand why the font types and sizes are always mixed up so unprofessionally when I blogged with my phone...and I've always have to synchronise it again with pc if I remember..pls pardon me if you see a mixture of fonts and sizes...after all, as long as it is legible..and can be deciphered...- you know what I mean..

So long~

Individuality..

The grass flowers are finally gone (yikes thanks to grass cutter) but this is what i found today:)

Someone told me that each flower is created differently, just like each special individual..

And this reminds me of the fact that each nose print on the dogs is unique too, that can be used to identify the dogs; just like our fingerprints.. 

Have a good weekend, people! 

P/s: recent meetups are all about recommending food to others..think I can switch to another career already:p

So long~